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Here in the forest, dark and deep...
I'll offer you eternal sleep...
Only then will we be even...
The debt would finally be paid...
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I could feel my eyes, it opened as the first ray of sunlight flashes in through the windows, right on my eyes.
I don't like how the day gets to be bright, I don't like how all I get is darkness, but still I can't change the past, so I'll invest in the future.
I could feel my legs, it slowly stood, as I stared at the bright windows once again, my blood boils, I want to close it, shut it and rid me of every ray of light, but no I can't do that now, I don't have time left anymore, I'd be a fool..
I can't waste this last chance, no I won't...
I stared at the windows again, as I let out a deep breath, as I slowly looked away from the sight...
It was the day, yes indeed.The day I would finally escape, the day I'd finally be free from this godforsaken bondage, I'll run and I won't stop, I won't dare look back...
I would run, even though I had my doubts I may never make it, but still I would run...
All my hope and certainty was put on nothing, I had assurance on nothing, I've had so many disappointments to finally realized the fact.
To realize that still nothing may work out as plan, but still this was all I have left, my heart is beating with every passing second, but knew I had to be stronger than ever, else I lose my virginity today to him and commit suicide...
I was no coward of death, I feared nothing, if I can't run, I die and I would be my own killer.
Her words still echoed into my ears, everything she said last night was still glued to my memory, I don't think I can ever forget that...
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"I have waited my whole useless life to give them this, to give them their own poison" She stared with her hateful eyes in mine, but still my mouth kept shut, not a single word out....
"What happened"...
"What's the certainty it would work"....
"Please trust me"....
"I trust no one....
"You just have to, if this plan fails, it would be our defeat, our death....
"What do you mean, you're coming along, ain't you?" It was more of a statement than a question, but the coldness on her face said it all...
"Adeline!" My voice screamed out
"How can I?" Her shaky voice yelled back, before letting out a deep sigh...
"Just look at me...Am old enough to be his mother and besides am pregnant again...
But..but you?, just 22, you're perfect"....
"You're not possibly serious"....
"You'll die if you stay here, am I going to tell you that" My blood boiled, but all she did was approach me, as I felt her warmth on me...
It was a hug..She gave me, but yet it felt so uncomfortable.
I've never been loved, I've never be hugged by anyone, so this hug gave me nothing, I felt nothing apart from uncomfort, nothing more, nothing less...
She released me, letting go, her eyes staring into my lifeless ones.
We were both dead, yet she was hopeful than I am, I will forever keep wondering why...
"You have to do this, for both of us....Take everything they have, everything they call dear...Ten folds"...
It was bitterness, they had wrong us so badly, but now, now it's going to be over, not anymore..
"I...
"I'll do it" My spiteful eyes pierced into hers, she never did expected a quick answer so soon.
She never did knew how I hated their souls, much more I should ever imagine..
Hell no, they don't deserve this life, after all they did, No...They can't go away now...
"Trust me, I want more blood shed much more than you can ever imagine"...
"You're ready"...
"15 years i've waited, 15 years I've bloody waited for this.
"It's time now"....
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Her words flashes into my head, as the cool water flows down, it caress my skin one last time and I knew I was ready...
Putting on the only piece of garment I could call my own...A dark crotchet gown, I knew it was time.
My eyes meeting my reflection through the mirror, my hands reaching down to the counter, as it slowly held a grip of the razor, the same lifeless blades that was going to save my soul from death.
I stared at my reflection one last time, as I sliced through my skin, deeper, deeper as I watch it goes, deeper into my wrist, but still I kept some distance away from my pulse.
It flows, I watch it spill yet again, dripping on the floor, as I watch the satisfactory smile form around my lips..
This was it, Now!...
I let out a loud cry, as I could feel myself falling down to the floor, as soon as the hell door were opened, yet again, but this time I wanted it to happen..
Now I would be free..
Finally!.. I whispered, as my eyes slowly close shut.