Chương 25: Chapter 25: Heart City Aftermath and New Enlightenment
Su Ran stood on the guardrail facing the wind, opened his eyes wide, and tried to find the reflection of the "Sky City" on the sparkling and flowing river surface, but what came into his eyes was only the ostentatious appearance of the city under the flashing neon lights.
At this moment, he woke up and truly felt the fear of death in his heart. The bottomless moat was like a big mouth that was ready to swallow people. As long as he jumped, he would be swallowed by the endless darkness.
Su Ran looked back at Xu Tianna, but saw that she was indifferent.
"Are you really not going to persuade me?" Su Ran asked with a frown.
"Why should I persuade you?" Xu Tianna responded calmly.
"But I will really die if I jump!" Su Ran raised his voice.
"It's you who will die, not me." Xu Tianna was still calm and composed, and her calm expression did not change at all.
Su Ran was so angry that she jumped down from the guardrail and angrily accused: "I really didn't misjudge you. You are a cruel and vicious woman! In order to achieve your own goals, you can bear to watch others die."
"I have no purpose. You said you wanted to jump into the river." Xu Tianna explained calmly and unhurriedly.
Su Ran became more and more angry, pointing at Xu Tianna and said: "Can you not push me to death so calmly? I remember that I called you to persuade me not to jump. According to my original idea, you shouldn't react like this!"
"When I came, you were lying on the ground like a dead person. You wouldn't jump anyway. Why did you call me to play tricks on me? Is it fun?" Xu Tianna finally showed a trace of anger, and her words became more sharp.
Su Ran felt a little aggrieved. He knew that he really wanted to jump into the river on impulse at that time. Who could have expected that fate would play tricks on him? At that critical moment, the surging alcohol suddenly hit him and made him fall asleep instantly.
He didn't know how to explain to Xu Tianna, so he made up a story: "I really planned to jump into the moat, but just before I jumped, I suddenly remembered that I still owed you more than 10,000 yuan. If I died, it would be over, but no one would pay you back, right? So I gritted my teeth and made up my mind not to jump. Because I am a person with a conscience and a moral bottom line, I will never do such a bad thing as not paying back my debts."
"You are so passionate." Xu Tianna looked at Su Ran and teased with a smile.
"It's really tragic, okay? You can't imagine my inner struggle at that time. On the one hand, there is the temptation of relief brought by death, and on the other hand, there is the condemnation of conscience that will be suffered if the debt is not paid back, which makes it difficult for me to make a decision. In the end, I went through hardships and obstacles and chose to stick to the moral bottom line, so I am still alive now." Su Ran's expression was exaggerated and he spoke vividly.
Xu Tianna seemed to have lost patience with Su Ran's nonsense. She stood up from the ground and prepared to leave.
"Wait." Su Ran hurriedly called her.
"What's wrong?" Xu Tianna's tone was full of impatience. As she spoke, she put on the coat that had just covered Su Ran.
"Have you been sitting here watching me since the afternoon?" Su Ran asked.
"I'm here to collect your body, not to persuade you, so I came in the evening." Xu Tianna still said in that unique calm tone.
"Who are you kidding? You came to collect my body and covered me with a coat?" Su Ran exposed Xu Tianna's lie with a meaningful smile.
Xu Tianna turned back and looked at Su Ran coldly, saying: "The corpse will be covered with something to cover the remains, don't you know?"
Su Ran was speechless by what Xu Tianna said, and was stunned for a while. At this moment, the alcohol that had not yet completely dissipated in his body began to stir up trouble again, and a strong feeling of dizziness came over him, followed by a strong desire to vomit.
Su Ran lay on the guardrail, as if he wanted to empty his stomach, and vomited into the moat. He did drink too much alcohol at noon, and his body was suffering from the strong backlash of alcohol.
After vomiting, Su Ran leaned against the guardrail and sat down weakly, slowly closing his eyes. As his mind gradually became clear, the scenes he experienced at Fang Yuan and Yan Yan's wedding at noon emerged in his mind like a tide. In that picture, the moment when Lu Chen put on the diamond crystal necklace symbolizing the token of love for Lin Yue deeply hurt his heart. How he wanted to rush over regardless of everything and tell Lin Yue what he really thought in his heart: he wanted to go back to the past, back to those good times when they were happy with each other in silence and full of deep affection.
However, the past is over after all, and there is no way back. He knew clearly that he had lost Lin Yue, and from then on he could only watch her live happily in someone else's world, while he could only stand aside and become a lonely bystander.
In this tearing pain, Su Ran felt warm in the corners of his eyes, and he seemed to cry. He silently told himself in his heart that it must not be him who was crying, but the sky city in his heart that was crying. It used tears to try to dissolve the endless sorrow and sadness deep in Su Ran's heart.
"You cried, wipe your tears."
Su Ran opened his eyes and found that Xu Tianna had not left. She handed him a tissue, and a trace of imperceptible concern flashed in her eyes.
Su Ran did not reach out to take the tissue. He thought, let the tears be blown dry by the wind, so that there would be no trace left, as if nothing had happened.
Xu Tianna squatted down, looked at Su Ran, and finally softened her tone. She asked softly, "Did I say too harshly just now? I shouldn't laugh at you as a corpse."
Su Ran was silent for a long time, and whispered, "It has nothing to do with you. Even if it is really a corpse, it will only hurt at the moment of death. The pain of living is really heartbreaking. Can you understand this feeling?"
Xu Tianna shook her head gently and said, "I don't understand. All I want now is when you can move out of my house."
"Do you hate me so much?" Su Ran asked with a wry smile, and the tears on his face seemed to have been dried by the wind.
"Yes, it's really hard for you to leave a good impression on me with what you have done. You are a complete bastard." Xu Tianna said bluntly and mercilessly.
"Really? But you don't know that this bastard who has done so many bad things in your eyes once had a pure and flawless city in his heart." Su Ran's voice was filled with a hint of sadness and helplessness.
"I don't quite understand what you're talking about." Xu Tianna said frankly.
"You don't need to understand. Because today, this city has been separated from my body and turned into a sky city that I can never reach." Su Ran lowered his head and fumbled in his pocket, but found that there was no cigarette in it. He originally hoped to use smoking to dispel the melancholy in his heart and sew up the broken soul, but at this moment he could only sigh helplessly.
Xu Tianna didn't say anything else. She slowly sat down beside Su Ran and leaned on the guardrail behind her in the same posture. The surrounding environment became quieter and quieter, as if it was completely isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city by the night. A gust of night wind blew, bringing a sense of tranquility that all beings are equal and everything is empty, as if even the smell of fireworks in the world was blown out by this gust of wind.
Su Ran saw a cigarette on the ground that he had only smoked half of it and then extinguished it. He bent down to pick it up, blew it gently, and lit it again. The smell of burning tobacco spread instantly, and then gradually dissipated under the dim light.
Su Ran finally said to Xu Tianna: "I know you want me to leave, I will move out, tomorrow."
"Is it true this time?" Xu Tianna asked.
"It's true. I have lost a city in my heart, how can I care about a house?" Su Ran's tone was full of loneliness and determination.
Xu Tianna seemed to be a little curious about the city that Su Ran always mentioned. She asked, "What does the sky city you mentioned look like?"
Su Ran raised his head slightly and fell into deep thought. After a moment, he said, "It is a crystal clear but silent city. It seems to have a magical power that can make people forget all troubles, pain and vanity. When you are in it, it seems that everything in the world is no longer important. You will turn into a crystal clear bird, break free from all constraints, shuttle freely in the wind, and enjoy the feeling of freedom."
"But the bird will eventually land. Will it still remain crystal clear after landing?" Xu Tianna looked at Su Ran with a hint of exploration in her eyes.
"I don't know. Because I have never thought about what it will look like after landing." Su Ran answered honestly.
Perhaps Su Ran's pitiful appearance touched a trace of sympathy deep in Xu Tianna's heart. This night, she did not abandon Su Ran alone by the river. Su Ran got into Xu Tianna's car and drove towards the prosperous but slightly illusory city. Along the way, Su Ran silently made up his mind that after this night, he would move out of the house he had lived in for a long time. He thought to himself that his life was already so bad, why bother Xu Tianna anymore? Accomplishing her and letting her return to her former peace and quiet might also be a kind of relief.
In the car, the two were silent. Su Ran understood that Xu Tianna's silence was due to her dissatisfaction with his repeated deceptions today. Even though he was now down and out and pitiful, it was difficult to completely calm her anger. Xu Tianna was quite kind to bring him back from the suburbs.
Back to the community where they lived, Xu Tianna parked the car. Su Ran and her walked to the corridor entrance one after the other. However, to their surprise, Ban Die was sitting on the steps at the corridor entrance, with the old black briefcase that had accompanied him for decades beside him. Su Ran was shocked. He didn't know why Ban Die suddenly appeared here. An ominous premonition came to his mind. He quickened his pace and walked towards Ban Die, wanting to find out what happened. Xu Tianna followed behind him, also full of confusion, not knowing what kind of changes and unknowns were waiting for them.
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