Chapter 1-----
'They say "Fate is inevitable" and we are bounded with it. No matter how much effort you put into something; nonetheless to what extinct you can go ,at last it all depends on the rigid, non-biased and Inevitable judgment of the FATE' ------
[FLASHBACK]
This was the scariest night of my life" :-
Felt like the road was endless nevertheless there wasn't a single beam of hope.
I was running the fastest I could from the cage in which I was living since I was just a child. I never wanted to escape from my own home but it was the last option. My own parents never understood me, I felt like I was surrounded by some narcissists. (Imagine being called out for every thing You do without permission, how would you feel?) I'm not a child anymore, this unwanted torture had me growing up and now I'm in my twenties wishing to not tolerate this bullshit anymore . So decided to run away to chase my dreams ,to be limitless ,to do everything with my consent and to not be someone's obsequious fellow servant. But it didn't turn out as I thought. I've planned everything with my friends who live in the capital (the financial centre of the nation; the most crowded and the stronghold of the film industries in the Nation)
Yeh! I was fucked up at the moment! Everything got messed up at the last. Don't know how they got those diaries and read the "truth" I've been hiding since my teenage. The secret I never dared to tell anyone because I was scared. Scared of how the society would treat me. How my classmates would look at me? Come to think of it even my own parents probably would kick me out of the house? When they will know that they might never get a successor of the 'Drakos' family? Because I'm Gay!
Felt like the whole universe teamed up against me, It was already not easy but this made it even worse. I hated being 'GAY'. I live in the 21st century , heard that the mind set of people is becoming wider. Not true though! I'm surrounded by the homophobic , narrow minded and worst kind of humans. No' I'm not the first one to be a Gay in my family.
My 10 years elder brother "Declan" was also one, but he wasn't a coward like me. He came out proudly and declared his true sexual identity. But this cruel world didn't let him live freely.
He was the first heir of my family but refused to get forced in anything and decided to live on his own. He always wanted to be a Pilot, he loved heights and long flights" but my merciless parents tortured him mentally to obey them.
My eyes gets teary, my throat is heavy, and I'm shivering badly whenever I remember his face from the last time I saw him on that hanging millstone around his neck. The most horrible day of my life, I was just 14 at that time. I was playing with my basketball which accidentally get kicked too hard and went to his room by breaking the glass of the window. Unaware of anything, scared to being scolded I slowly stepped towards the window to see if my brother was inside.
And after getting there I screamed loudly and started to cry noisily. Everyone came upstairs, to see the horrible result of their Cruelty.
Declan" You were always my hero and you will always be"
[END OF FLASHBACK]
Darien had so many troubles to deal with. Maintaining their family and especially his father's reputation was the most difficult and burdensome.
I always wanted to be free, to ruffle my wings in the vast blue sky. The more I wanted to do so ;the more my parents burdened me. My university friends envied me for being a rich chick, little did they know it was like a golden cage , which was so eye catchy but It's still a "Cage".
Was this all because of the fate? Is the fate that cruel to me?
Why? What I did so wrong? Or it is true that "being Gay is a sin?"
That night"-------
Scarlet (mother of Darien) : Darien? Can I know what is this all? (Banged some old diaries on the wooden table)
Her furrowed eyebrows, clenched jaw, reddened face and that direct intense eye contact with me was scary enough to
'be scare one out of a year's growth' (Idiom for being extremely frightened). I got up from my bed immediately and somehow managed to make the eye contact.
What's in the diaries? "-----
In my initial days of teenage when I doubted that my behaviour was different from other boys in my school. They always flirted with the girls, always wanted to go behind them, tried to look cool and macho whenever the girl they liked was near them. But I never did those things not even once.
Guess that's why literally every girl in my campus was either my friend or my ill-wisher just because I rejected their love proposals. But hey? I didn't do that purposely. I was never interested in anyone of them. Silly me didn't know that these all signs pointed me for being "Queer". I just thought that no girl in the whole darn school was my type!
(I should've laughed on myself)
One day "there was a play in my school"
I had no options left except playing that game.....The game was "seven minutes in heaven". seriously! the name was so exciting that I thought the winner will might get some treat in a restaurant or tickets to cinema or maybe a nice cafe shop? Or who knows it could be a free pass to an amusement park haha!
The date was ' Sixth of July' (do u know what's this day is called?)
It was the kiss day ! Which I didn't know!
The Game started "-----
I also became eager to know the rules and how to play the game. All of my friends including boys and girls in my group made cheats of their names and put those in a glass pot. They mixed the cheats well. And we decided the turn of each member from right to left.
"Noah excitedly grabbed two cards....I furrowed my eyebrows----" why did you take two?
He replied "The game isn't possible without two! and gave a mischievous smile to me."
I kept my mouth shut to know what's with this game.
Noah: "Woh! Its Darien and Joseph!
All started to laugh looking at me and Joseph.
Joseph sighed" and looked at me with a "We are
done" smile.
I finally asked "what we have to do?"
....The answer was hilarious!
Creation is hard, cheer me up!
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