章節 2: Goodbye
"Will you ever tell me all of you?" I told Cross as I saw him enter the door. I wanted to confront him and tell me about it.
"What are you talking about babe?" I saw his perfect eyebrows slightly furrowed.
"All of you. I want to know all of you. I didn't even know the smallest things about you." All I know is his name and what family he came from aside from his hobbies and a company he owned. All those years we are together he never told me all of him.
"There's no much to tell about me. I told you already." Really? Aside from the fact that you have a fiancee? So that's why you never introduced me to you family.
"Tell me all your deepest darkest secrets. I have told mine so why not tell me yours?" Nights and nights of my terror I told him about it but he never did.
"You know I can't! I don't even want to remember it! Let alone tell you about it!" I flinched at his angry voice. Ouch just ouch. This is the first time he shouted at me.
"Am I not worth it?" Am I not worth of your trust? Your love? And to know all of you? Just what am I to you? A price where you can show to people?
"I-I am sorry babe I didn't mean to shout at you." You mean it you just don't want to admit it.
"It's fine. All of this is fine but know that I am tired of everything so I am breaking up with you and moving out of this house." Yes. I am tired all of this I want to live far away. Away from people and near the calming sound of sea.
"What? You can't! You know I love you! And you love me too! You said so yourself that you will always choose me!"
"Yes I will always choose you, C but I love myself more. And besides will you ever gonna tell me about your so called fiancee and her pregancy?" Ha! Take that you asshole!
I saw him paled and stuttered to defend himself. His mouth open to say something only to close it once more.
"Yes I know all of it. I trusted you! I trusted you all my life! I told you my secrets, my fears and you told me you'll never gonna hurt me!" I said with all the hatred I could master.
"I..I didn't mean all of this to happen. I didn't mean for her to get pregnant!" You didn't mean? So you didn't mean about us too.
"So you did admit that you cheated! It's that it? On what reason? Because I couldn't give myself to you? So you got tired of me!?"
"No! I love you very much and I respect you. It's just that I never meant for this to happen. She forced me and...and.."
"You gave in? So all along you don't love me enough to say you really love me because if you love me... You won't give in to her! You wouldn't betray my trust!"
"I am so sorry, love please forgive me. I can't change the past but I can make up for you. "
"You can make it up for me? What you did is already a reason enough to leave you. Will you choose me over her?"
"Yes! I will choose you over her. I love you too much to let you go." I know you will because you said so but will you choose me to my next question?
"Then...will you choose me over your child?" I saw him gulped and contemplate what to say. Then he finally give me a look, a look that I know so much whenever he has finalized everything.
"I am sorry for all of this, for hurting you but I will choose my responsibility. I am a Ferrer you know that. We don't back down from our responsibilities." It only took me that statement to conclude that it's done. This thing between us is done.
"Then it's over for us huh? You know I don't understand why you men can't be loyal to only one." I stared at him with full of hurt and tears in my eyes.
"But you're gonna accept me right? I will provide for the child but I will be with you."
"You know Cross that I am not a selfish person, I can't deprive the child the right to have a complete family besides she's your fiance. Keep it that way." Keep it that way Jace 'cause you know if I can't have all of you then it would be better to let you go.
"I know you aren't selfish, love. I am so sorry." He told me as one tear fell down his right eye.
"Stop saying sorry I don't need it, the damage has been done. Just know that I will always choose you, Cross. May we find each other again where we can have a happy ending. This life isn't meant for us. We are not meant to be. Till we meet again." I stared into his eyes, his beautiful brown eyes. The reason why I fell inlove with him.
"Till we meet again, love." Staring and memorizing all of his features for the last time. I then remove my gaze and pick up my suitcases and walk my way out. Out of this house and hopefully out of his life with a heavy and broken heart where no band-aid can patch it up together.
Love will make you happy but it is also a heartbreaking one. This love we had is so short and so fleeting. I found love but then it never went my way.
I wonder if I will be okay after everything. Without him in my life. Will it still be the same? Will I be able to forget him? To move? I don't think so. But, I hope I have the strength I needed to live. Even though, it will never be the same again.
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