Chương 44: True Love: Forgiveness
I felt pain in my chest when I saw her tears flowing like river and I reached out to touch her cheeks, which I did. I thought she would try to avoid my hand but she held it, kissed and cried over it. I felt sorry and I felt she was hurt but what I did or maybe whatever she saw a minute ago with Beca. It's not what you think, I am a regular here and for all these years, I didn't know that you'll ever come back to me. I thought you left me and I was able to cope with the loss, or losing you, by going to bars or travelling, or my hooking up with other women and having sex without any commitments just fun and adventure, to live life as I saw it fit and it was fine,
I was fine until you...you came into the picture!, I explained my hand is still held by Leila then she slowly let it go wiping her eyes with her fingers. I look silly and like a cry baby, sorry! But are you happy, doing all these things with the women you meet? I loved you and I still do, I never would've left if I didn't think you will despise me for being with someone and got pregnant!, Leila convincing me that she does love me. You didn't? You should've talked to me or even asked me before you left without a word.
My God, Leila, we've known each other for years and you know that I would get pissed with you for leaving without even saying goodbye. And then you tell me that you loved me or you love me now!, I said standing up and walked to move far from Leila. Yet I thought about what Gerrie told me earlier and face my fears so I went looking for a private room to talk with Leila. I gave my credit card to the owner and she accepted it. She knows what to do with since I have been in here for a numerous times I've lost count. Leila followed me, it's a gay bar and while she ran after me, there were gays, lesbians and trans people kissing and touching each other every where she looked. It made her feel sick and she almost fell since she is dizzy from crying and sadness maybe seeing Sasa with other girls or women, younger than she and her. I reached for Leila on the ground and wrapped my arms around her from people dancing and making out and led her to a private room where I usually stay whenever I come here.
Are you okay? I wanted to make sure Leila is fine, so I let her lay down on the bed to rest but she reached for my face and caressed it. I was jealous of Craig when I saw you too at the school and I ran away with Jorge to make my revenge but it didn't go well since he did horrible things to me which I deeply regretted now. I'm sorry I left you and I love you ever since Sasa, I never forgot you and the feelings you make me feel when I'm with you, Leila added slowly placing her lips to mine, which I grabbed and put my mouth on fiercely and hungrily. I felt so strange but as if being with her now is easy, light and happy. I think I have forgiven her, because whenever I kiss her, it feels right and crave for her like I crave to be loved, to be touched and be accepted for me. Leila touched my face, neck, ears and arms. She took off my clothes and I did hers. We felt so perfectly in the moment that we didn't need anything, not alcohol, cigarette or drugs but each other. I thought I can drown myself in beer and wine, or kill my sadness with cigarettes or drugs but what I didn't know was, however I try to forget about Leila, she is the only woman that captured my heart and every woman or girl that comes along can't measure to Leila's beauty, fire and sexiness.
Maybe, because I am in love with her that no none is good enough for me, just her.
We felt, touched and loved all through-out that night that I forgot that we are still in the bar. I kissed Lei who is sleeping soundly in my chest. I am hers and she is mine. What else could I want more that I don't want this night to end, ever. Someone knocked at the door and it was Beca, She wanted to talk to me but I said not today, her face smirked and I gave her a big tip which I took from my pants beside naked Leila. Beca saw Lei and looked at her with contempt. Beca, she is the one I'm telling you about. She is Leila. Okay, we'll be out in a bit. Thanks so much for everything Beca, mwah! I told the girl and kissed ker on the mouth out of gratitude for everything that she did for me and all. She still smirked but smiled at me saying, anytime, for my king!.
Beca is really a dear. I hope she finds a guy or woman that would really love her not just bang her but take her away from here. Well I might find a way for her to do that. I asked the manager to give Beca a raise and that she no longer need to work all her life. I gave Beca a check worth 1 million dollars. I carried Leila to the car even if she's still asleep. Kissed Beca on the cheek while giving her the check as my gift for her kindness. Beca's eyes grew large when she saw the amount of money I gave her with my litlt note on the side, "I love you this much and I hope you'll find your happiness. Free yourself from this kind of work. So long and take care", Love, Sasa, your king.
Lei woke up with Lillian beside her, helping her by letting her drink some antacids and carrying her to the bathroom. Lillian was giggling and when she saw Lei's face complaining about her body aches, she went silent clearing her throat to ask. I bet you didn't have much time to pee last night because of Autn Sasa all over you, huh!. Leila looked at her daughter and nodded, then both laughed at each other walking to the bathroom.
She felt like her body had been punched my someone but in fact it's the sex the we did several times that I was the one who gave up in doing it all over again since my private part is already swollen and aching. But it was a lovely and sexy night that I wouldn't forget. My body ached too but ached in a good sense of the word. I would do it again just for my sweet and beautiful feisty Leila. That's what I call her now, hihi!
I woke up early to go to work as usual and talked with my people for my plans expanding the business to Canada and Australia which has already been organized as we speak.
Liilian reported at the meeting what was the conference about and how we can strengthen our businesses and companies since all transactions are almost done online or via holograms. It is the new indeed and nowadays we no longer go to meetings flying there and back, unless necessary, like in my case I always want to meet my new employees in my new branch or branches to get to know them and to be comfortable working with them since we do it in a long term basis.
There should always be good communication between the manager and the employees, or the CEO to his or her managers, supervisors or the rest of the HR and all the departments concerning the employees and management, perce. I remember when I was just starting to work at the bookstore with Mr. Shang, it's not always fun but I learned a lot and he taught me to be the person I am today and that I always need to deal with people with compassion, empathy and concern. He is rich but he never let others see him as that by wearing simple or sometimes worn shirts with matching sleepers if he buys groceries or if he needed to pay for his bills. But when it's for a meeting or for anything that requires to be formal and appear powerful, Mr. Shang is like a walking bling-bling, with matching gold watch, necklace over his tuxedo or anything expensive as long as they are long sleeved and conservative. He is a funny but exquisite man. Nothing can beat his professionalism and humility that I still have a hard time following his righteous example.
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