章節 64: Chapter 64 - You Choose Me
Trevor's POV
"Yes, Trevor. I'm still a virgin."
Shit! I did not see this one coming. Though, she did say that she wasn't ready, but I just assumed that she wasn't ready to be with me in that way. Amabel is full of surprises. But the fact that she's still a virgin is overwhelming me with joy. That means no one else has touched her before. No one else ever kissed her. She did say that I'm the only one.
"Amabel, were you nervous to tell me?" I asked, stepping towards her and taking her waist.
"I was just... heh... uh... yeah. I was..."
"Why?" I asked her. Why was she afraid to tell me? I would never hurt her.
"Because I have seventeen other women to compete with and to be compared to. I was nervous because I'm inexperienced and most men run away when they hear that a girl is a virgin. Well, at least they do in movies, but still. Just as your fear is to see me walking away on you, is my fear that you would find out that I'm a virgin and then leave. I don't want to lose you, so I thought that the best way for us to be happy was to keep that a secret. I know, it sound ridicu-"
I couldn't hear anymore. So, I shut her up the only way I could think of. Usually it works. When she stopped talking, I realized that it always works. She was thinking way too much about her virginity.
"Never think that I'll leave you because you're a virgin. I am actually so proud and relieved."
"What?" she asked.
"All the other women I fell in love with, they weren't virgins. It didn't bother me, but one thing did bother me. I kept thinking that our relationship was built on sex and money, but never the love. Yeah, sure, a few said that they loved me but they never meant it. Another thing that bothered me was knowing that another had touched and kissed the woman I loved. When you told me that you're a virgin, I wanted to scream from joy. No man has ever touched you before. You told me that I'm your first love. Everything about you is special and the fact that you're a virgin, makes our relationship, our love, just so much more special. It means that you really love me and that you're not just after me for sex, because let's face it. There are probably thousands of men throwing themselves at your feet. Yet, you choose me. Sex is a big deal to you. You want your first time to be with someone who deserves it. Someone who loves you and who you love. Never, ever doubt to think about telling me something. I don't want us to have secrets, Bells. Okay?"
Somewhere along the lines, she started crying. I guess relief was washing over her. I pulled her in for a hug and wrapped my arms around her head as if to shield her from the outside world. A very dangerous place, where darkness lurks in the shadows like a thief in the night.
"Let's go, shall we?" I asked as I wiped the tears from her cheeks. She nodded slightly and took my hand. We walked inside and I grabbed the basket, shouting, "Rena! We're going to the beach. We'll be back later!"
"Mr. Walker, wait!" she shouted and rushed down the stairs.
"Amaaabeellll," she said and ran into her arms. Suddenly alarms went off in my brain.
Get a grip, Trevor. She's not going to hurt her. Amabel is safe.
Shit! When did I get this protective over her? Damn! "Alright, ready to go?" I asked her, saving her from Rena. Don't get me wrong, it's good to know that Rena will take care of her, but she needed a little bit of space to breathe.
I took her hand and walked away. Rena closed the door as Amabel and I made our way to the elevator.
"I'm sorry if she overwhelmed you."
"What do you mean? She was lovely. I missed her too."
"Not as much as I missed you. And for some weird reason, I still miss you. Even though you're right here. I never want to go through that again. You know why I never slept with someone?"
She shook her head. I'm sure I told her before? But I'm going to tell her this anyway.
"Well, I've been having nightmares since my first breakup. I couldn't allow myself to suddenly wake up, almost screaming and scared the living shit out of her. Every night, I've had nightmares. The first night I brought you here, feeling your presence somehow blocked out those nightmares. Since then, I haven't had a nightmare until you weren't here anymore. I've known for a while that I don't just want you, Amabel, I need you. You're my safe haven and my shield. And that's why I will do anything to make you happy and to keep you safe."
"Hey, what brought this on? It sounds like those couples in the movies when one wants to break up," she said, chuckling nervously at her words.
"Don't worry. That won't ever happen. I don't plan on leaving you soon. Never."
We got to the basement and then I opened my car door for Amabel to get it. She got in so gracefully and nodded as if to say thanks. I walked around the car and got into the driver's seat. As we drove, I never let go of her hand. I didn't want to.
Amabel's POV
My heart was beating so fast. Trevor was still holding my hand as he drove. But then he did something that really made me hot. Something that made my breathing pick up. Something that made my knees push against each other. Something that made me squeeze his hand too tight.
He shifted gears and accelerated the speed and when he turned, he placed his palm flat on the wheel and pushed it to his command.
"Are you okay?" he asked me, glancing my way before focusing his eyes back on the road again. When I didn't answer, he asked me again. "Nothing," I said. He looked back and forth in the mirrors and then turned out of traffic's way, and stopped the car. "What's going on?" he asked.
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