Chương 10: I will never believe you
The scene I saw in front of my eyes together with the warm embrace I was feeling, made me feel pure dread.
Lily was hugging me tight and was crying in my chest.
Seeing that scene my pupils dilated and I instinctively tried to throw Lily away from me.
But I failed. No matter how much strength I tried to gather, I just couldn't use any force against her.
"Onii-chan—I don't want this, I can't live without you. I am an idiot. I did many horrible things in the name of forcing you to admit things you never did. I am the worst sister, the worst human being. I know there is no forgiveness for what I did, but even if that's the case, even if I can only leave you alone I can't do it! I can't leave you alone, because I love you."
During my state of dread I heard every single word my sister said.
Although my dread became stronger as I heard the words she uttered, it also ignited unprecedented rage from me. I don't even know how I still can think in this situation.
"You little bitch! You say what you want and do whatever you want, do you think you can do anything and get anything?! Go fuck yourself! Now get the hell out of me and never look at me again!"
"No-No-NO! I am not letting go of you even if I die! Don't matter what you say, I will not back down!"
Did you ever feel like the world is ending? That's how I am feeling right now.
The sense of dread I am feeling is so strong that I am starting to lose my senses. I also feel like if I give up in resisting this fear, it will devour me.
I am afraid.
I don't want this.
Please leave me alone.
I felt the world start to darken
'I can't– can't'
But there is one thing I am sure of
'Gi–gi–giv–ve'
I will never surrender
U–p…
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Slowly I open my eyes.
In the beginning my eyes were very lazy, but suddenly the memories of yesterday surged and my eyes opened wide.
I sat down in my bed and looked around the room. After making sure the room was safe, I started to think in depth about what happened yesterday.
'What is happening to me?'
'Why did I feel so much fear?'
'Why was I unable to use any strength against Lily?'
I wanted to calm down and find out what happened to me by understanding what I felt yesterday.
But first of all, I needed to drink some water.
I went downstairs and just as I was passing by the living room I saw a scene that made my scalp go numb.
Four girls were sitting on the sofa. At this moment they were looking at me with pitiful gazes, it was disgusting.
To nobody's surprise they are Area, Lyly, Ellie and Yue.
I didn't have time to worry about water anymore, as soon our eyes met I turned around and quickly walked towards my room.
What a joke, I couldn't even handle Lily, let alone the four of them.
As soon as I entered my room I closed and locked the door.
'What the hell are they doing here?'
No.
It is more important to know what is going on with me first, I don't want to pass out because of fear again or be unable to use any force.
As I started to meditate and finally calmed down my mind, the door in my room opened.
And there were the four girls who I hate the most.
I gritted my teeth when I saw what they were doing.
"What the hell are you doing here? Get out before I kill you all."
Their body started to tremble but they didn't back an inch, they stayed in the dogeza position.
"Arthur, please give us one last chance. We love you." (Aria)
"We apologize for everything, we deeply regret our actions." (Ellie)
"We don't deserve to be with you, but we insist on being with you." (Yue)
"I will say it again, it doesn't matter what punishment you give us, we will do it." (Lily)
The more I hear them, the more my feelings go out of control. My anger and hate grows to an unprecedented level, if not because of the fear inside of me I would already have killed all of them due to pure rage.
I stop thinking straight and start to voice my thoughts and feelings out loud.
"Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit! You all are full of bullshit!"
"You love me? You want to be with me? Where were you when I was suffering for over a year?! Oh, I remember, You were fucking cursing me and slapping me in the face!"
"You are all fucking bitches! You are heartless, idiot, cruel, vicious and demonic!"
"Why are you crying?! What I just said can't compare to what you all did to me!"
I was at the end of my wits.
How can such a shameless human being exist?
As I was preparing for the second round, the girls began first.
"I know! I know it all! But– but we can't change the way we feel! I would do anything to be by your side!" (Ellie)
"Onii-chan, I know I am the worst idiot in existence, that's why I decided to only believe in you from now on!" (Lily)
"We brutally destroyed our relationship with you and it is a sin. We already let go of you once, we are not doing it again! Never! " (Aria)
"We are being honest with you! Please, believe us!" (Yue)
When I heard the last sentence my mind went blank.
'Please! Believe me!'--
How many times have I asked them to believe me?
But they never did, instead they caused me pain.
And this pain is what made me what I am today. I will never forgive them.
"I will never believe you! Doesn't matter what you say, what you did cannot be undone! Now get the hell out of here and never come back!"
I said these words, but they acted like they didn't hear the second part.
Yue suddenly got up.
She had a determined look on her face, and looked like she was in a fight to save the world.
"If words can't reach you, I will reach you with actions."
— Chương tiếp theo sắp ra mắt — Viết đánh giá
Tình trạng nguồn điện hàng tuần
-- Xếp hạng
Quyền lực 
-- Đá
Quyền lực