章節 17: New Me
Forgive and forget, but how can I forget his punishments and his harsh, degrading words which is not religious nor godly. So, when people ask me if I am religious I would just say that I'm spiritual because I don't pray for needs or personal comforts but I pray because that's how converse with God. I love my faith not because I was born a Christian but because I feel great, whole and peaceful when I attend mass or communions. It was never being a saint but being helpless without God and like taking your medicine or vitamins for the souls to keep me and myself healthy.
Marnie never mentioned whether she believes in God but what I heard, she is a Universalist, believing in nature, sun, moon, etc. as the gods and goddesses of earth and the universe. Okay, sleep Vicky because tomorrow you'll be resuming experimental procedure on your mind and emotions. I am happy now that I have just grown a heart. Having feelings or blood pumping all through-out my body, brain and veins feels wonderful. It's saying in loud affirmation that I'm really alive. A living being. Human?!
Morning came and Vicky did her run for about an hour, from home to Carl's Milk Tea shop and back which was maybe five blocks of jog and she's okay. Vicky already bought their favorite tea flavors and Marnie is awake taking a shower upstairs. Hey babe!, I bought our milk teas and what do you like for breakfast?. Vicky asked shouting at the girl. Marnie didn't reply so Vicky made peanut butter and strawberry jelly sandwiches and fruit cereals. Vicky, not able to hear Marnie's reply ran upstairs to join the girl in the shower. Marnie was humming a tune while soaping her body up, and Vicky came in to join in that made the scientist grin . Marnie was caught in a surprise but she wasn't questioning her girlfriends motives but after seeing her girl naked made her want to pull and kiss the blonde in the mouth, literally in a watery situation. Marnie gave Vicky a mustache and covered her privates with soap suds, while making bubbles where she placed on her girls hair and all. They both laughed and kissed each other endlessly.
Vicky told Marnie about her frequent dreams and she has been having them like she just been born again but in spirit. Marnie wrote all the datas on her file and recorded them on her digital hololaptop. Both girls decided to stay at home and watch a movie together since it's a weekend anyway. They are only waiting for another three months for the Brits Science Program and they're good to claim the winning prize for it. Marnie is very confident about the result of her experiments and her project.
I played the holoCD and watched a classic which I had been watching recently, Ammonite. There have been issues on violence and hatred among lesbian, gay and other genders in the LGBTQ+ relations and they're not pretty. Some incurred physical and mental tortures, others, harassment and rape. This has to stop, for we all have rights to choose who we become. Of course it's true God created a man and a woman but biologically and psychologically, we are all different. Why would God make humans the same then I think that would be boring, useless and none sensible. There wouldn't be diversity and fun in the world if we all look or even be the same in everything. We want peace, equality and love but we are all given a cup of life but can use, buy or make our own cups the way it'll fit our personas, characters, moods or likes.
So, maybe, the best thing we could only do is respect each other's differences and mind our own businesses. If someone asks for help we lend one, and if another needs someone to talk to, be generous to give him/her some. And if a person is confused or wrong about an opinion or decision, try to extend your hand to assist her/him in a polite and good way, which he/she won't be offended or be hurt. We can all do this through communication, an honest or heart to heart talk with a friend, a family member or an enemy. Sometimes it's wise too to just keep silent when explanations aren't sufficient to mend a relationship or a misunderstanding. Others resort to court orders or even wars to sort their differences out. But peaceful talks and acts will always resolve issues taller than Mt. Everest or bigger and darker than a black hole. We just need to learn how to listen to each other. Listening instead of speaking over the person or group. Trying to understand a group or person's situation or shoes to know how him/her or they feel, think or what they're going through at the time. Maybe we would be able to understand and realize what we've been missing and what we need to consider doing instead of resorting to violence, uncalled for attacks and war.
Ammonite, is the best film I ever saw and I have been repeating the story in my head because this is a love between two women who knew who they were and never pretended to be someone else. They both knew their love is worth the distance, the sacrifice, the pains. I am a scientist but as if that when Vicky came into my life, I was the one who woke up from a long sleep and lived. She didn't have a heart, she's hallow when I met her but as if that she knew how to love than me who has the heart and capacity to give out love and share myself to others but I didn't do that. How many os us are like that, sometimes even if we have everything we still want more, and if we lost something we regret it but we never took care of it or the person, so why fret. We are human I know that. We make mistakes but we should also realize that we can make wrong things right and that we can change ourselves or on how we deal and perceive things in life. We can make changes in us and the society we are living in at the moment. Heck we can even change the world for all I care. We can make a difference and we should do it now, not later or tomorrow, today! We can because I believe we can do it. We will do it!
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