killer silence

"Will you open the door? I will explain everything to you. »

How can a simple gesture have so much value? How can it matter so much? This simple movement on my part has the power to sweep away everything in its path. My doubts, my certainties. My life. My whole existence will be called into question if I push the doors. If I let him enter my living space. But do I have a choice? Do I have a chance to escape this mess my life has become? I have already trampled on everything by letting him build a place of choice by my side. A place that has never been vacant for anyone but him. And yet, today, it is him of whom I am most afraid.

My best friend terrifies me because after always looking for what they were hiding from me, here I am very close to the truth. And I'm not sure I want to accept it. Otherwise, it comes down to taking everything. Their explanations, their nature, their world where violence and death reign… And then there is the other. The one I can't bear. The one I hate because he makes me feel too much. Things I don't even want to hear about.