章節 63: 2.32
"So why are we here again?" Will asked, sitting back and folding his arms on the manager's office sofa beside Noah, who was casually examining his nails, guiltily avoiding my gaze.
"Alex and I have something to tell you both," I couldn't stop my hands from shaking as I spoke. Alex reached to engulf my trembling hands and still them in his warm grip. I took a deep breath trying my best to relax.
"And it requires us to sit down because…" a sudden light flickered behind his eyes before he buried his head in his hands, "fuck Han, you're just a kid, fuck, fucking zombies."
Scared he was going to have a meltdown I pulled my hands out of Alex's and quickly crouched down before him, hands outstretched to grab his.
"Han, a baby?" he asked, his tone a pitch higher.
"Yeah big bro, a baby," I remembered the way Hannah would call him as a kid, hoping it would help pacify him.
He looked up, then down at my stomach. Tears in his eyes he raised my stomach level with his head, kissing it softly, then letting me back to my knees to rest as he cried softly.
I trembled, unable to stop my own tears from falling.
Alex stood behind me, his hands pressing firmly on my shoulder a reminder he was here with me, I wasn't alone. I had both these two men here who loved me and my child. She wouldn't die. Not again.
Sharp pain spiked in the front of my brain, making me cry out and cup the side of my face. The last thing I saw before falling asleep was the panicked expression on Will's face.
***
"I'm so, so, so, so sorry Host, please don't abandon me, I'm a good System I promise," System's gloriously annoyingly pitchy voice was ringing in my ears as I lay on the small sofa.
Tommy was shining a torch in my eyes, speaking to me, but I couldn't comprehend it as I was distracted by System's repetitive grovelling.
"Enough, if you say sorry one more time I really will abandon you," I exclaimed internally, trying my best to hide the happy emotion from my face. There was no way I'd ever abandon it, not after enduring these days of hell without it.
"Now, finally, please tell me, is the baby okay?"
"Yes, yes, you think I wouldn't say something if our little plum wasn't okay?" System tutted as if it was disappointed in me. "Anyway enough about her, tell me did you see my baby, my star? I'm so proud, it's so big."
"Wait, her? I'm having a girl?" I asked, tears brimming.
"Yes, going off what I've seen in your memories she is this Izzy you and Noah are so fond of."
That was enough to break me. I cradled my stomach, bending to fold into myself whilst laughing and crying like a madman.
Finally snapping out of it I realised I'd been moved across the backseat of the jeep, my head on Alex's lap whilst Will drove and Noah navigated. The college bus and truck followed behind.
"How long was I out?" I asked, wincing at the glare of the sun through the car window.
"Well it's almost lunchtime," Alex replied, brushing the hair off my drool-stained face.
"Good I'm hungry," I smacked my lips and turned my head back to the side to sleep again, dreaming about food.
When I woke up again the jeep had pulled to a stop near some farmland. The area exposed on one side, with the treeline of a forest a mile away on the other. It was a smart place to rest. Though it also meant you had to walk a mile for a wee and I was desperate.
Whilst in the woods I linked up to search for both the living and the dead happy for Ty's instructions to locate the dead through virus concentrations. Luckily the area was clear a few miles in the forest where I wandered a little, aiming to wash up at the little stream supposedly west of me according to the plants.
Confident it was safe I stripped to wash up in the stream with a bar of soap and changed into some more comfortable clothes. I'd slept with my jeans digging in and could still feel that ache despite undoing the button since waking.
As I was stepping out of the stream in just a large fluffy pink towel I noticed Noah languidly leaning against a tree, arms crossed.
"Fuck," I turned around, face flushed with embarrassment over getting a fright. Shouldn't System have warned me of someone getting too close?
"Don't blame me," System grumbled. Ahhh… it was such a blessing to be annoyed by this little-
"You're lying I know Izzy's in there," his eyes hovered over my stomach before glaring holes into mine.
"I want you to leave me alone," I clutched the towel tighter, trying to find a sense of security.
His hand turned my head and I could only shiver as he tried to force the truth from my lips. That his Izzy was alive and growing safe and sound inside of me.
I couldn't do it. This man would lead to Izzy's death. I would give anything to never endure the pain of that dream.
"I took the pill, I bled, I ovulated again and Alex knocked me up, that's what happened whether you believe me or not."
I stopped caring that he was watching and just started getting dried and ready as he stood there speechless.
"You came back that morning?" He asked, "before me?"
I nodded, though, in reality, it was the day she killed her parents, that was the day she came back and so desperately rushed to Ivy's side hoping to change her nephew's fate.
He scoffed, then began pacing in his rage.
"So you killed her? Rather than trying to do something different, or…"
He stopped his pacing to turn towards me abruptly and grab my neck. "Would you have killed me too if I gave you the chance?"
"Yes," I answered honestly, Hannah really would have killed him alongside his bastard grandfather.
He released my neck, letting out a self-deprecating laugh as he walked away, leaving me to shiver in the cold breeze filled only with the heavy weight of guilt from my lies.
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