章節 3: 3. An Ephemeral Life of an Immortal
Inside the Shell of the New Universe, Ye Feng chortled once more as he found his life laughable.
He cleared his mind about the world, and then, he heard it, the being that had kept quiet all this while.
"Center of all, what is it that you find funny?" It asked, without referring to Ye Feng's name.
Ye Feng cared not for his name but as it was something, at some point forgotten as well, "I just find it funny that even after finding everything, I failed to see what I am. I know everything in the Universe, yet I was unable to comprehend what is it that I want.
"I saw uncountable lives, living in a far worst situation than I. Yet all managed to smile in their endeavors. Only my passion kept my feet going, and with my ambitions complete, I find myself unable to do nothing but laugh at the stymied life that I had lived. I was unstoppable in power, yet I was barred from entering a life that was colored. I am but a mere vintage soul that had ironically failed to grow old." Ye Feng felt nothing. He was empty once more.
"You, who walked two lives in one life found emptiness in both, creating the void in your heart and soul which I now house. You are strong, stronger, than anyone I have watched.
"Yet you are weaker than everyone else, do you regret your life?"
"I do not know. I have seen others' lives, and I know that they lived better lives than mine. I find the path that I took to be laughable, but I do not know if I regret it or not. Some regret nothing if they throw away everything to accomplish their wish. While others regret nothing if they throw away their dreams in pursuit of love and happiness.
"Accomplishing something does make one satisfied, but creating a healthy relationship is the same. One can accomplish one of the other and even both, and they are satisfied, but I cannot judge anything for I know not what is anything. In my youngest years, I lived in a Palace, and in the Imperial Life that I led in my earliest days, I already had to strengthen my heart and abandon any hope of being loved.
"I was not reared by a Mother's embrace for she left me the moment I was born. At the age of three, my father threw me into a Sect to gain connections. I lived a life of emptiness the moment I was born. Even judging if I regret anything is a luxury, I cannot tell for I have nothing but fabricated lies that had been cultivated to find survival."
Ye Feng had nothing… and the Beast of Origin understood this.
"You are pure without a single blight. It is impressive that the moment you gained enough sentience, you already cut off your emotions in order to survive. Prodigies and geniuses are cursed to be as such, but unlike others, you failed to find salvation, but in your deepest desire, I can see that you seek to laugh and cry. You sought the wisest of them all to be enlightened and fill your void but failed for when you asked him how to do it, you were already dead. A dead man cannot find life, and you were unable to fill your void, but you are not complete for I have managed to fill the space you so desire to fill…
"You who now find a normal life envying shall have a chance of living a life filled with happiness. You can no longer kill your own emotions, for I shall stop you when you do because I want you to find life. I who had no life of my own want to know life, and as you and I are one, I wish to live a life filled with colors — a life not filled with black and white, but with a myriad glow."
Ye Feng listened to the words of Aether, and for the first time in his long life, he felt enlightened. He was never alive; he was a corpse. His flesh did not rot, but his soul did.
As this enlightenment came to be, the Shell of the Universe cracked then broke, and for the first time, he saw the light.
This was not the light of the sun, and neither was it the light of anything physical.
This was the light of life.
'Living is all that I want.' Ye Feng realized this fact and the Egg around him shattered.
'Let me OUT!' he screamed inside his heart.
He felt constrained, he wanted to get out of the darkness, so, he did his best and crawled out of there. After what seemed to be an eternity, he got out of the crevice with a drenched body.
"I am FREE!" He cried out of pure happiness and bliss. But he failed to hear his words as the only thing he heard was the cries of a baby. With his still blurred vision, he noticed that he was surrounded by giants.
= "It's out! Congratulations, Ava, it is a boy!" =
His cultivated patience and steel-like heart were momentarily suppressed by some unknown force.
"What are they saying? What is this language?"
And as his stress peaked, his vowel movements turned rocky, and then…
= "He made a mess, hahaha." = a woman's laughter echoed.
Ye Feng let out a cry without holding back as shame surfaced in his heart, for the first time in his life,
The emotion was SHAME. It was a shitty emotion to have, but it was an emotion nonetheless.
With this, he had regained a fraction of his humanity.
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