章節 44: Trevor's fear
Max was a little confused because he remembered Trevor being very calm while dealing with Vanessa in the campus parking lot. But Sammy told him otherwise, he really had not seen or felt anything unusual about Trevor that day, was he really that lost that day? But he clearly remembered things until he fully released his pheromones and lost control and Trevor was fine back then.
"I am telling you big brother, do not let his big body and dirty mouth fool you, Trevor is a reasonable and sensible man and most importantly he is an Omega! I don't know where you are in your relationship, but you seem to have forgotten that it's not easy for an Omega to see his Alpha in pain or defenceless. If he is your mate, it must have been unbearable for Trevor to see you like that! That day he called me to take care of that bitch, he was almost crying on the phone."
Max felt like an idiot now, because he realised that he had actually forgotten a long time ago that Trevor was actually an Omega, because he didn't act like a typical Omega, he was not weak, he always relied on himself, he was smart, fearless, stubborn, even to Alphas and had a strong mindset, he actually had all the assets of a typical Alpha, if he didn't tell you he was an Omega you would think he was a Beta or Alpha. That was why after all the time he had spent with Trevor Max he had forgotten that he was actually an Omega, and as Sammy had reminded him, it was natural and painful for an Omega to watch their Alpha in pain and that, regardless of their power. To them, their Alphas were their world, they were the strongest in their eyes and their pillar in life, so it was really hard for any omega to see his alpha vulnerable, it was like their world was collapsing and opening the door to all their fears.
He understood why Trevor did not even want to hear Vanessa's name and that his behavior was even more hurtful to Trevor. He swallowed hard as he looked at the door in front of him.
"Thanks, Sam, I'll call you again tonight, I have to go!"
"Wait... Be good to him brother, he deserves only the best! If I was in his place I would not have done that, I would have surely left that whore there to rot with that drug! However, I wonder why Trevor didn't do that, knowing him, I am sure he wanted to do that so badly!"
"I think I can guess why he acted the way he did... Thank you, Sam, do not worry, I'll take good care of your friend!"
After the phone call, Max goes back to her bedroom. Trevor has his eyes closed, but Max knows he was not asleep, he hopped on the bed and lay down next to him, taking him in his arms. Trevor did not respond until Max gave him a light kiss on the forehead.
"I know you are not sleeping baby..."
"I don't want to talk or see your face right now..." Trevor was still sulking turning his back to Max.
"I am sorry, I should not have talked about her when you just woke up after being hurt by her... Can you forgive me? It will not happen again, I promise!"
Trevor only replied mockingly, "So now that you know nothing happened to her, you are asking for forgiveness? Are you that happy that she's okay? Don't get me wrong, I only did it because I knew you would act the way you did once you recover your sense! But let me tell you I am still the bastard who wanted her dead!"
Max sighed heavily Trevor was certainly a vengeful man, but this time it was his fault for bringing this subject up without even thinking about Trevor's feelings, and instead even just focusing on what could have happened to that damn girl. He felt both stupid and apologetic, he really needs to change that side of him as Trevor said.
"Babe, it's not that, I ask for forgiveness for not caring about your feelings, once again, I did not see what you could have been going through... Please forgive me, since you are so strong and independent, sometimes I forgot that I should care about you first, that you can be hurt too..."
As Max spoke, Trevor wrapped his arms tightly around Max. Max fell silent as he felt Trevor shaking in his arms... "Had he been crying?" Trevor was not the type to show his emotions, let alone cry... Max felt a sharp pain in his heart, he had made him cry one more time and that was not a nice feeling. He stroked Trevor's back slowly and quietly as Trevor clung to him even tighter, letting out small cries this time.
"I was so scared! I thought I was going to lose you... What if I had not been at school and had not seen you? What would have happened then? She was going to take you away from me! I could have lost the love of my life so easily... I... I... "
"I know... I know... I am sorry I made you feel that way, Trey..."
At that moment, Trevor was unstoppable, screaming at the top of his lungs. By the time he woke up, he had done his best to not let his fears out and show Max his weakness. That day had been one of the worst for him, both mentally and physically. Seeing Max so pained and defenseless had made his fears about spending his life alone come back with maximum force. It was as if all the things he had planned to do with Max, all his dreams of having a child and starting a family with Max, were shattered in one fell swoop!
Max fell silent and slowly let Trevor calm down. It broke his heart to see his lover crying like that, but somehow he was also a little happy, because he could testify with those tears how much Trevor loved him.
"I promise to do everything I can to make you stop feeling like this! So please calm down," Max said and hugged Trevor tighter, exuding his pheromones to make him feel like he was there and not going anywhere. Trevor slowly calmed down and gradually fell asleep.
At one point Max wanted to go out and order their dinner, but to his surprise, he could not move as Trevor held him tight in his arm and would not let go even in his sleep.
It was then that he noticed that since Trevor had woken up, he was a little more clingy. So clingy that he even asked him to wash him. Max thought it was just because he was too tired, but when he thought about it, Trevor was not the type to ask for help, not even from him. Thinking about it, even more, he remembered those green, sad eyes as he left to get their food earlier. He felt bad that he had not noticed sooner, he felt like a bad boyfriend.
He was fast to notice when Trevor was hurting him, but he didn't put much effort to protect Trevor's feelings. On the contrary, Trevor even when doing something that would hurt Max, had always done his best to make things easier for Max even when his way of doing things was wrong, he had always thought about how Max might feel. Max was still struggling with his thoughts when the doorbell rang.
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