Chapter 9: Explaining the Emotions (you made me feel)

I thought you loved me, I guess not. I thought you were mad at first but now I get it. Hahaha, I've been so stupid from the start. What in the world made me trust a boy, a boy, in such a matter. Haha, I, I actually thought you loved me, no wonder it hurts so much. Sometimes I appreciate the pain my past crushes have gave me but most of it I regret. You are the only one I appreciate, thankyou, thankyou... for the pain. I honestly think I'm becoming emotionless, I don't think it's Because of my friends or you. I think it's the experience of emotions life has put me threw, emptiness... is that an emotion?. Well I'd say that emotions I used to feel towards you is slowly fading into disapointment because... because I really thought you were the one. I guess now you might hate me, well if you knew, you would probably hate me. I'm sorry for this, But I don't need someone to love me, not anymore, I wish for no more pain... Please... please. Lately not even the up coming of death has made me cry. I smile and laugh around those I truely trust and love (as friends), I support them in any situation that they need me too. I promise you that I won't bother you anymore, I have no need too.