Chapter 5: feelings

finally the next day came. "hey luna!(her Nickname)"shouts Alex waving and running twords me. I look at him. then I feel my heart starting to race. "hey are you ok?" he asks looking at me. I look up at him. I could smell his perfume. I knew I was blushing when he said "you are red! are you sick? or emnerrased somehow?". I realize what's happeneing and quickly cover my face. "I'm sorry..ive got to go-" I say still blushing. I could feel my heart beating and it was beating faster then when we have to run in gym. I realized I had just said that I had to go to the bathroom but- I was still standing there. I look up with a blushing face at him. he quickly blushes. "um! well you should head to the bathroom haha-_-'" he says walking away. I start walking to the bathroom. I close the stall and start getting mad. (stop lunala!! you cant like him! your not allowed to!!) I think. (wow-getting in a bathroom..thats not something you see every day) I think. I get flush even tho I didnt use the bathroom. I start walking to class. finally I realized it was a half day. (perfect!) I think to myself. "hey luna- you finally ok? youve been red this who half day" says Alex. I couldnt even hear him I was so mad becauss I was disobeying mom. "why" I say. alex looked confused. "why does it have to be you?! my mom is going to hate me for life!" I shout at him without realizing. "I'm not supposed to like you! but somehow I do! and I'm not supposed to!" I say while I start crying. alex looked really guilty. finally I snap out of it. I look around and I see a few people starring. I look at Alex and his expression made me feel terrible. he looked really upset with himself. "alex I-" he cuts me off amd begins talking. "it's ok- you know..love is just a feeling..a feeling no one can control..not you or your mom..the more you try to make it go away the more it comes for you..im sorry that I made this situation with your mom and liking me worse..its not easy being hated for no reason..maybe you should just..not see me again" he says while getting up and walking away. as I saw him walk away I could feel my heart sink in. I walked home thinking what a terrible friend,daughter I was. finally I got home. "hey honey~ how was youf half day?" asks my mom. "good" I answer. I head upstairs to my room. I get on my bed and bury my face in my pillow and cry. I cry my heart out so much that I realized. I didnt like Alex..i loved him! he tried making me happy many times. I didn't really care what my mom thought. I wamted to be with him. and I would tell him tomorrow!