I'm graduating this year but I don't feel excited
I feel this feeling of doom
I'm not ready
I'm scared
I'll be 18 so soon
When I still feel 15
The years have merged together
I don't know up from down
I don't know who is me
I'm scared
I don't feel right
I don't want to grow up
I don't want to grow at all
Kinda wish I died
It sad to say that when I have a barely lived
But I'm tired
I'm fighting myself for a life I don't want anymore
My younger self is grabbing onto me begging and pleading to give her the life she always wanted
I can't
I won't
I'm graduating this year