"Here you go" Lea gave me the medicines that I needed to take.
"C'mon it's not that bad, It's just a fever don't look at me like I have the worst sickness" I try to joke to lighten the mood.
But knowing Lea, as my close friend and knowing almost everything that's happening to me. I know she's worried.
"It's gonna be alright" I assured her
Later on that day Lea bid her goodbye and told me that she's going to visit me again soon.
As I'm trying to sleep someone opens the door and look at me with his bored expression. The expression I just saw two years ago.
My fiance, my world who have his other world.
I smile like I always do, "Have you had your dinner?" I try my best to speak with energy even if I'm starting to get dizzy because of the fever
I didn't get a response so I try to ask again
"Do you want me to cook you a dinner?"
"Nella" He called my name
"Yes, Andrei?" I said in response
"Can you please shut the fuvk up?" I just bow my head, I think I'm used to it
"I'm sorry" I just whispered
"I'm going on a business trip, I'm just here to get my things" He said coldly
"Andrei, when will you comeback?" I asked
"None of your business, I'm going back whenever I want to" He said
"My friends are asking me about the day of our wedding" I'm not sure why I'm talking about this but I find his eyes and stare at it with a little hint of hope
"Shut up Nella, and please wake up!" He shouted at me, pulled my hair and look at me directly. He never do this two years ago
"Do you really think I'm going to marry you? Can't you see how I change? Are you fuvking blind to see the changes that's happening between us?! How many times do I have to tell you? I don't love you as I love you before. I'm just waiting for you to break up with me so my parents can't say anything against me" He said and then leave the room.
In those two years of changes that happened to him, I'm still not used to those words that's coming out from his mouth.
It stings. I can't help myself but to get hurt
But he never said the he didn't love me anymore. It's not like before but that doesn't mean that he don't love me anymore, right?
As long as there is that little love, I'm still holding into it.
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