Chapter 16
Jeon Jungkook
After she left the studio, my knees weaken so I decided to sat on the couch. This is the first time I saw her cry. She didn't cry infront of me before and when I saw her cry so hard my heart clench. My heart hurts so bad. Just remembering what she said tears me up. All her words stabbed me like a sharp knife. All her words breaks my heart. I hurt her so bad and it hurts me.
I didn't notice that my members are already inside the studio and they have seen me crying.
Jungkook.
Its Jimin hyung.
What happened? JK?
Seokjin hyung asked.
Don't cry Jungkookie.
Hobi hyung said.
I-tts already over. We're really o-over. She cried so hard. I-i hurt her so bad and It breaks m-me. I-i still l-love her so much.
I answered.
Why did you still break her in the first place if you still love her?
Yoongi hyung asked.
I-i need too, hyung. I-i needed to hurt h-her for her s-safety. I-i need to d-do that in order to p-protect her. I-i c-can't risk her s-safety.
I said as i cried.
W-why? What's the reason?
V hyung asked.
Manager Seji told me that someone was investigating us, that someone wants to know what's going on our personal life and finding flaws to us so that they will used it to us to bring us down. And the target is me. Bang PD nim asked me about the issue and wants know my opinion about it.
What did you say? Did bang PD asked you to broke up with Adriella?
Namjoon hyung asked.
What? But Bang PD know how much JK loves Adriella? Why would he say that?
Jimin hyung said.
N-no, Bang PD or any of the people around Bighit never ask me to break up Adriella. They told me not to break up with Adriella. They said that no matter what they will protect us and Adriella. Its my own decision to broke up with her and to hurt her.
But why did you still broke up with her? Bighit promised already to protect us and Adriella. Don't you trust our agency?
Hobi hyung asked.
N-no, i trust bighit with all my heart but thinking all the possibilities i can't risk Adriella's safety and privacy. I don't want them to invade her privacy. I can't stand if they kept bugging her.
So you're so solution to that is to broke up with her and hurt her?
Yoongi hyung asked.
Y-yeah. That's the only thing in my mind that time.
I answered.
But you hurted not just her but also yourself.
Yoongi hyung said.
Why didn't you tell us about this? We are a team remember?
Seokjin hyung said.
I'm sorry hyungs. I don't want you to worry. I can't stand giving you a hard time. I'm sorry. 😔😢
Don't worry you are forgiven but please just please next time if there's an issue like this please tell us so we could help you and we'll resolve it together. Araseo?
Ne, mianhae. 😔
When i am calm down, we resume to the practice. I shoved away all the things happened earlier so that i can focus on our practice. I can't messed up. I can't lose focus.
After the practice we all grabbed our dinner in a near restaurant and we all went home. As soon as we reach our home we all went to our own room and rest.
Np: Jin (BTS) - 이 밤 (This Night) [English Translation]
🎶"When this night passes
I'm afraid I won't be able to see you"🎶
🎶"The utterly clear gaze
The touch I got too used to
The face that smiled at me
Will I be unable to see you again anymore?"🎶
When i reached my room i took a shower. And here i am, laying on my bed and thinking what happened earlier. Her crying face flashes back to my mind. The way she smiles while her tears roll down to her cheeks. And suddenly my tears fell down. I can't help but to cry and be hurt too for what i did. I taught it was the best solution but i was wrong. I hurted her so much and it doubles the pain in me. I'm so sorry Adriella, sorry. 😢😢💔💔
🎶"In my every day
You are there
In your every day
I'm there
When the moon is gone
And the sun rises
The one who has been with me
Will you be gone?"🎶
I cried and cried until i fell asleep.
🎶"When I close my eyes
I feel like it will remind me of the times
That we were together
When I close my eyes
I feel like I will think of only the happy memories again"🎶
🎶"When this night passes
I'm afraid I won't be able to see you
When this night passes
I'm afraid that I'll be left alone"🎶
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End of Chapter 16
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A/N: awee, my poor kookie 😢😢💔😭
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