The next few hours of my sleep, was a fast forward flashes of my past with Edward.
The shy meetings outside the classroom, the shy greetings and smiles.
The long night chatting...
The final confession of love, which I regarded as "A night to remember"
The sweet twenty-fifth of March, almost three years back now.
We confessed it finally, while chatting...
The feelings of happiness, completeness and togetherness were very overwhelming for me.
The lunch dates, the movie dates....
The teasing by our friends, professors...
The holding of hands....
The kisses we shared together, the pinkish blush on both our faces.
I was his first girlfriend, and he was my first love.
My first love, "The Man I ever loved"
I smiled for one last time that night.....
It was time to let go.
It was time to travel my journey alone... without him.
It was time to let go of past memories.
It was time to run along the hour, minute and second hands of the clock...
It was time to make the running into future, a worth.
Acceptance was difficult, but it was much needed, it was now an obligation to live life peacefully.
The heart's yelping didn't stop, it was sobbing silently now in defeat.
The Brain felt bad too.....
But I was determined to move to my new chapter in life....
See the new outlook of life....
And to see where I will be standing ahead in life.
It was time to make the right decision, not by heart, not by brain but by my soul.
The empty soul.....
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(PS: As an author, I'm glad it was in the 15th Chapter that I decided Bella to let go of the past.
You must be wondering why so?
If you see the (my) clock, the minute hand has reached quarter past twelve.
Also it forms a 90° degree angle in Bella's life now.
She has to make a shift.....
And reincarnate herself when she forms the 360° degree angle.
In short words, Bella has to make her life back to square one. With positivity, confidence and faith.)