Chương 40: Chapter 39
New York city...
Avery's pov;
After my black out I reappear in my apartment but I unfortunately have poor landing and end up on the floor.
"Ouch , this is the second time today already" I pout and rub my aching butt.
I look at my night stand clock and see it 3am , still night time , after all I didn't delay in Alba.
Who's fault? I would say Ethera because she got mad for no reason but it is really my fault for letting my personality slip when I am in Ethera's body.
It is really not that easy to filter myself though , me and Ethera are complete opposites , she is more gentle and soft spoken and I am more assertive , active and bold .
Plus we were born in different eras so our moral standings are completely different , in her era women are more oppressed and controlled while right now in 2023 things have changed , women are very much independent and bolder in their actions and words. I don't expect Ethera to understand that , I am the one intruding her life so I should be making the effort to keep it low key.
I really have to get better at this but you know pretending to be someone else is not that easy , it is a whole job I am doing here.
Anyways let me catch some sleep , tomorrow is a new day , at least now in my own body.
*Phone rings . Who could that be? It's freaking 3 in the morning.
I take my phone , it reads Eric with a heart of course.
"Yes?"
"Hello there , friend of who forgot temporarily about me" he says and I bet he has a smirk on his face right now. Typical Eric dramatic much.
"You are so dramatic , you know that?" He chuckles and I smile.
"And incredibly funny? I know , you can go on and on about me , I've got all the time" he says.
I then laugh "You wish".
"Why did you call again?" I ask as he clearly misses the point here . As usual.
"Can I just not call my friend who is a girl whom I also happen to miss? Because you apparently definitely didn't miss me" he says cutely accusing me. Such a sucker for attention.
"Oh stop the crap , I am not that important to your life . You surely have a life outside of hanging out with me right?" I joke and he puffs,
"Of course I do , what do you take me for?"
"Sure sure" I laugh and then say "I did miss you though, genuinely. I just like teasing you . You are too easy of a target to annoy" I then laugh some more.
There is a small moment of silence and I think something is wrong because Eric is never a silent type of guy , he suddenly asks "Avery , are we good?"
Damn it , that question. I guess the light talking phase is over.
I sigh and reply as neutrally as I can "Yes we are , of course we are. Why the sudden question? It is a bit out of the blue don't you think?"
"Avery we both know this is not out of the blue or a ridiculous question . We both know what has been going on between us" he sighs on the other side of the phone.
What do I answer to that? If he brings it up now it means he has accepted the risk that comes with talking about this situation . Oh lord, here we go.
"Look Eric , I do admit there has been some tension building up between us , it seems our relationship has been shifting to a different level. Truth is I chose to ignore it deliberately for our own good."
"And why is it good that we ignore this?" he asks , tone calm but something underlying there.
"You and I are very good friends, best friends I would even say . I just don't want that to change when an awkward situation happens because we are going beyond that boundary" It is silent for a bit and I just hear him breathe,
"I'm picking you up tomorrow Avery , be ready on time." he says with a slight husky voice.
"The heck? You can't just bail in the middle of an important conversation" he chuckles darkly and hangs up on me.
Hein? what just happened? Why is he suddenly coming to me? Is this his way of running away from this conversation? That wouldn't make sense though because he brought it up himself .
Ughhh and why must he seduce me with such a tone? This man . Lord spare me.
I really don't want to risk us falling apart because we wanted to venture into some romance or whatever is cooking up between us , don't get me wrong though , Eric is an amazing guy and I think I say that quite a lot but that is just because he truly is a sweetheart but that same Eric is sometimes a tease and a devil in disguise who will make me want to just loose myself with him .
Old me would have just jumped in his arms and embraced the growing passion but I know better, passion like that can be joyfully consuming but at the end burn you harshly because you attach to much to it. I know my past experiences shouldn't dictate or rather block me from embracing a healthier and more mature relationships , but you can't blame a broken heart can you? As cliche as that sounds.
I just hope Eric can see that too.
(The next day)
Professor Gary's pov:
Right now I am in a caffe , waiting for Sheila to arrive , we agreed to talk more about this matter and for her to let me explain myself further.
I know I messed up and that I heart her in the worst way possible by hiding this from her but at the same time it was to protect her from this whole mess.
I never wanted her to feel burdened by my past and think that she has to fix things with me , I just want her to be happy in life and I want to be the one to give her that happiness, unfortunately I am doing the opposite of that right now.
My life is just a mess and it has been for a while now , I am used to dealing with it alone but now that Sheila is involved I don't know what to do.
I mean I have a son with my ex wife whom I love and even though his mom and I are separated and just not in each other's lives no more , I still want to keep my bond with my child , a kid should never have to suffer the consequences of their parent's divorce or quarrel hence why I have tried to keep in touch with him.
The door to the caffe opens and the familiar ding is heard , I look up and see Sheila making her way to my table . Here goes nothing.
Once she reaches my table I pull the chair out for her and ask the waiter to bring her matcha as I know that is what she drinks first thing in the morning, I am just complying to her needs as a good boyfriend should.
I just hope I get to keep that status in her life , I need her in my world as much as I know she does.
She sips on her matcha and says "thank you" I nod and smile softly at her, such as softie I am becoming but am I complaining? Absolutely not, I will be whatever and whoever she needs me to be.
"Look I know I have disappointed you countless times this past month alone and I am genuinely sorry for bringing this mess into your life and hurting you in ways I never wished to" I say ,
She looks at me and sighs "I don't know what you expect from me right now Gary. I am very much at loss of solutions and just direction . Like I told you before , I understand that you had a life before me and I can't blame you for that or be mad about it , it just wouldn't make sense." I nod and let her speak without interruption.
"The thing I am mad about that we talked about already is the fact that you keep important details of your life from me. I am your girlfriend and as so I must know certain things about you , like the fact that you have a child of your own blood for example"
I sigh then hold her hand "I know , I should have told you. I am sorry for making you feel like an outsider to my life , it is really not intentional. I just never wanted to burden you with such things, I want us to have a peaceful and stress free relationship and letting you carry this load with me would be too much to ask . Do you understand that?" She nods.
"I do understand that Gary but then again I am your damn girlfriend, if we can't face small challenges together and if we can't communicate then this relationship won't work as much as I don't want that to happen"
"Then I guess I have to be better at this" we can't end this relationship now, no way.
I like her too much for that.
She wants me to work on communication, I will do just that.
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