章節 72: His thoughts

Suga's POV

I couldn't hold my feelings back anymore. What I felt towards Lilac is getting stronger. I know that

she might not be able to accept my confession immediately. When she was going to leave, I pull her back without realizing that her face would me so near mine. The smell of apple mint exuding from her is so strong that made me dizzy. The scent of hers makes my heart beat thumps irregularly.

"Lilac I have something to tell you." I said.

"What is it? Can't you just tell me tomorrow?" Lilac said.

"No. This is very important. It's about my future." I said.

"Alright you have 10 minutes." Lilac said.

"Well I'm not good at saying any sweet sentences or creating a romantic atmosphere to tell you this. But I really want you to know how much I like you. Before you say anything let me finish first. Well it's like this. At first I wasn't sure of my feelings towards you until I see you in the picture that Jin hyung took. I realize that all this while the reason why I reject all other girls it's because of you. I was denying my feelings in the first place because you were so close to Jung Kook so I thought that you like him. But who knows that I was wrong. I caught you sneaking glances at me when no one else was seeing. At that point, I realize that the person that you like was me. I've been trying to gather my courage to tell you how much I like you but I just couldn't. The reason why I confessed to you today it's because I'm worried that you would fall in love with Jung Kook. I don't need you to answer me now but I just want to tell you my feelings. If you like me as well, would you be willing to be my girlfriend?" I said without even stopping to breath.

I was worried that she would reject me directly but turns out I was wrong.

"Umm I will think about it. So could you let go of my hand. I will give you an answer." Lilac said and left without waiting for me to say anything else.

Thank God she didn't reject me directly but asking me to give her some time. After she left, I slumped my body on the car seat trying to calm my feelings own. I have been feeling so nervous the whole night as I know that I was going to confess to her. None of the members had any idea of my plan of confessing to her. I think they didn't even realize that I like Lilac. Well that's what I hope at least. I don't want them to push Lilac to a corner so that she would be together with me. I know some times they just love to gossips as well.

After calming myself down, I drove back to the dorm thinking about Lilac. When I walk into the dorm, it was so quite as everyone was already asleep. When I look at the wall clock, it was already 2 in the morning. That's late. Some more we have to wake up at 7 o'clock for our stage rehearsals for our concert in Japan. I don't want to leave Lilac here but what can I do. She can't leave the university as she's studying. Thinking back she's actually having her winter break so I think it would be fine to bring her along with us as long as Sejin hyung and Bang-PD agrees to it. After washing up, I went to bed straightaway because I couldn't stand the sleepiness anymore.