Chapter 56: Even if you were human
She straightens her back and looks at him bravely. "This is the first reason. I have to shut my mouth when you say so. I have to speak when you say so. This is not how it should be. I don't want to be with a vampire who is a dictator."
Fu Sheng cocks his head and eyes her silently. She waits for him to say something or get offended. He's not showing a scary expression. She is even more annoyed.
"The second reason is that you aren't a human. I don't like your job either. Is King even a job? All the vampires are insane except the purebloods and me. So, you are the King of survivors. You don't even have a proper job."
She pauses again, looking at his perfectly sculpted face. "Let me remind you. In the apocalyptic world, you can't earn with your face."
Why would he marry a guy who is devastatingly beautiful? He's too perfect for her taste.
She furrows her brows. She didn't know that she had a taste in men. Why does she have so many fickle thoughts?
"I hate you the most because of the bond. I hate this. I hate feeling this way toward you. I hate that I can't control these feelings that are not mine. If you want me, I want you. It's the same for you, isn't? I don't want to be a person because of some magical link between us. You wouldn't see me if there was not a bond between us. A man like you would never have given me another glance if I didn't turn into a vampire or if there wasn't a bond. Even the feelings are fake. You desire me because of the crazy bond."
Exasperated, Fu Sheng crosses his arms. If it was someone else, he would have sent that vampire to the deepest pit of hell.
He releases a deep breath, keeping his face unreadable. She will get scared if he shows any anger.
She's been a human recently. All of this must be new for her. She doesn't understand the bond or why it exists. She isn't used to being a vampire either. Even for a normal Convert, it takes a while for that person to adjust. She's not an average Convert either.
The bond usually helps true mates recognize each other faster and develop the relationship. It's a catalyst for what is meant to be.
"This bond is a curse." She lowers her voice when he looks at her. "I want to be freed of this curse."
To be freed... Was her true wish before she turned into a vampire? A convert has to die before they turn into a vampire. The human heart is stopped by the parent vampire and awakened as a vampire's heart by the same parent vampire. Killing the human might not be a choice for a vampire, but turning the human into a vampire is a choice because the bitten human must be fed blood of the vampire. The parent vampire becomes responsible for the new convert.
That's how things used to be.
But it's not the same for the new vampires. A bite is enough to infect the human and turning the human into a vampire.
Regardless of how they are turned, a convert usually has a strong human wish that he inherits from his human life. It's similar to the ghosts who are earthbound because of attachments.
So, Huang Qiuyan's human wish was to be freed. What kind of life did she live when she was human? Her family seemed caring.
"I would have been attracted to you even if you were human," Fu Sheng tells her quietly. Huang Qiuyan's eyes are full of stars. Pretty! "If I had left my castle and ventured into the human world, I might have met you before the world became this way. I have lived for so long. I gave up on the idea that there could be someone born for me. So, I didn't look for a mate."
He lets out an exasperated sigh. Human beings are complicated. They are fragile. Huang Qiuyan is still a human in her heart.
"You have suffered, my queen." He strokes her head the same way he strokes Fu Mian's head. "If I had found you earlier, you would not have this strong bitterness in your heart."
Huang Qiuyan tenses her shoulders when she feels his soft caress on her head. What strong bitterness? She realizes that her eyes are wet. Why is she crying? Did he do some magic on her?
"Did the world hurt you a lot?" He bends down on his knees in front of her and holds her hands. "I am your true mate. I will listen to it all. If you want, I will have the revenge on this world that turned your heart so sour."
"Revenge?" What language is he speaking? Did he not hear her? "The world is already crazy."
"True." He gives her a solemn nod. "Then, what should I do to make your heart relieved?"
"Help me break the bond," She blurts out.
He smiles at her widely. An odd smile. "Anything other than that, my queen."
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