~Day of leaving~
Today I am leaving for the china. I had flight of the afternoon so I had to woke up early.
I went to the bathroom to clean up and started to make breakfast and snack. I made some porridges and soup for breakfast and then started to make some sushi and eggs roll for snack.
I was to busy preparing snacks when I heard someone asking me question,"What are you doing early?"
"Cooking breakfast. We have to early so we won't miss flight." I said him.
"Oh I forgot."He said awkwardly.
" Haha, Now go and change." I remember him
"Momma!Hug me... Hug me.. " He called out while throwing tantrum . I looked at him in daze. It was rare to him to throw any tantrum I bent down and carry him.
After I carry him, he started to cry. I got panicked and can't help but worry. "Baby, my prince What happened?" I asked him
"Momma, I dream that you leave me alone and marry with other man. He took you away from me forever." Seeing his tears my heart ache.
He's reason why I still alive. I got him when I lost reason to smile. He was the one who teach me how to live and he was the one who inspired me to be who I am now.
I wipe his tears and said," Baby I won't leave you. Momma love you most. Look at me." I raise his head to look at me. I know that he's feeling insured and afraid now. He's afraid that my family won't accept him and I will leave him. I have to remove that doubt from his mind and heart.
"YU Jun, You're the star of my life, Heart and soul of my body. How can I leave you? Tell me can I leave without my heart? No I can't. I can't live without you."Hearing my words his face lightup a little bit. I kiss him before continuing
"Your Grandparents will surely love you and even if they don't. You don't have to worry about it because momma loves you and I won't leave you. I can leave the world for you but I can't live without you."
The word that I said wasn't a lie or just word to please him. It is a universal truth for me. I can leave my world behind but not my son Jun. He's my everything. My life, My world and my only one child.
"Momma is best." He kissed me and then went towards his room to change. It's easy to console children and making them to forget every worries. I wish we adults could do same.