章節 28: NAKED MEMORY
PROLOGUE
3 YEARS, she did had a very long ride and life in Canada pero hindi naman maalis sakaniya na mamiss niya ang bansang kinalakihan kung saan una siyang naging successful. From her name Fantasymind the publisher from Canada let her change into a new one so she could start a new life so her author name was Venomous. No one knows her identity that she was writing a romance-erotic and she was a girl. People thinks she's a he. She choose to hide herself, her identity para narin magawa niyang atlease makalimot sa masakit na nakaraan but doesn't mean forgetting her past is forgetting her feelings for him. No. For the last three freaking years, hindi nawala sa puso niya si Migo.
She decide for them. Alam niyang hindi tama ang ginawa niya but that time, she doesn't have any choice but to do the right thing and must. She decided it for him dahil ayaw niyang mahirapan ito. Bourne Enterprise is his family and his uncle asking him to choose? Hindi niya kayang mawala ang pinaghihirapan niya dahil lang sa isang babaeng tulad niya. They can meet one day again. But not now. They can be together someday. Near future?
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This is her home. Another home. Ngayon, nasa kumpaniya to take some manuscripts for the new story she was about to do and It's near done to editing and malapit narin ipublush sa bansa so she have to be right busy focus on the story then come out to have a vacation.
"Vera." Napalingon siya ng makita si Trevor at napangiti narin. Trevor was 22 when they met now he's 25. Old enough, siya naman 28 na ngayon. Yeah. Pakiramdam niya ang tanda na niya sa edad niya. "Hey. I thought you're not here." Aniya at mahina pang tumawa.
They become close and friends too. "nope." He said and popping the P.
"Dad ask me to come here, there's another author that sign up with the publisher. She's famous like you so I think, you have competitor now." Tumawa naman siya.
Competitor? No. "Trev. I don't look completely competitor. And besides that's great to have a newly part of this company. Like the others I met before they were nice. Is this new one nice too? I mean. She should be nice right?"
"I heard she was mean and rude and I heard he always thinks other author like him is a competitor to his life. You better get be scared."
Sinamaan niya ng tingin si trevor. "You're such a idiot. Trevor and don't scare me like I'm scared. When did you saw me get scared huh?" Inis niyang sambit kay Trevor.
"Never?"
"Exactly."
Umiling siya. "Who ever she is? I'm still the senior in this building. She could be this new one. Just for you to know. I am no competitor with anyone and I don't like being competitive." Aniya. For three years she keep speaking english for him alam naman niya for a foreign like Trevor even you teach him tagalog it will be hard. Pero tingin niya nakakaintidi naman ito.
"Not competitive you say? How about that time woman came here as a new writer and she was fighting over and trying to ruin your job. Right? I remember! You slapped her and make her leave this company for sake because of insulting your work. I can still remember that."
She rolled her eyes. "Whatever. You know me better I know myself, Trevor and It's been three years since the moment I came here and—"
"And you left your husband?"
Tumingin siya kay Trevor sa hindi makapaniwala na marinig iyon mula sa kaibigan. He really do know a lot. Lahat alam nito at wala na siyang maitatago na kahit na ano mula dito. Bumuntong hininga naman siya.
"V, you know you take a break and go back to the Philippines besides your birthday is coming. I can come with you, If you want. Don't you have any plan to do something for yourself? I mean is, for yourself— you should have give yourself a gift we both know you still love him."
She glared at him. "Trevor, you know he hates me and he willl never forgive me. Probably because I left him, I didn't say anything and just left him. He could hate me by that." Aniya.
"How do you know? Did you ever ask him already? No. You have to face him. Three years without him, I saw how hard it was for you. I know how hard to let go a man you love. A person that you want to be with forever."
"Another thing that you decide for the both of you. When you left you didn't even give him a chance to decide what to do. But you choose to sacrifice and what? Left him? As a man, you should know. Deciding on your own is not good. I mean. You two are a couple, you should put on deciding as both. Not as yourself. You give him pain, but he loves you. Right?"
Tumingin siya sa kaibigan. "Why do I even feel that you keep pushing me to go back home?" tanong niya sa kaibigan. Tinawanan naman siya nito. "Because as a friend, I know what you need. What? You can't hide here in Canada forever. He must be waiting for you."
Napaisip nalang siya. Was he? Waiting for me? Baka umasa lang siya sa wala, baka umasa siya tapos masaktan lang naman pala siya. Paano, kung galit na galit si Migo sakaniya? But they never broke up! She just left but doesn't mean they are broke up. Hindi naman sila naghiwalay probably there is a way to have him back. Siguro, siguro kaya niya? Siguro panahon na talaga para bumalik siya sa pilipinas kung saan ang buhay niya noon.
Since she left. She cut the contact from Philippines, from her friends and former co-authors in her former publisher— she cut everything kaya wala narin siyang balita o wala na siyang alam anong ngyari sa mga kakilala o kaibigan niya. She even cut the contact with Taffy just to have her life. She knows how wrong is that pero alam niya rin naman na may sariling buhay si Taffy and she is creating her life. She doesn't want to bother her tho.
Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga. Then may inabot naman sakaniya si Trevor na agad niya tinignan. Halos lumuwa ang mata niya.
"The company in Philippines is about to open. Dad wants to sent me there and he told me to bring you. Because he knew you need this and besides. You're the one that can help me since you are born there. I'll give you time to decide okay? And this, this is our advance birthday gift for you. I know, you need time. Alright?"
She can't believe it. "I.. I already think to accept this. Trevor, when is the flight by the way?"
"Tomorrow."
"Oh. Okay. I'll pack tonight?"
Mahigpit siyang yumakap. "Thank you, Trevor for being there for me and always supporting me. You know. You've been there for me for three years that we met. I knew you'd be good." For three years she never and ever forget to say thankful to Trevor. Because Trevor is the friend she had when she need someone to be with and talk with her problems or feelings. For three years hindi nagsawa si Trevor na bigyan siya ng advice. Kahit nakakasawa na paulit ulit nalang na matigas ang ulo niya. Hindi naman nagsasawa si Trevor na bigyan siya ng advice sa problema niya.
"You know that you can always count on me, right? I'm your friend. Will always be your friend and also. Teagan is coming with us."
Teagan. Teagan Levesque is Trevor's Sister, Halos isang taon lang naman ang agwat nila.
"That's nice. She will love Philippines since she likes fashion and Philippines had that." He chuckled. "Definitely she's going to love that."
Parehas silang natawa.
Philippines, wait for me. I'm coming home.
HE JUST fly back to Philippines from Singapore para sa business at para sa Enterprises na nakipagkita siya sa isang Project sa singapore lalo na lumalaki ang kumpaniya. He become so dedicated with his work and company for three years, ginawa niya lahat to bring back the company and not waste the time and money he had from his parents. After he went into accident he doesn't known what happened and how he got into accident basta mahalaga sakaniya na maayos siya and he knows the people around him. Kilala niya lahat ng tao sa paligid niya.
"Migo!" A woman's voice caught his attention and there was his fiancè kasama ang uncle niyang si Mark Bourne. Ngumiti siya at binati agad ang babae. "Qianru.." Bati niya dito.
It's just a week, but actually? He misses this woman so much. "Migo, how's Singapore?" tanong naman ng uncle niya. In a few years alam niya ang rason bakit narito sa tabi niya ang uncle niya at hindi siya tinitigilan. Money. Of course. "Still a Singapore."
"We better get going. Right? Let's go eat out?"
He smiled to Qianru. "Sure. What do you want to eat, babe? Uhm. I guess you'll choose Korean since you do love korean foods."
Lumingon siya sa uncle niya. "Oh. We will use my car, I need to talk to my babe too. Alone." Tila wala itong nagawa at hinayaan silang dalawa at ng magkasama na sila ay yumakap siya kay Qianru at parehas naman silang tumawa na tila nababaliw but nope. They are not crazy. "Gosh. I can't believe he fall for this game I mean. He doesn't even know. We are playing around, I mean. Have you seen his face? He is so funny. Masyado siyang sunod sunuran tapos pag talikod sinasaksak na pala tayo at nakakatawa siya panoorin!"
He laugh. "That's right. I've seen how funny he is. After my accident he become like that and engage me with the woman that technically had to same with me. That man has a guts to engage me he doesn't even know the woman hates him too and our deal continues, Qianru."
"I am thankful for helping me, he deserve to pay for all the cost he did to you and to me."
Ngumiwi si Migo. "If I didn't caught you before, I wouldn't actually know that you are the person I've been looking for to help me with this. He thought I will be this good person for him since I went in accident and coma. He doesn't even know me. He wasn't there for me in three years. He doesn't know anything."
Naguusap lang sila when someone hit his brain.
"Sorry if you love me then I don't love you. I'm so sorry, sana hintayin mo ako I just need to think."
"Wait for me. Wag kang maiinip, please? Let me love you. Will you wait for me to love you?"
Tila nagising siya sa isang panaginip na hindi naman niya alam kung ano. He was there with a woman. But the woman's face were blurred. No. He knows everything! He all remembers. Pero bakit tila wala, wala siya maalala tungkol sa pangyayaring 'yon? Did I actually forget that? Hindi niya alam kung sino ang kasama niya. At that memory, he can't really remember anything at all. What was that? Or, who was that woman speaking those words in fake asleep himself?
"Migo? Is there something wrong?" Nagaalala na tanong ni Qianru sakaniya. Agad naman siyang umiling dito. "Nothing at all.."
He doesn't want her to get worried so he make sure that he wouldn't know that something hit his head. Besides, problema niya iyon and Qianru shouldn't be part of his own personal problem. At last long that he have been living. Maybe his friends can help him?
A days after he got home bumisita siya sa bahay nila Heaven and to see the two is fucking a hoe again. He rolled his eyes at lumakad sa loob ng bahay ni Heaven. Rinig na rinig niya ang ungol ng mga ito sa sala naman sila tumitira ng babae ang when he open the door. Well. Nakaupo si Heaven sa couch and he is fucking this woman in that position nakaupo at nakatalikod mula sakaniya then Heil is thrusting himself into her mouth.
This is gross. Napailing siya at pinatapos sila sa ginagawa until they are finished.
When the woman left he starts to talk.
"I have this kind of memory of a woman. But I don't know her. Who is she really? I mean all I thought I can remember everything but I guess I miss one thing to my memory."
Nagkatinginan pa ang magkapatid. "Ano bang sinasabi sa memorya mo?" Heil asked in confusion. Ano nga ba ang sabi sa ala ala niya. It's something like. "She was talking to me asking to wait for her to love me." Nagkatinginan muli ang dalawa.
They.. they knew, aren't they?
"Who is she?" He asked to expect that they will spill out the name but another voice came in the house. "They will not going to tell you."
Tumingin siya nakita niya si Pollux na naroon at nakatayo. "Things are not supposed to be answer by other people. In your situation you can't ask anyone of force your brain to remember it and as a doctor. I know. Migo, we won't tell anything. You have to go and remember things at your own. That is your memory. But do not force your brain. It can cause a brain hemorrhage or bleed into your brain and cause you in coma again. Please."
"But I have to remember, Pollux." Umiling naman ang kaibigan niya at totoo ang pinagbabawal nito ngayon. "You can't force your brain to remember things. Migo."
"But.."
"Just forget it. One day, you'll remember things too. Okay? As a doctor. I'm also your doctor. Migo, and as a friend you have to take my advice and continue your medication or else this could blow up your mind again. Maco-comatose ka na naman. Please?"
Bumuntong hininga siya. "You supposed to be working. Come on bud, okay? Darating rin ang araw maalala mo lahat ng nawala sa utak mo. We didn't tell or tried to ask you about her because we thought it would be better. But we also knew this would come. Time, Migo."
Yeah. They are right. Bumuntong hininga siya na umalis kahit na may parte sakaniya na they are hiding a lot of things from him pero siguro memories will return but not now. Maybe there is a time for that, pero hindi ngayon.
He went to the office and work.
Halos kababalik niya lang from Singapore the this. He felt bored at office at wala siyang ginagawa so he went to the door of his secret room and take his break for himself.
"Fuck.. Shit!" Hindi narin niya napigilan na galawin ang sarili at paligayahin ang sarili na hawak ang pagkalalake sa kama na iyon, he is always like this. Pakiramdam niya may parte na matagal ng nawawala sakaniya. Kasama na ang sex life niya. It feels like, different. It's like someone is giving it to him. "Shit." He continue to stoke himself up and down, stroking it hard.
In front of his laptop watching some porn to continue of stroking himself. "damn!" pumikit siya hanggang may imahe ng babae sa utak niya. It was blurred. But a woman that pleasuring herself in front of him, nakatali ang kamay niya sa kama habang nasa dibdib niya nakaupo ang babae. Opening her legs and pleasuring herself sa harapan niya pa.
He had no idea who is that woman. Pero parte ng nawawalang ala alam niya ang babae.
He continue to do it hanggang sa labasan na siya and he stopped to put his laptop down then nakarinig siya ng boses sa labas.
"Migo?" Qianru.
Bumangon siya at inayos ang sarili and climb to the stairs palabas sa kwartong iyon and opening the door from it.
Ngumiti siya. "Hey, what are you doing here?" Hindi niya talaga inaasahan na darating si Qianru. "Oh. Are you masturbating again?"
Umakto siyang inosente. "No! Nahiga lang naman ako, sometimes you're a judgmental." Aniya at ngumuso pa habang paupo sa swivel chair niya. Tinaasan naman siya ng kilay ni Quanru. "Duh. I already caught you twice masturbating while watching porn. What do you expect? Lagi kang nag sasarili jan e."
"I need something to let this out. Lalake ako, Qianru. A healthy male has a needs too. Kahit ganito ako, may pangangailangan rin ako."
She chuckled. "I know, It's just don't let anyone caught you again. Okay? Especially me, It is really gross to see you that way you know."
Natawa siya. "Oo na, bakit ka ba nandito? You didn't call me you're going out here today."
"Samahan mo ako mag lunch sa café? My treat. Come on, you don't even look fine." Tumingin siya sa orasan and Its already lunch. Hindi niya napansin. "Okay. Let's go, gutom narin naman ako. I feel so stress today."
There's a café, near to the company. Sa gilid lang meron duon sila pumunta at kumain. It was a big café duon rin madalas ang empleyado niya. Siya ang pumila.
"I'll just go to the comfort room." Paalam naman ni Qianru sakaniya at siya naman ang umorder ng pagkain nila sa Café. The moment he was on standing there a woman caught his attention. A beautiful and hot woman.
Ng mapatingin siya ay tila lumakas ang kabog ng puso niya ng makita ang isang magandang babae sa harapan niya. She's wearing this black halter dress. Para bang kilala niya ito pero hindi naman, ngayon lang niya nakilala ang magandang babae na ito. Sigurado siyang hindi pa sila nagkakakilala na dalawa. This is the first time they both met. He's sure about that, they never met before or if business. He never har a business partner na tulad niya. She's so beautiful.
Nginitian siya ng babae at dahil hindi niya naman ito nakilala o kilala, she left but that woman left something to him. He is fucking boner!
Who. Who is that woman? She's so beautiful and sexy. The size of her breast was so perfect at ang kubra ng katawan nito. Napangiwi naman siya na maisip ang babaeng iyon, she's beautiful and right now. It's like he had love at first sight— damn man. What's wrong with you? Parang nababaliw na siya kaiisip sa babae. Masyado na ba siya nagiisip ng kung ano-ano? Masyado lang siyang nagandahan, she is too beautiful to be exact.
He cut off his attention and ordered a coffee and food for him and Qianru.
"A woman?" Tanong ni Qianru sa kalagitnaan ng paguusap nila naalala niya ang babaeng nakita niya kanina. She was beautiful and he can't even forget this woman. This woman was something and he never met this wonderful woman before. Never. "Wait. Are you in stage of love at first sight?" Halos mabuga niya ang kape sa sinabi ng kaibigan.
Love at first sight, really?
"Qianru Reevo. That's Impossible and I'm not out of my mind okay, She's just maybe a woman who gives me a boner. Who.. turns me on! Absolutely just that. Okay?"
Tinawanan siya ng dalaga. "Okay. Fine, whatever you say? Actually. I don't care."
Nirolyohan pa siya nito ng mata. Oh great, this woman is really trying him. Napailing siya na bumaling sa kaniyang kinakain when a voice called his name, nagulat siya.
"Migo." Lumingon siya at nakita niya si Pollux na parang kanina pa siya hinahanap. What's with him right now? "I've been looking for you." Marahan na kumunot ang noo niya.
Pollux sited beside him and hand him something. An Invitation for a anniversary. Oh, anniversary ng ospital na pagmamayari ng parents ni Pollux. It's their anniversary.
"Our Hospital is celebrating another year and I want to invite you and qianru and it will be just on Friday. You can come right? Bring her don't worry, I'll make sure everyone will enjoy and maybe I can introduce you to a friend who just got home from canada."
A friend? He never mentioned that. "Don't worry, ipapakilala ko naman siya sayo. Maybe, you'll like her." Lalo siyang nagtaka kay Pollux. He is acting so weird and acting like things are really weird to his face. "She asked me if she can meet you. She's your fan actually."
"Oh. Is she hot and sexy?"
Qianru hissed him. "Migo!"
"What? I'm just asking." Aniya at tumingin kay Pollux gusto niya malaman sinong babae ang pinaguusapan nila but he doesn't want to bugged the name of the woman. "Kanina lang you're talking about this woman you saw and smiled at you. Now that woman, seriously?"
She complained. "Woman? You met a woman, anong itsura ng babaeng nakita mo?"
"She's wearing a Black Halter Dress. Then kulot yung dulo ng buhok niya, she have this beautiful figure. I can't even stop staring at her. She's really beautiful and I like to meet her again, I'm sure I haven't seen her before."
Pollux grinned. "Oh, pal. You'll probably met her again but now I have to go because I have a lot of things to do. Okay? See you at the party. You two had to come, magtatampo ako kapag hindi kayo pumunta. So please." Then he left to the café.
AT FEW DAYS when she got home from Canada, nagawa niya ng itour si Trevor in just a few place near him atlease alam na niya kung saan at paano umuwi ng hindi naliligaw mabilis lang naman makatanda si Trevor so he can handle things. He was fixing for the opening of their branch in Philippines the opening branch was next week then siya naman she went to the café to take some coffee in a accident happened. Nakita niya si Migo and he seems doesn't recognize her the way he look at her? It seems first time. Sigurado siyang hindi siya nakikilala ni Migo ng tignan at titigan siya nito ng ganuon.
It's way first time. Nginitian niya lang ito and since she was with question she went to see Pollux. Pollux is the only one can explain everything to him, kailangan niya ipaliwanag dahil tatlong taon pagbalik niya hindi na siya kilala ni Migo? How come is that possible?
The door opens. "Vera?" Hindi makapaniwalang tawag nito sakaniya. He's in shock to see her. Ngumiti siya at yumakap agad sa kaibigan. It's been three years since the last time they saw each other. "What.. what happened to you? Three years, Vera."
Malalim siyang bumuntong hininga alam niya ang kasalanan na nagawa at ginawa niya sa loob ng tatlong taon. "I didn't mean. Ayoko lang na pumili si migo so I take the offer in canada. I work as a writer, a author to a company. I didn't mean, but I saw him. He just look at me parang hindi niya ako kilala."
Pollux sighed tumayo at kinuha siya ng makakain at maiinom. "He went into accident, when you left, that night. He followed you and he went to accident. The break through his car were found broken that's why he got into truck accident and he had all the damage. Na-coma siya for three months. Alam namin, his uncle will never mentioned you to him so we ask him if he remember anything a girl. He said, he didn't remember any girl."
"I'm his doctor and It's a selective amnesia. That his painful memories will be forgotten into him, traumatic and anything that causes him a lot of pain."
Umawang ang bibig niya. "But as his doctor. He can remember it again but slowly. It will be in process. He can't manage it kapag nabigla siya kaya mas mabuti ng idahan dahan. We told him slowly about his parent's death. That's one of the painful na nawala sa ala-ala niya and he keep asking how they died we can't lie so we told him everything. We showed him, nag process naman agad yun sakaniya then how Yuri cheated on him. Lahat yun pinaalaala at pinrocess namin sakaniya except one thing. You, we don't know how to tell him about you." Hindi niya alam ang sasabihin, It was her fault too.
Umalis siya bigla. "Matagal ka na naming inaantay, why did you left him? Why did you decide on your own? You didn't wait for him. Mag-asawa kayo, dapat dalawa kayong nag de-decide." Yumuko siya.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.."
Pollux tap her back. "Don't be sorry to me. You can have him back again and you know what to do. Here.." May inabot itong imbitasyon sakaniya. Anniversary Invitation.
Bigla naman siyang napangiti sa pagi-imbita ni Pollux sakaniya ang something hit her head an Idea to do for pollux.
Tumingin siya sa kaibigan. "Would you like to see him and tell him I was his fan and I love to meet him." Pollux grinned to her.
"That's a good idea."
Tumayo siya at nagpaalam naring aalis dahil marami pa siyang aasikasuhin and dapat gawin. "I'll bring a friend with me so I'll see you on.. Friday?" Tumango si Pollux at ngumiti na yakapin siya. He's happy to see her and sana lahat sila ganun at hindi magalit sakaniya kapag nakita siya. Sila heil, heaven, the montesorri. She want to see them all.
Maybe not the time.
She left then pinuntahan niya agad si Trevor with some foods that she can offer to him at narinig niya agad ang boses ni Trevor na parang galit na galit pa nga ang tono nito.
Yes, It's trevor. "Hey. What's happening?" Nagaalalang tanong naman niya nakita niya ang basag na bagay na naroon. Ang init agad ng ulo niya. "Calm down, Trevor." Aniya.
"Sorry. This is pissing me off, help me."
She shake her head and look at him para paupuin at pakalmahin ito, at lease kumalma ng maayos si Trevor hindi puro init ng ulo.
He reminds me of someone. "Okay. We will fix this and this is just for a week, T. Calm down, anything won't fix with you high temper. Okay? Just calm down."
Napailing siya. Siya nalang ang nag-asikaso for the company at para maayos narin ang lahat. Dinadaan sa init ng ulo kaya naman hindi talaga maayos and good thing It's all fine as long as she's there to helped out, It will be fixed and okay. Trevor is just really a high temper, mabilis maginit ang ulo and someone reminds me of that. Mabilis rin mag init ang ulo sa bagay bagay, lalo na kung kumpaniya ang usapan.
they somehow alike..
maybe just a coincidence?
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