章節 7: Chapter 7
I know that I'm being unfair to Franco, especially to Miguel. Simula nang makilala ko lalo si Miguel, gumagaan ang loob ko sa kanya, he makes me so happy and comfortable. Iba ang saya ko kay Franco because we've been together for 4 years pero si Miguel, I just met him 2 weeks ago and yung happiness na nararamdaman ko, kakaiba eh, hindi ko pa naramdaman kay Franco yun.
Miguel is a good man, he deserves someone na siya lang ang priority. He is too good to be an option pero kahit na gusto kong dumistansya, hindi ko kaya. I'm selfish, I hate myself for making Miguel so special pero I'm still keeping Franco by my side. I just want to be happy and Miguel can make me happy, I will just enjoy it for now, bahala na kung anong mangyari.
Kanina ko pa tinatawagan si Franco pero hindi siya sumasagot, as usual, when it comes to me, he's always busy. Hindi ko kayang bitawan si Franco kahit na masakit dahil umaasa ang pamilya namin na pagdating ng araw, ikakasal kami. He's been my guardian and protector when I was still new in the Philippines, my family likes him and his family likes me, sabi nga ng mga friends namin, kasal na lang ang kulang.
But I'm not yet ready, and I know that we're the same. I let him do his works and he is letting me live my own because we believe that anytime soon, we'll settle down. And then Miguel came, and I'm not sure anymore.
I decided to buy some beer, I need some alcohol in my system right now. I tried calling my friends to come over pero lahat sila busy. Ayokong guluhin si Miguel pero malungkot ako ngayon, I need my happy pill, it just happens to be him, my Migs.
I dialed his number at 2 rings pa lang, sumagot na. Si Miguel talaga.
"Hello, Migs."
"Aza, napatawag ka atsaka bakit parang ang lungkot ng boses mo."
"Nalulungkot kasi ako eh, you know minsan talaga madrama kaming mga babae, bigla na lang."
"Gusto mo pumunta ako dyan? May kasama ka ba?"
Bakit ba kasi sobrang bait mo Miguel?
"Wala, ako lang."
"Sige, puntahan kita diyan. Text kita kapag nasa condo na ako. Hintayin mo ako ah."
"Thank you, Migs."
Bakit never naging ganito si Franco sa akin? Mas lalo tuloy akong naguguluhan. In just 20 minutes nasa condo na si Migs, may dala siyang chips at fries, he knows my favorite kahit na 2 weeks pa lang kaming magkakilala.
"Para ka talagang si Superman, ang bilis mo."
Natawa si Migs at pumasok na sa Condo. Nilapag niya ang isang plastic ng chips sa mesa, katabi ng beer na binili ko.
"Sakto pala yung chichiriya na dala ko eh."
"I know right, nababasa mo talaga isip ko? Are you Jean Grey?" biro ko kay Migs. Binuksan niya ang dalawang beer in can at isang malaking chips.
"Nag away ba kayo ni Franco?" tanong sa akin ni Miguel. Sabi ko hindi, kasi hindi naman talaga kami nag aaway, kasi hindi rin naman kami nag uusap. I don't want to talk about Franco right now, I want to know Miguel more.
"Let's not talk about Franco, bonding natin ito eh. I want to know you. Kung ano gusto mo at ayaw mo, your dreams and fears, then I'll share mine. How's that?"
Hindi agad sumagot si Miguel, mukhang nag alangan pero after a minute, tumango siya at ngumiti.
"Sige. Yung gusto na lang siguro muna."
"Sure. Umm, favorite color?"
"White"
"Seryoso? How about food?"
"Sinigang na baka"
"Oh my, that's delicious ah. Favorite movie?"
"Movie?"
"Sige na Migs, what's your favorite movie?"
"Yung kay Julia Roberts, gusto ko yung Notting hill"
"Now, I know bakit romantic kang tao." tumawa lang si Miguel. "But that's one of my favorites too. How about favorite song? Kantahin mo."
"Seryoso ka ba? Naku, nakakahiya."
"Sige na. Ako din naman kakantahin ko favorite song ko later eh. Walang KJ!"
Natatawa si Miguel na kumanta. Favorite niya ang kanta ng Air Supply na two less lonely people. That song is my Papa's favorite, they also have the same favorite food and color, pero ayoko na sabihin kay Miguel. I miss Papa so much at nakikita ko siya kay Miguel.
"You're a good singer pala, Migs. Minsan ng mag karaoke tayo, frustrated singer ako eh."
"Pareho kayo ni Michelle"
"Really? Pwede talaga kaming mag best friend ng little sister mo Migs. I guess, it's my turn right?" At nagpatuloy ang usapan namin, nalaman ko na ang greatest fear niya ay mawala ang mga taong mahal niya, ang dream niya ay maging isang ganap na architect. I then share my fears and dreams, my fear of being alone and my dream of having my exhibit in a museum someday. Hindi namin namalayan na 1 AM na sa sobrang dami naming napagkwentuhan. I miss this kind of late night conversation, I will forever treasure this on my heart.
"Ala una na pala. Matutulog ka na ba Aza?"
"Yeah, siguro. Ikaw? Gusto mo na ba umuwi?"
"Kung matutulog ka na uuwi na ako."
Gusto ko na ba siyang umuwi?
"Miguel..."
"Aza"
"Can you..stay?" I know this is a bad idea but I don't want to be alone tonight. See my fear of being alone? Eto na yun.
"Sigurado ka ba? Pwede naman, dito na lang ako sa sofa matutulog."
"You can stay in my room, may comforter ako, pwede ka naman sa lapag...if that's okay..ayoko lang talaga mapag isa ngayon. I'm sorry."
"Wala yun, halika na, matulog na tayo"
We said goodnight to each other. I closed my eyes knowing that I have an Angel beside me, I'm safe.
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