Chapter 4: chapter 4... desire
why, hello creator_of_worlds! this chapter was released early as thanks for his/her comment. please enjoy!
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I looked out over the city. my life was really sh*t. I sighed. the teacher had begun passing out the pop quiz that I predicted would happen today. as I stared at the waste of time, effort, and paper, I sighed again. such a waste.
I quickly filled out the questions and caught a few mistakes the teacher made in the test. after I was done with the boring task, I once again turned my head to gaze down at the city below. what I saw repulsed me.
on the road, a group of guys ganged up on a girl trying to get her to come hang out with them. in a ally, a couple of boys are getting high on drugs and alcohol. in front of a store, a shop owner beats a begger who is crying for mercy.
my eyes stayed glued to the begging man in front of the store. within him, I saw my old self. a helpless, begging mess.
after being beaten away from the store,he moved on to beg from another person. this time, he was lucky. the family of four he had asked were generous.
in that moment, for the tiniest fraction of a second, I felt a flash of mixed emotions. jealousy, hatred, longing.
some may say that I have everything I need and want, while the begger has nothing. they are wrong.
I have a photographic memory, so I don't need to experience something more than once to memorize it.
I had connections with the wealthy and powerful, so I don't need to struggle to get what I want.
I had money, millions, actually. it's just that no one knows of it. with money, I can buy just about anything and I want.
that's what people think. but in reality, the one thing that I wish to have is out of my reach, and forever will be.
a rare change in expression graced my face. for an instance, you could see faint hatred, jealousy, pain, and many other emotions on my face. the next moment, it was gone. what I wanted was not money, power, connections, or even knowledge.
I wanted to be normal.
I wanted to stupidly joke around with friends. I wanted to prank teachers with my besties. I wanted to have a relaxing conversation with my classmates. sadly, it was impossible. as long as I was myself, no one would get near me.
even if they did, it would be for nothing but to use me for their own gain. just like Kain.
Kain.
that was the name of my best friend. or, at least, whom I considered my friend. I no longer am the naive young boy I was before. not after his betrayal.
back then, I had just escaped the couches of my cursed family, and was desperate for any kind of love and friendship...
flashback_____________________________________ ______________________________________________
'Kain didn't come to school today. I wonder why? is he sick? no that can't be. if he was, he would have contacted me. so why...' the bell that marks the end of the day rung as I was contemplating why Kain didn't come to school.
at first, I thought he was running late. then, he didn't show up for first period or second period. so I thought he had some kind of family emergency. but that wasn't right ether. he would have texted me. so maybe he was sick? ' no' I thought. ' that's even more unlikely'. in the end, I didn't know why he skipped school. until I found a note in my locker. it read...
" satsuma, come to the back alley behind the gas station as soon as you get this message. it's urgent!"
Kain was the young master of a rather rich family. on top of that, there were rumors that he was related to the Royal family in Brittan. so, I thought he was in some kind of danger. it wasn't unusual for him to almost get assassinated. it happened almost 3 times a year.
in fact, we had met when I saved him from a suicidal assassination attempt. so wen I got the message, I thought he was once again in danger of dying. how wrong I was...
CREATORS' THOUGHTS 
genrei
genrei thanks for the comment! next time, could you please point out the mistakes in my writing? I have no editor, you see. I'm writing this all on my own. so I am relying on you guys (the readers) to point out my mistakes. once again, thank you for the comment!