The atmosphere was more than awkward, it was suffocating, I found myself gasping for air every five seconds and I know it was because of the guilt I felt.
Emily has said more than ten words to me in the last five minutes and I know it's because of the way I treated her after the phone call, I was wrong but I didn't want to admit it, at least not to her, also, it's not like she's bringing it up or anything.
I know the way I cut her off is bad, and even if I said I didn't, I know I tried to boss her around and that is not good, she might have thought I've finally decided to take on my role as the Luna and that's not true, even if I'm acting like a Luna to everyone else, I wouldn't do that to her, I was just angry and I was angry for no reason, but God, I don't want to apologize!
"How did the party later end?" I asked trying to make the environment lively as it's not okay for a driver's mind to be preoccupied, but instead, it got gloomier
So much for not wanting to be called a bitch and not wanting to do the same to others, I guess people don’t change so easily
I decided to postpone the drama for a well-fitted time, right now, it should all be about happy times and detective acts, anyways, I must say I’m really happy I’m doing this, I mean writing.
Just as much as I want you people to get the daily update you deserve, I must say it’s giving me a sense of purpose, the thought that I must do this daily or else I would be failing a lot of people really helped me realize how well I’m doing in being considerate and how well I want to do in the future
Honestly, at first, it was all about wanting to earn to monthly bonus, but then, I realized that kind of mindset was not helping me at all as it keeps making me feel forced to do it right now, the comments and good reactions I’m getting has helped me change my mindset and now I’m doing it for me as it makes me feel like a professional like I have a work and a deadline, and I must work up to it wholeheartedly
Now, I’m so sorry for the rant, thank you all for reading, Amelia, and thanks for the comments, I’m really grateful, Ellie, you still remain my No. 1 fav, and SmokingBitch, I love the name XD
Love you all! For real!
*Gives a Jin wink and flying kiss before disappearing*