Chương 19: Despair

~Never marry the one you can live with

marry the one you cannot live without~

Theme Song for this Chapter is;

❤WHAT IF I TOLD YOU THAT I LOVE YOU By;

Ali Gatie❤

Jeddah (pov):

Getting up I dressed in white shirt and blue jeans.i was about to leave the room. when my phone buzzed. it was karem.

"Hi! what happen" I asked wearing my shoes.

"your husbands wants to discharge"

"what why, don't tell me he is coming home" I asked feeling irritated. I don't want to see him right know.

"don't worry everything will be alright " he spoke again. while I want to go away somewhere. I know I have to face him somehow but isn't this early.

I take deep breaths trying to calm myself down.

it's already 9 am. I was desperately waiting for him.

sitting in the living room I finally heard screeching noise of tires.

from the window of living room. I could finally see him coming out of Karem car. Karem wheeled him out. he was looking so weak due to loss of so much blood. my heart aches seeing this sight of him but he deserves it.

I settled my self and made my way outside. it's time to execute my next plan.

"Zayn, what happened to you" I asked with my worry filled voice. he just smile softly towards me.

"I don't know much about this we can talk later" he said and I hug him. he look so pale.

Karem come forward smiling towards me"I think I should go home now".

"and you are" I asked pretending not to know him.

"he is the one who take me to hospital" Zayn Said and I nod.

we sit in our living room. Ayan sit beside Zayn hugging him tight.

after all the explanation which I already now I prepare breakfast for them.

"hey your son is so cute" Karem said taking out a juice bottle from fridge.

while I focus on my pancakes.

"so what you think next" he asked and this time his expressions are serious.

"do you still have that video" I asked he seemed confused.

"ah that one, yes" he answered and I winked.

"you really want to do that" he asked again and I smile.

"check this" I said pushing the plate of pancakes forward "I have tasted better" he said after taking a bite. I hit him on his shoulder "ouch that was hard" he said making a pout face.

the breakfast went in silence.because Karem take Ayan outside in garden while Zayn did not look at me again. his eyes remain fixed on plate. I don't know what he is thinking. After we had finished our plates he remain sit motionlessly. I tried to ignore but I cannot see him in this state.

I know he had tears in his eyes. guilt filled my mind again. I take his hand in mine and pressed gently. "you can share everything with me" I asked while he just look at me.

"I am become disabled. I'm crippled for a lifetime. you can leave me if you want. I won't told you anything about your decision" How, I want to hug him and want to tell him that he is not just to remove this despairness from his eyes. but I can not do this now.

"why, do you think I leave you after this" he seemed confused by my answer.

"you are not old and beside that you have your whole life. I don't want to waste your time" he replied sullenly.

"baby you forgot I promised you that I won't leave you in your best nor in your worst, so why do you think like this".