章節 17: Chapter 15: Unique
Reycepaz's Pov
DURING OUR junior high school, even she's a woman, she become one of the boys. She's naturally a unique woman that every guy wants to be with, she always on the go with all the gimmicks we hang out with. But the time came when I no longer seemed to understand her.
She showed a motive that she have a feeling for one of our friends, Exequill, and we didn't lack on supporting them. However, a week passed by, she suddenly showed a great anger towards me na tila ba ay parang kulang nalang na buhusan ako nito ng gasolina at sindihan ito at nang mawala ako sa kanyang paningin at higit sa lahat hindi ko alam kung anong nagawa ko kung bakit ganoon siya kagalit sa'kin.
Not only did it end there, she even never showed up her face again. Oh diba ang weird?
Ilang buwan din ang nakalipas at nabalitaan ko nalang na lumipat na pala siya sa ibang paaralan ng hindi namin alam ang dahilan, ang nakakapagtaka lang ay last semester nalang at ga-graduate na kami.
I also heard that she will immediately left for other country to continue her studies, after the day of the Graduation.
Nalaman ko rin na ilang araw lang pala silang nagtagal ni Exequill.
Exequill told me that their relationship didn't work, as if she was still looking for something she couldn't find in Exequill.
I really wonder why she did all those things, did I do something wrong to her or anything?
Matapos ang graduation, biglang tumawag ang mga barkada ko dahil aalis na raw si Kate. Ihahatid daw nila ito sa port at gusto raw nila na kompleto kaming lahat na magbabarkada sa kadahilanang ito na raw ang huli naming pagsasama na nandiyan si Kate.
I had no choice, besides, I didn't want them to look at me differently and tell me I was killjoy so I went immediately to the rendezvous.
Habang naglalakad kami sa gitna ng waiting area ng port ng mga air creatures ay nag-uusap ang iba naming barkada sa unahan, samantalang nasa likod naman kaming dalawa ni Kate na walang kibo.
As I always do, I clear my throat before speaking, ngunit biglang nanibago ang temperatura ng aming kinatatayuan ng inunahan niya akong magsalita na ikina-agaw naman ng atensiyon ng mga tao.
"D—Do you love me Rey?" Nauutal niyang tanong sa'kin habang hawak ang aking mga kamay at nararamdaman ko mula dito ang nginig at lamig.
I was really shocked by the words she asked and actions she showed.
"Recyepaz, I'm begging you to love me! Kapag tatanggapin mo ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo, hindi na ako tutuloy pang pupunta sa ibang bansa. This is Just only my decision and I can stop this if I want to. Please love me the way I love you...Rey " Dagdag pa nito habang tumutulo ang luha at ngayon ay hindi na ang kamay ko ang hawak niya kung hindi ang magkabilang pisngi ko na.
Hindi lang ang puso ko ang nanginginig sa kaba kung hindi pati na rin ang buong katawan ko na para bang kahit anong segundo ay handang tumakbo ang aking mga paa lalo na at nakatingin pa ang lahat ng tao at nilalang sa amin, even our friends are startled for what happened. And worst, Exequill too was there.
Hindi nila ako masisisi sa nangyari, sapagkat kahit ako mismo ay nagulat sa biglaang pangyayari.
I immediately removed her hands from my face and start answering her even my voice is shaking.
"N—No Kate, stop this, I don't love you. And no matter what happen, I will never change the way I look at you, I will still be your friend and it will never change."
Matapos kong masabi ang nais kong sabihin ay agad ko namang naramdaman ang hapdi ng napakalakas na kamay na tumama sa aking pisngi, tila ba ay daig pa nito ang sampal ng malupit kong Ina. Matapos itong sinuklian ang sagot ko ng sampal ay agad na itong tumalikod at halatang humahagulgol ito paalis bitbit ang kanyang mga gamit.
Hindi na rin ako nagtagal pa sa kinakatayuan ko at agad na ring umalis. Hindi ko na rin hinintay pang marinig ang sasabihin ng grupo. Wala na akong pakialam, sapagkat nagmumukha akong kontrabida sa mga sandaling iyon sa mata ng mga tao kahit wala naman akong ginawa kung hindi ang umamin ng katotohanan.
There's nothing wrong if I'm going to tell the truth right? Rather than saying that I love her even if it's not true.
I just learned from those experience that it's not the feeling that matters, it is the people, if it is not destined for you, then you should accept the conclusion. But I think that woman never understand even a single thing.
Umabot ang balita sa magulang ko ang nangyari sa port and as I expected they gave me bruises and hurtful words.
Ang pamilyang Willcovar kasi ang may ari ng kompanya na pinagtatrabahuan ng ama ko kaya malaki ang galit nila sa'kin ng sinaktan ko si Kate.
I don't know that time that my grandfather is a huge businessman, and the only thing I know is that grandpa don't want his child to be part of his colleague, besides my freak father is always bring negative atmosphere to him. And I think grandpa was never wrong.
Ano ba kasing mali doon? I just telling the truth to her and that's all.
Natatawa nalang ako ng malamang uuwi siya dito sa pilipinas, like hell do I care?
Even I'm a bookworm that love any book even it's either old or new I'll definitely keep and read them. However, the books she gave to me, I forcedly donated it into the library for those students na mahilig magbasa ng fictions. Even it is against my will, it's like I'm going to suffer in hell if I'll keep those books with me.
I don't wanna see her face again. Ever.
Wala na akong panahon para umuwi sa bahay at kunin ang sasakyan, sapagkat sumakay nalang ako ng taxi.
Papunta ako ngayon sa bahay ni Lola dahil aside from a box of dark chocolate, ibibigay ko rin ang kakagawa ko palang kanina na Spinach salad with walnuts, honey, and avocado.
She asked me before na, nagsawa na
raw siya sa mga kakanin na dinadala ko every time I visit her. She said that I should bring something else. Dahil baka raw magkakadiabetes siya ng dahil lang sa pastillas at sapin-sapin. Minsan talaga nagiging exaggerated na ang ating mga magulang lalo na ang ating Lolo't Lola.
I just want to visit her and to talk with something.
...
"Oh, ang bait talaga ng Ian ko kahit kailan, pero bakit hindi mo na naman sinabi sa'kin na bibisita ka, hindi tuloy ako nakapaghanda ng marami"
"No, it's okay 'la. I'm just here to check if you're okay and I miss exchanging words with you" paliwanag ko bago kami umupo sa harden nito na ma-aliwalas, na tila ba ay kahit anong problema mo basta't nandito ka, all problem that bothered you will definitely fade.
Hindi alam ni Lola o sinoman na hindi ako nakakalasa at nakakaramdam ng sakit at marami pang iba. I'm just scared to tell them and they will think that I'm might be a crazy.
There are circle of comfortable combination of bamboo and wool chairs around the pond, full of Koi fish inside the small like a garden chapel that brimming with different variety of greenery plants. Mas lalong gumaganda ang pakiramdam mo dito dahil pumapasok dito ang hangin sa labas na dahilan upang marinig mo ang napakasarap sa tainga na mga dahong nagbabanggaan.

"Asus, ano ka ba Ian, okay na okay lang ang Lola mo. How about you? Are you okay? Meron bang masamang nangyari o gusto mo ba ng pera? Tell me.."

Hindi ko talaga lubos maintindihan kung bakit binibigyan tayo ng pangalan kung iba naman ang itinatawag sa atin ng mga tao.
Kagaya ko, I'm born with a name Reycepaz Dixon ang ipinangalan sa akin ngunit "Ian" ang nakasanayan nila. Maliban nalang talaga sa school at halos buong pangalan mo talaga ang binabangit. But like they said, when someone give you a name, it means they care for you.
Habang nagsasalita si Lola ay hindi ko napansin na may sariling mundo na pala ang utak ko at malayang nagiisip ng kung ano-ano.

Hanggang sa unti-unti na akong bumalik sa realidad ng tinawag ako ni Lola.
"-po..Apo! Are you okay? Parang napakalalim ng iniisip mo ah, what seems to be the problem?" Tawag ni Lola habang kinaway-kaway nito ang kanyang kamay sa harapan ng mukha ko.
"'la?.."
"Yes, what is it Ian?"
Habang nagsasalita ako kay Lola, ang mata ko ay nakapocus lang sa isdang lumalangoy sa palaisdaan na tila ba ay nagma-maladaptive daydreaming na naman ako.
"There's something bothering me, and I don't know how to deal with it"
Saysay ko sa kanya, na nag-iwan ng malaking katanungan sa kanyang mukha. Kahit hindi ko nakikita ay alam kung tumaas ang kanyang mga kilay na tila ba ay hindi naintindihan ang nais kung ipahiwatig.
"May isang misteryosong studyante ako na hindi ko kilala kung sino, na palaging nagbibigay ng mga bagay na kailan man ay hindi ko hinihingi ngunit ikinakasaya ko. And this person is always made me feel special and I can't explain that kind of feeling" Patuloy kong paliwanag kay Lola habang ang mata ay nanatili pa rin sa palaisdaan.
Ilang segundo ang lumipas at nabigla nalang ako ng nilamon ng tawa ni Lola ang harden kung saan kami nakapwesto, tawa na para bang wala ng bukas na kahit sino ang makakarinig ay talagang mahahawa rito. Dahil dito ay parang nawala 'yung pag-daydreaming ko at nasa kanya na ang aking atensiyon.
I can really say that my Grandma is the most Incredible senior in the milky way. Dahil kahit 67 na ito ay hindi pa rin ito halata sa kanyang hitsura at galaw. Kahit sa kanyang pananamit ay parang around 40+ pa ito.
From her purple simple then an orange color of scarf around her neck, black trouser , gloves, diamond earrings, circle glasses and two inch sandals, I can say that she really embrace the eclectic of fashion.

"Reycepaz, there's only one word for you my son.."
Nakakapagtaka dahil simula bata pa ako ay hindi ko narinig na lumabas sa kaniyang bibig ang totoo kung pangalan, at 'yun ay kung seryoso lang ito, Isa lang ang ibig sabihin nito, she's dead serious.
"You are in love..."
It was as if I was deaf to the words that Grandma uttered that caused my inexplicable reaction.
"Yes, dear. You are Inlove."
Inulit pa nito na tila ba ay nababasa nito ang reaksiyon ko. Hindi naman ako bingi talaga lang na hindi nagprocess sa utak ko ang sinabi niya.
"Are you sure Lola?" Tanong ko sa kanya habang medyo natatawa.
"Dear, You can stop everything, but you can't stop Love. Love is the one who give us strength, so love until you feel nothing else aside from forgiveness"
I hear those phrases over again. The phrases that I'll never forget in my entire life.
Asawa nga niya talaga si Lolo. And she's right, she's always be right.
"But the thing 'la is I don't know her.." sagot ko sa kaniya.
"What a little problem my dear, tumayo ka diyan at hanapin mo 'yung babaeng 'yun!" Sambit nito habang pilit akong pinapatayo at tinitulak-tulak paalis.
Nakakabilib lang talaga na may lakas pa siya na ako ay itulak.
"Don't come back here if you can't bring her with you and introduce her to me, okay!? " Huling Buweltahang sigaw pa nito at kinuha ang dala kung pasalubong para sa kaniya, dahil sa kalutangan ko, hindi ko napansin na hanggang ngayon ay hawak ko pa ang pasalubong at tuluyan na akong nakalabas sa bahay nila.
"Seeya 'la! I promise I'll going to know and bring her soon!" Huling sigaw ko bago lumabas sa gate.
Pumara na ako ng taxi na dumaan at agad ng sumakay pauwi.
Narealize ko lang na Lola's definitely right, I need to know that girl.
I'm so naive, besides I didn't even realize that I'm Inlove, like, what the universe.
I want to know her, to meet her, to hold her hands and to give all the love I can sacrifice. Even it's against to the university's rule.
I'll going to prove to them that love has no boundaries. Love has no rules. And we have a freedom to love and no one can't stop from it.
The thing is, how can I find her? Should I make a survey questionnaire and let every woman in my classroom answer the questionnaire as them as my target audience?
What a silly idea you have Reycepaz.
Habang nagiisip kung ano ang dapat kung gawin para mahanap ko siya ay napabaling ang tingin ko sa rearview mirror ng taxi na ikinagulat ko.
I literally got goosebumps to see that the mirror that is just misty and black before become even more darker and blurry.
When I asked the driver he said that it was clear to him that he can see a reflection. He can literally see his self and my reflection. Like what the hell I thought mirror is just invented just a design or because it was a unique material.
Ano ba kasi talaga ang nangyayari sa akin? Why I'm different from others? Is this the impact for not eating properly?
I wonder if this is what they called a vision or something's going to happened and myself is involved. I wonder if I'll know her before this vision happen.
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Last date updated: April 28, 2022
Last update I: 09/30/22
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