章節 40: 39: Regaining Memories
Fate's POV,
"Miss Cane please join us" I implore hoping she would agree
"Fate I would love to but I have to go back maybe next time "
Here I was wishing to make her meet Miss Lee but she can't stay I know the café is still closed but just a few more minutes won't cause any trouble "Bu-' I tried to implore again yet she stop me
" I have to go but you enjoy your weekend okay and don't forget about work"
I smile in defeat as observant enough I know Miss Cane is busy. Just glad she came here from her up-to-neck schedule. However being aware of the fact that she and mom were close friends I want to know more about mom nevertheless, it looks. That can happen in the future
She glances at me smiling assuringly "come on go now "
I gestured my hands holding up "Fine See you next week "
"See ya"
As Miss Cane leaves I make my way towards the Lee house. The sun is already vividly sinking into the deep twilight abyss
Opening the entrance I step inside strolling onto the cobblestone alley but before I could reach the front door Something stopped me or a view halts me. My eyes itinerate The Idol who was sitting on the doorstep looking down at her hands 'what is she doing?' Most importantly she didn't leave.
Is she waiting for someone?
Me, maybe.
No.
She won't wait for me.
She didn't
She Never.
Slowly I step towards her. She didn't see me yet. I look around to find others but none. Where are they? And why did Miss Lee let her outside it's cold in here what if she caught a fever 'and you're being caring now.'
I'm not I- just... you know what .forget it!
"Miss Kim?"
Her eyes brown eyes greet mine. The sulking on her face fades away as a smile encased her delicate lips. Her smile. The smile that always agog My heart by its nature
Rashly, I watch her dart towards me and in a second when she was in front. Without any glance, her arms wrap around me, embrace firmly, "You Here" she whispers her grip tightens. It will leave a bruise later. Whenever she holds me it felt like she doesn't want to let go, but still in the end . she acts cold and tells me to leave. How can someone have so many ?... Complex. Can't she just be like others
'Guess not. Afterall she is Jennie Hang Kim '
My body is still motionless I didn't hold her back nor did say anything. Only letting her have her moment. She doesn't mind it though. her body pushed against mine even more. Pressing her nose to my neck she breathes in
'Hopefully, no one opens the door because of the way she is snuggling me if Miss Lee saw this she won't hesitate to tease me .'
My lucidity came back when I feel a warm liquid on my neck. tears? unwillingly my guards shatter down. Closing my eyes, hands raise gently caressing the back of her head "I'm here " smoothingly I muttered. Fortunately, My words calm her but she didn't pull back neither did I . somewhere it feel so good to be the one who could hold her. To be someone who can comfort her. Her acts give me hope but then again her words upset me.
Wait a sec is she doing this just to get a reaction from me? I gradually began to pull her away since her grip didn't loosen I had to yank her. Grabbing her by her shoulders " Why are you still here ?" I ask
"She was waiting for you "I draft my eyes from the idol to the open front door where the whole Lee Family and Oliver with Amy, who looks like she had seen a ghost.
When did the door open? Were they waiting inside or something? Swear I didn't hear anything
'Dont tell me they watch !'
" We did." Miss Lee answered. Probably I said it out loud.
Taking my hands back I walk towards them " How long did you all..'
"Oh don't worry we only see how you were comforting her " Miss Lee smiled and wasn't a sweet innocent smile. She was teasing me cause last night I was the one who told her how angry I'm with the idol and in the next moment we are hugging each other
"Yeah right " Jerry scoffed "How cute and shit."
"Jerry no cursing at home !"
Sighing I went inside this drama has no end. I headed to my room with a presence after me, The Lavender aroma flattered my sense bewaring that the person is close.
"What you want Miss Kim?" I ask grabbing a hoodie from my closet. Smile at how big it will look on her but it will keep her warm
I look behind to find her standing in the middle clutching the hem of her shirt. With small steps, I go close to her "Here." Holding the hoodie I wait for her to take it. her hands reach up clenching the cloth unwittingly her fingers brushed against mine, they're freezing "Your cold " words tumbled from my lips. My utterances make her sore eyes meet mine sparkling with a plea
"I deserved it " she answered
Do you. Should that make me feel better seeing you suffer? But it never.
"Can we talk " she pleaded. should we?
I smile softly not breaking the eye contact "we are."
"Not like this " she beseeches my hands " can we talk about what happened."
"What happened? Did something happen between us"? I know what she wants to talk but not that easy I would let that
" You know what I want to talk about." She implores sharply. The Idol surely doesn't have patience
"No" bold enough I took a step she step back. It makes me grin Is this affecting you? It shouldn't afterall I am the only one who always gets intimidated. But this indeed feels nice "Miss Kim " my breath feathers her face she shut her eyes "enlighten me. now" I order
"Fate" My name inhaled into her lips " The kiss. Can we talk about it " she breaths out
" No. " my answer cause her brows to grimace together her casting haunting eyes glared at me. Anger. '' I'm tired. Maybe later " I turn to leave
" oh umm okay. We can talk later. Can we?" But before I go downstairs I heard her ask. I didn't answer that. I need to think about it. Letting her talk about the kiss means bringing up the same topic again or worse letting her in.
When I arrive in the kitchen found Oliver folding her sleeves guess Evanoff is cooking today " Yo! need help?" She grinned throwing an onion my way, I catch it
"Aww get time for others I thought you would with your..."
I hold the knife and look at her "I don't know what you're talking about ?"
"Yeah right innocent ass."
Aha! she is jealous cause she can't be with Jo huh?
"Hmm, Hey Jerry!" Calling out for Jerry she run up into the kitchen "did you smell it?". Both of them look at me confused. " what? I thought I am the only one who smell jealousy."
"Yeah right. Ha! Ha! Ha!" Oliver scoff
Jerry grinned and walked toward Oliver "Poor Baby also wants a hug" she pat Oliver's head
"Keep your hands to yourself, Lee!"
"You no fun " Jerry pinched Oliver's cheek. hard. Oh God, not her cheek.
Oliver stared at Jerry ready to hunt her down. That intense stare makes Jerry run with laughter tailed behind her
This is not Good.
"Jerry!!" Oliver sprinted to grab Jerry who already left and run into the leaving room
"Guys stop Miss Lee is working!."
I whined they didn't hear me, they were shouting and swearing. Miss Lee would be furious. I jog into the living room, where Oliver is holding a pillow ready to whack Jerry with it. On the other side, Jerry is in front of the stairs prepared to fetch it. Seriously, are they going to fight each other with pillows? what are they Five!
"Oliver!"
Miss Lee?
**THUD!
Pin drop silence The two of them stood together in front of Miss Lee with their heads bowed "Girls. In. Your. Room. Now. "
For the last time, they glance at each other still cursing. Jerry sticks her tongue out muttering loser to Oliver for that she gets a harsh elbow hit.
After they leave Miss Lee looked at me folding her hands "I didn't do anything " I said. It was true I am innocent
Miss Lee gave me a look and shrugged"okay. It's not like it's the first time"
I chuckled "surly they love each other "
"Of course they do"
While cooking together in the kitchen, Miss Lee raised a question "Did you get your answers?"
I smiled and answer " I did but some are still unknown. yet my answers can't change my present or my future. Because I did accept my past no matter what. My future and present are in my hands and I won't let my past ruin it."
Her eyes filled with fondness "Your past will never bother those people who love you and they will accept it with all just like you did "
It's fine Miss Lee I don't care about who will accept or not. I always enclosed myself only blaming my father but now I accept it. I accept me. And I don't care about what he did. Yes maybe I would still get nightmares but this time I won't run, I will face it on my own
Amy Halton indeed gets along with Miss Lee, she looks so pleasant while eating not only that I and Jo couldn't help but laugh at the punishment both Jerry and Oliver received from the elder Lee. Miss Lee truly knows how to give the most delightful punishments that only bring two of them close
As punishment she makes them feed each other and say sorry every time they eat. Even with glaring they did feed each other. I and Jerry also get the same punishment when we used to fight and most of the time I choked on my food.
Everyone peacefully eats their food except the Idol. Like the other day, she didn't sit next to me. She is seating in front next to Miss Lee. Miss Lee would Look at her and smile warmly. did they talk with each other? haphazardly if my eyes meet hers, she would turn her attention back to food. She is not even eating.
Did my words hurt or she gave up?
She gave up, didn't she?
'She did ' I find myself answer to my question.
After eating when everyone went to sleep I stayed in the living room. I grab the cassette tape that Miss Cane gave me the first one draws my attention cause my father's name was written on the cover. The screen lit up as I play the small button and there was nothing. The screen was white that's it. Nothing, not even a sound can be heard
**tsk' I was waiting for nothing!'
I was about to push the small button to turn it off but the screen darkened and then an image brighten up. Where a man was sitting, his back was turned to the camera so I couldn't see his face yet
Who is he?
"Jackson?!" a melodious voice called
The man looked behind startled; shushing the person who was calling him. It takes me a few seconds to realise that it was my Mom's voice gentle, delightful. Happy. I feel more relaxed and sat on the floor.
"Is she sleeping? " my mom asks him. They look younger
In the video, he was sitting on a bench near a window. He smiled and wave at the camera sticking his tongue out " see she loves to sleep in Daddy's embrace " he whispered.
He looked proud of himself
Shocked? No, I was astonished
"Of course. But she loves Momma more." He didn't argue with her remarks he smiled. He smiled! It was a soft smile only expressing how fortunate he felt
"The camera still working." Mom said turning the camera to her. Her face lightens up. Her eyes are delicate black deep drowning-rooted eyes.
Now I know why he used to say I remind him of Mom cause indeed I look alike
"I thought my little angel broke it"
Mom let out a little laugh and sit next to him. She leaned closer to the small form he was holding. A baby, dozing peacefully. She looks back at him and places a kiss on his cheek. The sweet gesture makes him blush.
Blush! He is Blushing!!
For a few seconds when he looked at mom his honey orbs glitter with affectionate emotion. it was undeniable that they looked happy.
He seems to be in love with her. So much.
The camera focused on both of them. Mom rested her head on his shoulder
"How long are you going to film both of us, Honey?" He asks gently
Mom smiled her lips curled up as she looked at him " I want to capture every moment Dear. So our Little Fate can know how beautiful she look when she was a baby "
Fate?
The baby he was holding. I-it was me?
Then I hear a sound of a baby whimper. The baby or I was crying. Mom told him to hold the camera and she carry me. but I didn't stop crying. Not until when I heard his voice
"Little angel look here "
He was making funny faces. I smile then laughter filled the recorder. My parents were laughing as well.
It was bewitching and the baby she seems so happy
Her happiness somewhere makes me jealous.
Can't believe I am getting jealous of myself maybe cause on one hand here I am thinking how worse things get. And in the video my baby self enjoying her best life.
When the video ended I grab the other ones as well. Glancing at the clock I sighed it was past 10. This will maybe take time but today I will finish it all
I played the next where 'Christmas Eve ' was written
Let's see How I enjoyed My Christmas with my parents.
This is going to be a long night.
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