章節 7: Relationship

so my crush finally purposed me. it was like suddenly all my wishes came true in a day. after he proposed me, he had got pastries for me. He knew I loved pastries. we were sitting close to each other enjoying the pastry... Samar kept on looking at me lovingly..his eyes revealed his happiness.....I was drowned in the moment and suddenly he came really close to me...our lips were just inches apart,he slowly came close and closing the distance,he kissed me passionately...his kiss became more and more urgent...it was like he was waiting for this moment.....he took me in his arms and walked to his bedroom...he placed me on the bed and started kissing me more fiercely.....his gentle lips were so satisfying...I just found myself losing control over myself...the fire in my heart was ignited. he started getting lower from my lips to my neck and then suddenly my hands were on his shoulder...i told him to stop...he was confused..he asked me "are you not enjoying this?". I replied "of course I am enjoying this moment Samar but let's take it slow,i don't want to rush into getting intimate so soon". he looked at me for a long time and then got up from bed and went to the hall. I thought to myself "is he upset coz I ruined the moment?" "was it wrong for me to not be ready for a intimate relationship?" after all I was just 16. I felt I still needed time to understand many things...I thought I wasn't ready to handle a intimate relationship. Then after fighting my Thoughts I went and asked him" what happened to you?" inside I thought maybe he wanted me to get intimate him, maybe I ruined it for him... but I also was not regretting my decision of saying no because only i knew what consequences I'll face in future. I was waiting for him to answer. I told myself if today he forces me to get intimate with him I will break up with him because I didn't want someone to love my body and not me. for me love was all about the meeting of souls..