章節 28: Want/Love, Hatred

---ARES POV---

I know it is not only me who feels this way. She also does. These are the perks of being a Lycan king, I can read thoughts even is you are not in my pack.

I regret not killing Asmodeous for the horrendous things he has done to me.

And to Avalon. I will never forgive him. Even if he is my father.

Heavens forbid I be like him. Iinknow what he was going to do and say, he is about to preach tonme about how he son takes after the father.

But I have mastered the idea of not feeding myself with wrong words and thoughts.

For an immortal, I am not to hold on to things like that. I know better than to.

But I cannot help it. It just keeps bugging me.

Now my little birdie thinks I a going to hurt her.

The look she gave me when she suddenly woke for her dream this morning was heartbreaking. It is the first time in all my existence that I have ever felt like I do not deserve her.

It hurt me to know I am the cause for her hurt and pain. I dont mean to strike her sister down and claw out her heart.

I and Sawyer knew each other from way back But then there is no way my Ashter would allow it. His response to any form of threat is maddening. Don't get me wrong, I love Ashter forever. He is me and I am him. So if I don't love him how do i love myself?.

Oh and when did I start to question myself?.

Since I have met Avalon.

I an never hurt her. I have told her that but I hope she believes me.

Amd I hope she does not threaten me.

Ashter has never felt anger towards her.

And I dont want to be her end. I would go mad. I would become a mad king, and that is lesst thing i would ever want.

I do not want her to be my end too. For some reason it hurt so much. As an immortal lycan, the fact that i have lived for this long, it hurts to leave it all behind, some years and centuries back my only thought was to leave this world. The world was worthless, that was when I lost everything, and then came Sawyer, she helped me through my dark days, gave me hope.

But I do not know what I will feel if I loose ever Avalon, she is now my everything.

My world, I cannot think without her in my head. And I am not sure what to do with this feeling. I don't just want her, I want to keep her till the end of time.

And that forever is my intention towards you.

I have decided to respect her space if she doesn't want to complete our marriage rituals.

After all she does not trust me yet.

I still want to know about her dream from this morning, I should have asked. But I could not, the look she gave me, discouraged me. And it like she does not even want me to know about it.

And to my surprise, the scent of her arousal from the bathroom was killing me. I could not hold my tongue, I just acted upon my feeling.

And tried to hold myself back.

"What are you thinking about?". Says her silvery voice. She is trying to calm her nerves, because of her father.

But I do not think I have been listening to her father. I think i have been listening to her. Her voice is so heavenly makes Ashter shatter, I have gave in to Ashter all he ever wants to hear, see, feel, and touch is her, after this morning.

Oh I am so sorry little bird for some reason I don't have the want to listening to your gnat of a father.

For some reason he creeps me out. And I am sure he creeps his daughter out too.

I cannot start to imagine when she had gone through with this twat alone most of her life after I took her sister away from her.

I wave of guilt washed through me.

"Ares?". Even if I do not want to speak to him, i would do anything for her.

"Yes my love?." I replied, shocking myself.

"Um-my father as-ked if you are comfortable with me as your wi-fe and new que-en."

She asked nervously.

Well, what can I say, I would say the one who is very not comfortable with me. She is fighting against two things whenever she is with me.

Want/love and hatred.

"My little bird here does not make uncomfortable, infact, her presence in my life is the best thing that has ever happened to me."

I replied coldly, glaring at her father.

"Hum, I-I did not know that she is that useful". He responds laughing nervously. I place my handon hers, that are resting on her thighs. She is busy tapping her index finger on her lap, she does that whenever she is nervous.

"Make sure he does not regret my dear daughter". Sneaky bastard!. Why bother act all good to her before me when all he ever does to her is make her feel worthless.

"You just really love her so much" I continue playing.

"Oh i do. After her sister's demise I embraced her and was always there for her your majesty isn't that right your Avalon?." He asks her, already knowning she would not betray him.

"Well, I think it is better to address my wife as her grace, or her majesty now. As she is now your queen. You would show her some respect, she is not just your little daughter you used to think anymore."

I say to him. He stiffens, then recollected himself quickly.

"Ah yes your Grace, I sincerely apologise." He replies not looking her, he is not good with that idea. But who is be to disrespect the queen or not yield to his king's wishes.?

I can feel Avalon's eyes on me. She does not expect me to demand that.

Well, she better known that she is the queen, so she better accept any respect given to her.

"You deserve better, little bird, only i get to call you call you that okay?". I let her know. She better get used to it.

"Okay" she replied in a small voice. Good.

"I will have the servants bring your meal, if you dont min Lord Beilish". I do not call him Lord Heaven, because he is not a part of their clan, he has no right to be. He is just a scum and a shame to the clan. But then I am not about to shame my wife's father, I respect her more than anything.

"Oh it is okay I would just take my leave now. Thank you your grace." he says, rising to his feet, and curtseying, the look he gives my little bird is of malice.

Like he knows something that she doesn't.

What could that be?.

Was that why he came to the palace?.

What could it be?.

Is he here to cause some trouble?.

"Tobias!" I call in my bodyguard as soon as Lord Beilish leaves.

"Yes, your majesty" I am very confident in Tobais, so he is the only trusted warlock in the palace, and he has never disappointed me.

"Follow the queen's father, and report to me after. Every of his moves I want to know about".

"Yes your majesty. " he replies and hurries out.

"What is going on Ares?. I do not think it is a good idea to make him follow my father, what if my father finds him?. What if my father makes me pay for it?. What if..."

She rambles on. Oh how he makes her feel. I just want to strangle him.

"Do not worry yourself too much my little bird, it is just for precautions purposes"

It is not!

---UNKNOWN POV---

"They shall regret ever trampling upon me.What does he think he is? Because he is the king?" The queen's father complained to me.

"Not to panic my lord, I think it is not time yet. You should allow him think we are not after his neck but his head. When we strike, he would not know what came upon him." I have hated the king since I was little. He had everything I ever want. The type of father I wanted,the throne, his powers, and a very powerful woman who does not know the kind of chaos and peace she posses in her powers.He gets everything he wants. And yet he acts like he was the one who was tormented when he we were a little.

I was all he loved. All Ares Elijah Mickelson ever had, until Avalon Azalea Heavens appeared in his life. So once I take her out of my way I get to her.

But to get to her is the hardest part. I can not fathom her source of power it unnerving.

And I am not going to rest until I do.

"I am coming for you Avalon Azalea Heaven"!