章節 6: Chapter ６
"He is afraid that I might be played on? I’m a young adult now and I’m pretty sure that I already know how to choose who I want or not. “ I answered.
One more thing, we only see Haden once a year, since when did he get so attached to me and begin to be so conservative? Was it because of last night?
Sara ended the conversation with a sigh, "Forget it, it's a bad luck this time, if it really wasn't for Smith, I wouldn't have asked him to come here and join over just to ruin the night. I wasn’t expecting that he would react like that." Sara heaved a sigh due to disappointment.
The days passed as they always do, and Haden totally disappeared again from our world like he always tends to do.
Every day I post resumes trying to find some position as an actress.
I noticed differences about a month later, I had observed some physical changes with myself. Some of which was getting sleepy, my mood swings and I was always feel distracted and uneasy.
At first, I just thought that maybe it was just because I was under too much pressure and stress. Thinking that maybe I have abuse myself lately. Then I took a few days off to relax thinking that maybe after having a break I will regain my health back, but unfortunately the symptoms even got worse.
Then my period was delayed by half a month already which didn’t really happen to me because my menstrual period was always regularly coming every month. Suddenly I realized that this was a bit strange and I needed to consult a doctor already. And due to this disturbing feeling, I already decided to go to the hospital for checkup to find out what’s really happening to me.
I was examined and took some laboratory test. While waiting for the results, I was a little afraid and feeling anxious thinking that I might have a gynecological disease. I really can’t relax myself. Minutes feels hours of waiting. I just really wanted to know what’s happening to me or if there’s something wrong with my health.
And then half an hour passed by, the doctor took the test and read it and then turned the looked on me, "There's nothing wrong with your health. I didn’t find any gynecological disease and you are completely well besides, it's just normal for you not to have your period."
I was a little confused. I really didn’t get it. She told me that everything was fine with my body but it’s normal for me not to have a menstrual period, so I confoundedly asked her,
"How come it can be normal not to have a menstrual period?"
The following words that come out from her mouth completely blew my mind away as she said, “You’re pregnant...." My mind totally collapsed for a moment.
I was shocked to learn that the reason I didn't have my period this time was because I was pregnant. All of this time I thought that this was a gynecological problem but I was wrong.
As she continued, "The baby is in good condition so there is nothing to worry about, come to me regularly and have a frequent exam, I ordered the schedules in the sheet."
I thanked the doctor after and left already.
When I got out of the hospital, I felt weak in my legs and felt a cloud over my head. I really can’t believe that I was pregnant. It seems that things were happening too fast. And this time I kept on thinking.
I only had my sex with Haden, and there is no doubt that this baby is his. And as I think further. It would have knocked Serina's ass off if she knew that the baby was Haden's. Thinking anxiously if she’ll get disappointed and angry on me when they find out. They raised me up and provided the things I needed and then only to find out that I had sex with her son and resulted with a baby.
Are Lee and his family going to banish me out?
I realized that I shouldn't have Haden's baby. I really don’t know what to do. My mind was completely in distress and occupied. I don’t know what next steps I should do.
If am I going to tell Haden or not. Because I wasn’t sure if he’ll accept our baby or just leave it to me alone. I am really full of conclusions inside my head.
Then an unwanted thought came up to mind. By this time, I wasn’t thinking whether my next actions will be right or wrong. Maybe I should have an abortion and don’t tell anyone about it.
I poked my stomach and felt a pulse from it.
I can’t really deny that I could even feel its pulse. My heart softens and suddenly felt that I don't want to have an abortion, after all, it's a life I've been given. As I pat my tummy I talked to my child and said, “You came into my life unexpectedly and you sure will turn my world around, I will take care of you no matter what.”
I came out to my decision firmly that I should let him know about my baby, no matter the outcome is, because it's his baby. I cannot also deny the fact that no matter what I do to hide my belly, in the near future the truth will prevail. I will not be able to hide my belly once it gets bigger.
I realized I didn't have Haden's phone number, but Sara did, I took out my phone and attempted to dial. It rang once but I just suddenly hung it and talked to myself, “oh my god, is this really necessary?”. And again, I was confused with actions. This situation is really stressing me out.
Coming at the back of my mind, didn't it also seem weird to her that I was purposely asking for her elder brother's number? I’m pretty sure she’ll think strange. And also, Haden doesn't usually come home, and we don't meet at all. “Hmmm, what excuse should I do then… Hays, just come what may”.
After thinking about it for a while, I finally decided to go straight to his office building and tell him everything, nothing but the truth. I really don’t care what will happen next or what will be his reaction when he finds out; I just wanted to inform him really.
Holding this firm decision within me, I courageously looked up to the Citi Group address and finally hailed a cab and immediately traverse the road.
When I arrived at the gate of their building, a well-suited tall security guard stopped me and asked,
"Do you have an appointment, please?"
And without hesitations I stared at him and answered back, "I don't have an appointment sir, but I really need to discuss something very important with Mr. Haden, can you call him for me?"
The security guard grinned with a disdainful look.
"I'm sorry ma'am, we can't call him for you if you don't have an appointment."
From that time, I was just so eager to talk with Haden. I don’t really want to prolong this thing that I should have told him immediately. So, I furiously answered the guard,
"Why don't you help call his assistant and tell him it's Elena who wants to discuss something very important with him. Have him see me to prove you that he knows me."
He asked me back, giving me a strange looked, "Something important?”.
After that he didn’t say any further and maybe this man finally couldn't hold back his temper anymore and called his companions on duty.
I was a bit startled and started begging, "Please help me just this one, it is really something urgent that I needed to tell him (Haden)". And I stifled a smile then added,
"I'm really sorry sir, please sir just this one, just really this time. "
Still the guard was firmed with decisions. He didn’t really let me in and said, "I'll take action if you don't leave.” Then the two security guards approached me and posed to chase me away.
Then suddenly a voice came over, "What are you doing? " I turned around and it was Haden.
I then quickly said, "Haden."
Haden walked towards the place where I am and the two guards, and in an ill-mannered he asked them, "Do you want to keep your jobs or not?"
He then follows up and demanded, "Let her go, she's my important guest."
The guard's face suddenly darkened, and a tinge of fear spread. He leaned over me and whimpered slightly with his trembling body, "I'm really sorry Madame. I've never seen you before, so please forgive me if I offended you."
I accepted his apology and said, "It's okay, I understand. "
I followed Haden up the stairs to his office. His office was large, a large flat area that was open with an office and relaxation area.
Haden handed me a cup of coffee; I was about to take a sip but suddenly realized that coffee is not good for the baby. I set the cup down and let out a sigh, dumbfounded.
He then asked me, "Did you come here to see me to say something?" Haden looked at me with his voice soft.
I don't even know how to explain this.
I then ducked my head like I was making a grave mistake.
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