章節 70: World 3.19

"SOHEUN!!!"

A slap landed on Soheun's cheeks after letting Taehyun go. It rang in his ears and made him stunned in the meantime. This is not what he really wanted, he just liked to provoke Tae Jun and asked if it was really okay for him to let go their relationship.

Instead of getting an answer, he got this strong slap from Taehyun.

Silence fell between them.

Then a small sob escaped Taehyun's eyes. Gasping as if he was trying to restrain himself from the cry he didn't want them to see. For him, being the home wrecker between them is painful enough to bear, but using him to provoke his twin brother is heavier than he thought. He clenched his fist, "Is t-this w-what a-am I to you?" he lifted his head and face Soheun.

The other man saw the tears rolling down from Taehyun's cheeks. He trembled and was about to apologize when the male walked away, leaving him and Tae Jun.

Soheun slid down on his knees. He made a ball of his fist and grabbed his hair. "F*ck!" he cursed. He cursed himself.

"I h-hate y-you,"

Soheun looked up and grabbed Tae Jun's hands. "Why are you doing this to me?!" This time, he didn't care about what the outcome would be. He pressed his forehead on Tae Jun's hands and whispered. "D-Don't p-push me away...please"

The sobs that he was holding for so very long escaped his lips. With his heart slowly shattering to pieces. He sobs between pain and grief. Wanting to hold the male forever and never letting go. Soheun endured it for a very long time. For Tae Jun's sake, he will let Taehyun use him just to support his lover.

Soheun cupped the male's cheeks. "I will do anything!" he blurted out. "I'm willing to sacrifice everything for you, so please don't push me away!" He let their foreheads touch. "Please don't go, Tae Jun…"

Tae Jun was speechless, completely numb. He didn't know what he would feel right now. He let Soheun touch him and gave him warmth. He knows that it's his fault, everything. If there's someone they can blame, it's him. But why are there no tears coming out from his eyes, even if he's hurting inside so much?

Is it because he already gave up? Is it because he's already content? Or is it because he wants to quit?

Tae Jun's hands unconsciously embraced Soheun, who's now crying and begging him to never let go. He brushed the male's back and tried to comfort him. In the middle of the heavy atmosphere, before he left, at least, he wanted to comfort Soheun for the last time.

***

'DING!'

'BREAKMETER: 70%'

'DING!'

'BREAKMETER: 80%'

Taehyun dashed outside, letting his legs carry him to a safer place. He strides the hallways while wiping the tears running down from his cheeks.

[Diccu, I can't understand! This is painful! My heart is shattering to pieces! I can't do it!]

DICCU: ….

His mind was blurry, and he didn't know what to think anymore. The break meter is increasing without him doing anything. He stopped when he reached the parking lot of the hospital. He didn't even know what he was doing here, but he had the car key in his pockets. If he wanted to be alone, it's inside the car.

Taehyun locked himself inside the car. He tried to make sure that there was no one around. "System, show me the information I got the other day,"

A square transparent hologram popped out in front of his eyes. He clicked the unlock and then various words came up, forming the thought he needed.

According to the system, Tae Jun had hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. He inherited it from their mother, who already died in a car crash. He had a weak heart since they were young, but it didn't stop him from achieving his dreams. Because of his condition, their father cherishes Tae Jun so much while ignoring Taehyun. This jealousy went overboard when Tae Jun gave up. Being a famous idol is no joke. He needed to work until morning by not even getting a sleep. Because of this, Tae Jun's condition worsened.

Tae Jun took a rest from the entertainment industry and spent all his money on his medications, though it's not enough. He pleaded and asked for help from Taehyun. But since Taehyun was full of jealousy, he threatened Soheun that if he didn't stay by his side, he will never help his brother.

Then the hologram interface disappeared after delivering the information. Taehyun grabbed his hair in disappointment. "I'm still the bad guy," he uttered.

DICCU: I told you, you are the home wrecker here...you can't change anything

[But I want to make up all 'old Taehyun's mistakes]

DICCU: Don't do anything that will trigger the system.

Taehyun wiped his eyes and decided to head to the Doctor's office. He remembered that he had this missed information about what happened to Tae Jun when he collapsed in the hospital garden.

With his heavy footsteps, he took the elevator all the way to the top floor. When it opened, he didn't waste another minute to ask one of the nurses there. They said that the doctor was busy doing something inside his office. Taehyun didn't mind their warnings and went inside, not even knocking.

"What brought you here so suddenly?" Doctor Shin greeted him with a calm voice.

Taehyun approached his desk. "Tell me what's Tae Jun's real condition?" he said it with a stern tone and cold eyes. He had no time to play innocent anymore.

Doctor Shin stopped what he was doing. He clasped his hands and leaned it on the desk with his chin on top. "I guess I couldn't hide the truth anymore from you," he sighed before opening his drawers and picking a white folder. "This is his medical records," he pushed it closer to Taehyun.

The male didn't hesitate to pick it up and flip it over. He read the words with his eyes. At the very end of the statement, he gasped and covered his mouth.

Taehyun's lips twitched, and he slammed his hands on the table. "What is the meaning of this?!" he almost yelled. Feeling his heartbeat racing again. He gnashed his teeth. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?! He only had one month!!"