lullaby of sadness

I used to like Lullaby’s, each night I would fall asleep to my parents’ soft voices and have sweet dreams about fairy's and unicorns. Until one day those Lullaby’s faded away leaving me with nights of loneliness and tears.
When I finally get away from those nights of torture and when I had finally found a safe place to sleep.
I die.
I finally had a peaceful life. Now I can't catch up with the number of times, I have nearly died again.