章節 10: Unthinkable Liabilities:

So Family. It's a burden I've already said that havent I? And more than once most like the millionth time I mention this topic. Me trying to find a benefactor and a rich one at that. Not like I would sell my body. The will of a human is the will of all. More to it that's what led me to find the answers from my family. But I wouldn't have thought they would do me like this. Me out of all people. Their only daughter. Their only granddaughter. Not like mysticism doesn't go thru my family cause it does. But I thought I was special in some way. After all they always seemed to look at me in a different way. Never knew I was some type of trophy or a money making machine. Especially my grandmother. Her out of all people. Her work is what made me believe unthinkable thoughts. While some people believe on religion. I don't have one. I believe in my own religion. I believe in magic. In unknown capacities which humans can surpass. My grandma. Who is she? She's a very puzzle like person. You may look at her and think she'll give you the answers to all your problems. Read your cards. Tell you your future. Although I sometimes ask myself if maybe her talent isn't real. But everybody believes in her. Everybody trusts her. I believe if they ever found out all the despicable sins she has gone thru with on her life. They would think different. For some reason. Although I most likely grew most of my life with her. I don't know her. I do know she has done so many things that seem shocking even to my eyes. I always wanted to be like her. Now I'm rethinking. What if being like her will just make me worse than her. After all I've achieved more than one sin. Maybe I've actually committed all of them. First the sin of lust. Second the sin of Gluttony. Third the sin of Greed. Fourth the sin of Sloth. Fifth the sin of Wrath. Sixth the sin of Envy. Finally seventh the sin of Pride. Now the question is. How did I commit these sins?