Chương 6: Miguel
"You and Jenny are getting closer. What are you doing Miguel, are you going after her to make you know who jealous," Jorge said while elbowing me.
We were walking the track, and I was looking around the track to find Jenny.
~ I need to tell you... I like you. ~
I didn't see her anywhere, that was until we did a turn on the track and I seen her behind us. She was looking at me, I quickly looked in front.
'Did she see me?' I told myself.
I see her everyday at lunch hanging out with that boy, I thought that they were dating until when I told one of her friends, about there relationship.
-three days ago-
"Hey Angie, isn't Jenny and Jose dating? I mean they are always together and they look like they are," I said with a little bit of curiosity in my tone.
"No, they aren't dating but they both like each other and both of them won't fess up first with their feelings for each other. Seriously what's wrong with people," Angie says with a werid face and typing on the chromebook to do the assignment assigned to us in Mr. Ken's class.
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"Hey Miguel, did you hear what I just said," Jorge said tapping me on the shoulder.
"No, hey though, umm... Chris can I talk alone with you later. I need a favor from you," I said looking at him while nodding my head to Jenny's direction.
We stopped and were talking about video games, and every once in awhile I would look at Jenny's direction. Her short black hair being blowed by the wind, her smile as big and wide from her face, and her baggy eyes makes her eyes pop out even more.
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"Samantha, stop hanging around with a group of guys, I'm your boyfriend and I don't like looking at you all the time hugging different guys," I said to her while walking with her to Nabos middle school.
"Oh my gosh... Miguel stop ordering me around like I'm some kind of dog. You know what, I'm glad that I hug other guys, at least they don't tell me what to do," Samantha says looking at me with an argumentative tone.
"Of course they don't, there not your boyfriend. Tell me the truth okay? I feel like you don't like me anymore anyways... Are you cheating on me, I've seen you with this one specific guy more times then the others. I saw you two talking alone together one day, I was going to surprise you but instead you were with him. Are you dating him?" I said while stopping to look at Samantha.
"Now you are accusing me of cheating! Are you serious Miguel! You are a real pain you know that?! You know what, it was going to come out ethier way. Yes, I've been with Rubin for awhile now. You don't come to the same school as me and your never around. My parents don't like you and nor does your family," Samantha said looking at me with a disgusted look.
"Sorry, were done. I can't handle any more of you hurting me, cheating on me and doing this to me. We should have never gotten back together," I said turning the opposite way from her.
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"Chris. Come here, I need to tell you something," I said heading to a spot where no one is around.
"What is it, is it about Jenny? She has been glancing at you while you do the same... What's going on bro," Chris said while waving his hand at Jenny's direction.
"When the bell rings and you head out to P.E can you tell Jenny if she would want to go out with me... I'm kind of nervous and shy and that I would get rejected," I said looking at him and being serious about the situation.
Chris just looked at me for a while and then said,
"Fine, fine. I will but come on bro, you owe me a solid," Chris said laughing with a little hurt in his tone.
I looked at Chris who was laughing while looking past by me, I side stepped and saw who he was looking at
~ Jenny~
The bell ringed and I looked at Chris who also looked at me and nod. I went to the Cadet Core building and I see Chris talking to Jenny, who had looked at my direction. I looked at her than looked back. I was to shy and nervous even from a stand point that is far away from her. I hardly listened to what Mr. Hicks was teaching, because I zoned out thinking of what had happened between Chris and Jenny. He made me do 20 push-ups by the end of the class. I was still more focused on Jenny, and what had Chris told her. 6th period past by, and when the lunch bell rang, I looked quickly in search for Chris. He knows all to what I want to hear. I kind of had already expected a answer which was 'no'. I know she likes Jose, but it was worth the risk of saying. Around a side of the Cadet building I seen Chris who looked down and kind of in his own little zone. I walked up to him with an eager look expecting him to know what I want.
"Hey man, what did she say," I said with a stop looking at him.
He looked up at me, forced a smile and said,
"She said yes, and that you should have asked her yourself," Chris said while he punched me in the shoulder.
"What the hell was that for," I said looking at him and where he had punched me at.
"That's the solid you owe me retard," He said laughing
I didn't care, I was happy. My doubt's were just doubt's, I didn't know what to do next. I saw Jenny about 10 minutes later and she saw me. I wanted to walk up to her, talk to her, take her away from her friends, and just hug her. I don't know, but I felt something strange, a bad feeling that something is going to happen...Soon...
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School had ended and I didn't know how to act like at home, my emotions went everywhere and when I arrived home my Mom, Ellana had greeted me home. I was smiling and I gave her a hug. She seemed werided out at how my action was, I pulled away and went into my room. I was so happy and energetic that I wanted to do something, anything. I cleaned the house and took care of my brothers and sister because my Mom left to work.
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A day had passed by, and it was Thursday, me and Jenny have been together for over three days already, and I haven't talked to Jenny because I feel insecure and I don't know what to say to her. I asked my friends on what to say or making up something. They were no help,
"Tell her whatever you want to say to her man, I mean it's not hard to talk to a girl unless your a girl yourself," Jorge says while him and the others start laughing.
I went to ask my sister and she was of no help ethier. I seen Jenny in my sight, and I just played an imaginary image of me going up to her and talking and being there beside her.
'I swear that I will go up to Jenny at lunch time,' I said to myself feeling confident.
It seemed like the day went by fast, and it was lunch time. I was nervous and was having a break down. I had stuff to say to her, but I forgot immediately when I seen her walk out of the Cafeteria building. I was with my friends hanging out at the Cadet building and I seen Chris coming out with Mattew from the Cafeteria building. I looked at Chris and said,
"Hey bro, can you help me," I said looking at him then at Jenny's Direction.
"No bro, no. You need to grow a pair and man up bro. She's your girlfriend, why are you scared to talk to her. She won't bite," Chris said changing his tone at the ending while him and Mattew are laughing at what he said.
I only had about 10 minutes left to talk to Jenny, I tried once but my friend Mia had stopped me along the way.
"Hey Miguel, are you dating that wh**e Jenny. She had dated so many guys, and she is ugly anyways. Why are you dating her?," She said looking at me and to where I was going to go.
"Oh, I see now. You were trying to go to her just now weren't you. Well to bad, I stopped you to talk to you, so answer my question. Why are you even dating her?" She said with a disgusted tone.
I just looked at her, I don't know how long it took the bell to ring but I didn't say anything to Mia. I was mad, and I thought she was my friend. 'Why the hell would she say that, especially if it's a girl I'm dating' I said to myself feeling my body overflowing with anger. The bell had ranged finally,
"Sorry Mia, I got to go, I just like her okay, I just was to date her because I like her, do I need to give you a more simpler way to say it," I said while walking away towards the ending.
I passed by the guys and I seen Chris, he was looking somewhere else. I stopped, looked at to where he was looking at, 'Jenny' I said to myself. I felt a little pinch in my chest. I walked away, I didn't do anything or said anything. The class passed by and Mrs. Harwin came to my direction and looked at the blank paper sitting on top of my desk. She looked at me then the paper. I didn't care, I just wanted to leave, go home. In time the bell had finally ringed, school ended, and I went home and had received a text from Chris.
~Hey look, Miguel do you really like Jenny. I've never told you this but when I met Jenny in 7th grade... I... I actually liked her, but she dated another guy... So, I... I shut my feelings away, and I don't know. It just feels weird that my friend is dating the girl I liked since 7th grade.~´
When he sent that, I didn't know how to feel, mad or compassion. I liked her in 7th grade to and I went back to me ex. Yet he kept holding onto his feelings while I forgot until I finally had a class with her and had seen her everyday. My head hurt during the while I was listening to music. I thought of the past. How me and my ex was like. I picked up my phone, went on Chris and my messages and replied to him...
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"Mom, where is my backpack," I said rushing to get ready for school.
"It should be in your room. Hey get your brother's ready please, and make sure Manny brushes his teeth please," My Mom said while getting my little sister, Iris ready.
My brother Rick came up from beside me and punched me. I punched him back, I wasn't in the mood for play fighting. As always we were almost late. I entered Cress middle school and I see Jenny with her friends at a side of a building. I didn't make eye contact, I don't know what to say to her... 'How should I tell her' I thought to myself. I didn't know what to do but I can't be with her
~Yesterday Miguel's Text~
*Chris, it's okay man. I'll just break up with her. I don't like her as much anyways. Plus, she's not my type, I can date other girls then besides her. She seems to basic and to quiet... It's all good bro... Good luck man," I texted to Chris while breaking a tear flowing past my cheek down my chin.
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Classes passed by to P.E and I see Jenny hanging out with her friends while staring at my direction. She then waved at me and smiled, I avoid making eye contact and turned my back at her. I don't know, but I just couldn't help myself at not wanting to see Jenny, I turned back and looked at her once again, seeing her still looking at me. Me and her just kept looking, seeing each other for what seemed like forever. The day was flying by so fast, I didn't know what to do. Instead of doing what I planned on, I looked at Jenny going to her class. 'I just want a hug, then I'll leave, I won't be in your life no more' I said to myself while heading to my P.E class. The bell rang for next period and I told Chris to ask Jenny if I could have a hug, he looked at me then walked towards Jenny. I was standing at Mr. Harwin's P.E class entrance line next to a basketball court. She looked at me and headed at my direction. I also walked towards her,
"Next time, come up to me and tell me when you want a hug, okay. I'll always give you one when you want or need one. It's okay Miguel," She said looking into my eyes with her finger tips crossing around my neck. I looked at her how her baggy eyes had made her brown sparking eyes hit the sunlight. I looked at her brown hair being pushed back by a sudden breeze. She slid her hands down my waist and wrapped me into a hug, I was close to her than I ever had been before, she had a nice, sweet smell and I wished this time would last forever. I didn't want to have to do what I had to. I open my eyes and see Chris behind me looking at her than us. The bell ringed, I hated it, I hated how fast time flied by. I wanted to stay like this a little longer. She pulled away, I pulled her back. 'No, no. Please don't go, I don't want to loose you. I'm sorry I didn't realize how much you meaned to me before. I wished I asked you sooner, I wished I asked you when we were hanging out and messing around in 7th grade, I need you, I'm sorry. Please, DON'T GO!'
"I have to go Miguel. You do too, your class is on the other side of the school. I don't want you to be late okay. Why don't we talk at lunch time. I hope you won't get into to much trouble," She said smiling and blushing with her big smile.
Her face was close against mine, I can feel her breathing in and out, and I looked at her eyes sparkling, with her rosie cheeks. She went out of my grasped, seeing her head to class. She turned back looking at me,
"Bye Miguel," She said smiling, then heading to her class.
^~ Goodbye, My Love~^
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I didn't care anymore. I didn't listen to what other's said. I was more focused on Jenny then anything. I felt broken, I feel like I've been scattered around no one knowing how to fix me. Not myself knowing anything, nothing. Lunch time came, I seen my good friend Arthur. I put on a mask, hiding my true feeling, my true state of being.
"Hey wassup Arthur, how you been," I said showing a fake smile and doing a hand shake.
"I've been good how about you, what you been doing these days, I've heard that your dating Jenny," He says elbowing me and making a funny looking face.
Pain shot up all around my body, when I heard her name.
"Actually, can you do me a favor, can you tell her that I want to break up with her. I don't know, she isn't like other girls. She's weird, and a wh**e... I Don't even know why I asked her out in the first place," I said while every word that came out my mouth broked and shattered me even more and faked laughed it out.
He looked at me and started laughing and said that he will do it. I left and I see him heading to where Jenny and her group of friends are at. I head out to the far side of the field away from all the school buildings. I see kids around the field, laughing and having a good time. I put my ear buds on and blasted on music so I can feel like I am away, away from this world that creates pain, chaos in every way that I ever go. There's no right direction, I always end up being hurt, hurting myself, or hurting others. The thought of seeing Jenny's reaction of me hurting her, hurted me more than I could feel. I felt lost somewhere, not knowing what to say, to think, to feeling alone.
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Mlxnhx Sorry I have not been able to post a chapter sooner, I hope that this chapter was interesting and it's stand form was well. I thank you for taking the time in reading this and this chapter. Give feed back at how this chapter was. ^^
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