Chương 34: Chapter 34: Emotional Waves and Catharsis

In Yan Yan's doubtful eyes, Su Ran said: "Don't look at me with those doubtful eyes. Haven't you ever insulted Fang Yuan? Young lovers insult each other for the healthy development of their relationship. Everyone here knows that I, Su Ran, have a good character."

After that, he complained to Xu Tianna: "Don't make trouble. If you insult me, we can go home and flirt with each other. These people are all bad friends. Don't get involved with them."

"Su Ran, you are really crazy. For your own tall image, you have degraded a bunch of people." Lu Chen said.

"I'm always good at doing this." Su Ran responded nonchalantly.

This time Xu Tianna took the initiative to answer: "Then I said you have a bad character, right?"

"That's right!" Everyone echoed, then smiled knowingly, and raised their glasses to clink, and the atmosphere finally became a little more lively.

Su Ran drank the remaining half bottle of beer in one gulp, and felt a little relieved. He looked at Lin Yue unconsciously from the corner of his eyes. Since entering the bar, she was even more silent than Xu Tianna, and only occasionally spoke a few words to Lu Chen.

Everyone continued to chat. Although Su Ran sat next to Xu Tianna, he did not dare to have any physical contact with her, for fear that she would turn hostile. At this moment, he only hoped to end this party peacefully and vowed not to participate in it again in the future. The pain in his heart was as turbulent as the tide, and only he could feel it truly. He just wanted to stand silently behind Lin Yue and Lu Chen and sincerely wish them happiness, instead of suffering in this false laughter like now.

Su Ran's heart was full of pain because he laughed and scolded with everyone against his will, but he could not escape.

People, wearing a mask that doesn't fit, it's not just the face that suffers, but also the tired heart.

Robben in the distance finally finished singing. He looked at Su Ran with the microphone and said, "Su Ran, come up and sing two songs to cheer up your friends."

As soon as Robben finished speaking, Lin Yue was the first to applaud, followed by Fang Yuan, Lu Chen and others who also applauded and whistled. The atmosphere in the whole bar instantly became high.

Su Ran glanced at everyone, nodded to Robben, and then walked towards the stage.

Robben handed the guitar in his hand to Su Ran, and he took a bass from the band member Xiao Wu to work with him. Su Ran took a deep breath and ordered Zheng Jun's "Elopement".

"A song "Elopement" for you." Su Ran plucked the guitar strings and closed his eyes. Some fragmented pictures instantly appeared in his mind.

"Dedicate your youth to the brilliant city behind you. We pay a price for this beautiful dream, and leave love to the most sincere girl beside me. You accompany me to sing, you accompany me to wander, and accompany me to lose. It is not until now that I suddenly understand that what I dream of is true love and freedom. I want to take you to elope to the farthest town, I want to take you to elope to be the happiest person. Elope, elope, elope"

In the tearing voice, Su Ran improvised and sang three "elope" in a row. His emotions were completely released at this moment. Before Lin Yue went abroad, they were forced to have no choice but to hide back to Suzhou from Shanghai, and then wanted to elope from Suzhou to Tibet. At that time, they naively thought that they could elope to the ends of the earth with the courage in this song, and that a guitar, two people, and running all the way would be the happiest appearance. They also thought that elopement could allow them to steal two people's lives from the real world.

The heavy metal music tore through the desire, and all the worldly noise was drowned in this song "Elopement". Su Ran had never been so hysterical that he could not help himself. He wanted to tear the world apart and tear apart illusions.

The sound of the music gradually stopped, and the applause sounded like thunder. Su Ran still looked up, and after a long time, he returned the guitar to Robben beside him, and walked to the bathroom without looking back.

In the mirror of the bathroom, Su Ran's face was full of water stains. He was glad that he finally concealed the truth and successfully concealed the tears of pain and frustration with these seemingly normal water stains.

Once, Lin Yue was his belief in this city of desire, but now, the belief collapsed ruthlessly. Those injuries, pains, and desires were all suppressed in his heart, and finally could not bear the burden. They mutated in the time of a song, twisting his nerves.

Outside the bar, everyone said goodbye. The three men were a little drunk. Fang Yuan put his arm around Yan Yan's shoulders and walked towards their car first. Lin Yue supported Lu Chen, who was not sober, and only Su Ran and Xu Tianna kept an imperceptible distance.

Lin Yue helped Lu Chen into the car. Just when Su Ran thought she was going to leave, she turned back and walked towards Su Ran and Xu Tianna.

She stood in front of Su Ran and Xu Tianna, but did not look at Su Ran. She said to Xu Tianna: "Go back and give him a cup of milk with honey. His stomach is not very good."

Xu Tianna nodded. Lin Yue looked at Su Ran, who was standing unsteadily, and then nodded to Xu Tianna. Without saying anything, she turned and walked towards the car.

Su Ran stared at her back for a long time.

"She's gone." Xu Tianna beside him said to him.

"Oh." Su Ran responded numbly.

"Where do you live? I'll take you home." Xu Tianna asked.

"No need, I can take a taxi myself." Su Ran said.

Xu Tianna smiled and said, "I promised your ex-girlfriend to make you a cup of honey milk. I don't like to break my promise."

"Then let's go." Su Ran said helplessly.

Xu Tianna was driving the car, and Su Ran was sitting in the passenger seat. He felt a little dizzy as he watched the car passing through the tall buildings under the light and shadow of the city. He knew that the alcohol was taking effect.

After a long silence, Xu Tianna finally asked Su Ran, "You sang that song just now for your ex-girlfriend, right?"

"Her name is Lin Yue." Su Ran said.

"Why, don't you like others calling her your ex-girlfriend?" Xu Tianna asked.

Su Ran replied a little awkwardly, "Wouldn't it be better to call two people by their names when they have already cut off their relationship?"

Xu Tianna smiled and said, "I'm afraid your heart is not as clean as you say."

Su Ran did not answer, stared at Xu Tianna for a long time, and suddenly said, "Drive faster, I feel like vomiting."

"Then get out of the car and vomit." Xu Tianna said.

"Go home and vomit. Drive faster." Su Ran urged again, and his words became more fluent.

Xu Tianna stepped on the brakes and the car stopped immediately: "Get out of the car and vomit. Isn't it uncomfortable to hold it in? There is a river over there."

Although he was dizzy, Su Ran didn't want to vomit. He said he wanted to vomit just because he didn't want to talk to Xu Tianna about Lin Yue. But the inertia caused by the sudden brake almost made him vomit out all the alcohol accumulated in his stomach. This woman seemed to always be able to expose his lies and punish him.

Su Ran opened the car door, rolled and crawled to the river, and then vomited hysterically.

He was a little exhausted, lying flat on the ground in a big letter shape, and looking at the twinkling starry sky, he felt dizzy again.

Xu Tianna came to him and handed her a tissue, saying in a reproachful tone: "I told you not to drink so much more!"

"If you didn't step on the brakes hard just now, I wouldn't vomit at all." Su Ran still spoke unsteadily.

"Really? So you were just kidding me again?" Xu Tianna asked.

Su Ran realized that he had confessed again, so he simply pretended to be dead and lay on the ground motionless.

"Keep pretending, I'm leaving first." Xu Tianna said.

Su Ran remembered the night when Xu Tianna threw him in the wilderness, grabbed her hand and said, "Don't go!"

He held Xu Tianna's hand tightly and refused to let go, fearing that he would be left alone in this area where few people and cars passed by.

Xu Tianna was a little flustered, and she struggled to let Su Ran let go. Su Ran hugged her legs tightly again, as if he had found support, comfort, and the lost past.

"Su Ran, let go quickly, you've drunk too much, don't go crazy." Xu Tianna's words became more nervous, and such physical contact was too intimate for them.

"Let me hold you for a while, don't leave!" Su Ran's voice was choked.

"I'm not Lin Yue, Su Ran, wake up!" Xu Tianna held Su Ran's shoulders, struggled violently, and finally pushed him to the ground, running to her car.

Lying on the ground again, Su Ran's world was dark. The cold autumn wind blew him awake again, and after lying for a while, he got up and walked towards Xu Tianna's car. But Xu Tianna was still frightened and firmly disagreed with him sitting in the passenger seat, so she drove him to the back.

The car started again, driving towards the bright lights in front with Su Ran's loss after he gradually woke up. He didn't know what would happen after returning to his residence, nor did he know how to face Xu Tianna. He only knew that tonight's experience made his inner emotions more confused, and he was getting deeper and deeper in the emotional entanglement between the past and the present, unable to extricate himself.