章節 11: Chapter 11
Pv Tang Lian
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As the chair rocks gently, I remember how my life changed, I was just another member of the Tang sect, until my master realized my talent in forging, as an orphan I was ecstatic, I believed I would finally become special to someone.
But things didn't turn out as I had hoped, my master had several disciples, some of the most talented in the sect, so in order to stand out, I studied day and night, forging all the weapons I could learn.
My efforts paid off, the master noticed me, and began to teach me separately from the other students, I was fascinated by everything I was learning.
Thinking back now, I don't know if I really liked forging or liked the attention I got from the master when I stood out, I learned everything possible, from secret techniques, weapons, poison, combat style, anything I could learn, I would definitely learn.
But what I had hoped for didn't happen, as much as the master said that I was a rare genius, and that he was proud, he never allowed me to get too close, his needs were taken care of by the students who were considered the most beautiful in the sect, all his students.
I didn't resent the master, it was normal to want to have your needs relieved by his most beautiful disciples, but I still hoped that our closeness could increase, so I sank into the forge, I dedicated 70 years unraveling all the forging methods that the sect had, I wanted to impress the master, I believed that by being a genius I could become part of his family.
What I didn't realize was that by doing this, I was isolating myself from everyone, I became a stranger to my fellow disciples, even the master visited me less and less.
Of course I realized this, but it was a bit late, no matter how I looked at it, there was no chance of getting close to anyone, the master was already a stranger by then, even though I kept telling myself that I was doing it to impress the master, in reality I was just hiding my stupidity.
I wasn't considered family to the master, I was a disciple like everyone else, a genius, yes, but still a disciple, maybe if I had made an effort to get to know the master, made an effort to get closer to the other disciples, things might have been different, but it was too late.
I didn't want to try anymore, I made a decision, I was going to create the final weapon of the Tang Sect, the Tang Lotus Buddha Fury, that would be my last achievement in that world, proof that I had lived, proof that everything I had done was worth it.
At the time, I couldn't understand how pathetic and sad it was, so after my great achievement, I jumped off the cliff.
What I didn't expect was to wake up again, it took me a while to really believe what was happening, a second chance, an opportunity to change, an opportunity to have a family.
In this new life I have a father, even though I was drunk and buried in sadness, I was still family, I don't even remember how many times I pinched myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming, I was afraid I'd wake up and be in the forge again, but it didn't happen, I'm still here, this is real.
Unfortunately I don't know much about my new family, all I know is that my mother died during childbirth, I'm not sure of the details, but I still remember the cries of sadness and despair that Dad gave when she died.
One of my biggest goals is to help my father out of this sadness, so I've tried my hardest, whether it's looking after him, the house, or even training to keep my body healthy.
As I got older, I started to take on some of the household chores, especially the cooking, and I can say that it was my best decision, after all, it was when I went to the grocery store to buy oats that I met him for the first time.
Xiao Feng, the butcher's grandson, as he was about my age, introduced himself to me and I thought it would be a good time to make friends and avoid making the same mistakes.
But his reaction was completely unexpected, he just froze, looking at me, I called him a few times until he answered me, the first thing he said was ( Your surname is Tang, do you have a brother? ).
My first impression of him was that of a strange boy, but what I didn't expect was that we would end up getting closer.
He was different from everyone else our age, intelligent, perceptive, full of desire to learn, and we ended up becoming friends.
Over time, we got to know each other more and more, every day we would go up to the highest part of the village to watch the sun go down and talk about our dreams and goals.
He always made it clear how much he wanted to see the world, to explore everything that was fascinating and different. I wasn't really interested, but the more I interacted with him, the more I thought, ("It would be nice to see the world with him.").
I don't know how it happened, one day I could hardly tell we were friends, the next I was at his house talking to his whole family, it was strangely cozy.
Sister Qin, super enthusiastic about everything, but whenever it comes to Brother Feng, she can go a bit overboard.
Aunt Mei, always kind and attentive, certainly has the best hugs, and Grandpa Li, he's an old man who loves to tell his hunting stories, but I think he exaggerates some, I don't think he can take down a 6-meter lion with an arrow.
Brother Feng, ( sigh ), I don't know what to think, he's definitely a genius, not for martial souls, but his brain works in a unique way.
He's always coming up with something new, whether it's delicious recipes, the idea of using oxen to plow the field, or what he calls a shower, all you need is something big to hold water in a high place, some bamboo and that's it, of course not everything works out, but that's amazing enough.
I wonder when I began to admire him, when my heart began to beat faster, when I began to look forward to the night being over and being able to see him again.
I can't tell you what I felt when we were watching the sun go down, and he simply said.
( I like you. )
I always tried to get closer, I didn't want to make the same mistakes again, but somehow I always felt a wall in front of me.
But when I heard those words, when he kissed me, when I relieved him for the first time, when I surrendered my first time in two lifetimes to him, I understood, I was wrong, I didn't need to make an effort to be part of a family, I just needed to open up to them, let them know my feelings, know how much I cared about them.
I didn't have to make such an effort to be special, but that doesn't matter anymore.
I learned many things from Brother Feng, not only about this world, but also about myself. When he asked me about my dream, my answer was.
"I want to be important to someone, I want to know what it's like to have a big family.
I admit I was embarrassed when I said that, but it was the truth, I thought he might laugh, but he just looked at me confused.
"You already have a family, right? Your father, plus you spend so much time with me and big sister Qin that you're practically part of our family too, aren't you?! "
Yes, I hadn't realized something so obvious, I have a family here, and also Brother Feng already considered me one of his own.
"You want a big family, great, I'll help you, we can join a clan or a sect.... No, we can create our own sect, where everyone will be as close as a family.
It's okay, after all I'm a genius, I'll be so strong that no one will be able to separate us. "
I can clearly remember that day, I remember the sun setting, the breeze rushing through my hair, the birds singing nearby, the taste of the tears I shed with a smile, I remember the feeling of falling completely in love with him.
That day, I fell in love and also gained a new dream, a promise that I will definitely keep.
Stretching out his hands, he summoned the martial spirits, a silver-blue grass with a slight silver sheen, and a black hammer with golden details, containing an oppressive air.
My hand trembles a little with the weight of the hammer, and my spiritual energy is quickly consumed, so one hand helps me keep the hammer steady.
"So this is your second spirit, it's incredible, as expected from my little Lian. "
" Hehe, don't keep complimenting me. Are you sleepy? Or maybe you want a bit more action. "
I put my spirits away and look at Brother Feng, no matter what the future holds, I just hope I can spend as much time with him as possible.
" Hehe, you got me used to sleeping holding your body, now you have to take responsibility. "
" Hahaha you're still like a spoiled child, hehehe, fine, let's go to sleep, but you'll have to carry it. "
" Who's spoiled now, all right, come on princess, time for bed. "
He holds me in his arms, we're both naked, so I can feel the warmth of his body, with my head on his chest, I can hear his heart beating, as he carries me, sleep finally overtakes me, and I start to fall asleep.
My last thought is.
( I love this world. )
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Note: I just wanted to let you know that this chapter was supposed to come out tomorrow, but as I'll be busy, I'll post it today, so no chapter tomorrow.
In the next chapter, I go back to the protagonist, some plans for the future, and a time jump.
I don't remember if Tang San's past is well explained in the canon, so I just created something myself, I admit I was too lazy to look it up.
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