Chương 3: -CHAPTER 2
I suddenly felt disappointed to myself.
How useless am I right now. No one is willing to hire me because they think I'm not able to do my job well. And experience! I didn't know that that's a big advantage in this reality. When you have more experienced the more job are going to flock on your feet but if you weren't then goodbye.
And at my age it doesn't also fit in their list of employees, most of them think I was too young and nothing can help. Eighteen is legal age but still they were hesitant to hire someone young and inexperienced.
I sighed.
I glanced at my wrist watch and its almost twelve thirty in the afternoon. I'm too hungry to walk again and find a job. I decided to go to the nearest fast-food to eat.
People were busy talking while eating their lunch inside the fast-food. When I found a table for two near the glass window I already order my food. I watched the waitresses serving, they all look matured than me, their actions are quick to take care of the customers. Everyone is busy to meet their demands. They also has their own technique for cleaning properly even when there are a lot of people.
"I can do that!" I said to myself.
It was simple isn't it? I will just serve the orders. Wiped the table after used. Bring the dishes inside the kitchen so the dishwasher can wash it or maybe they also do it? Well I will know that if only they hired me.
When my order arrived, I just ate to relieve my hunger.
And I didn't know that the food here is this amazing or maybe I was just too hungry that this simple food for me taste delicious. I want to cry as I swallow my food. Even at the food, I am being emotional. Really!?
Before, I don't really appreciate simple things like this but now that I'm on this shoe everything matters to me. I learned to give value in every little things I have. It hurts to think that I lost someone but now little by little I think that I can also go through it all. I must've trust myself because if I don't? then nothing's gonna change, I will remain weak among the eyes of all people.
"Do you know anyone who rents here?" I heard the woman talking behind me with her... probably friend.
"Hmm. Why? Are you looking?" The other woman answer.
I stop eating to listen to them. A little.
"No. But my cousin is. You know their trouble in ass again so their family decided to bring them here but not living with us, instead to themselves only. To be independent." She shrugged.
"Really!?"
The woman nodded.
"Why don't have a hotel? I think it's good."
"No. My Tito want to teach them a lesson. Hotels are not counted." She shake her head.
"I don't know. But I can call or message you when I find one."
"Oh sure." The woman smiled. They continued talking but I never listened again.
It was as if something suddenly pulled me from what the two women were talking about.
I continue my day through searching for a job that will fit in me. It's 2PM in the afternoon and until now no one's believing my capabilities. I drunk the mineral water I bought. It's too hot that my throat runs dry.
I stopped walking because the man was going to enter the nearby computer shop where I am standing now. I think he's carrying a box filled with papers. I know this man as an officer in our municipal.
He smiled at me before he enter inside. I stay there for a minute break because right now my feet hurts already. The man went out with the owner of the shop. They are talking about something.
"Just if you know someone, tell me. Just really in need. There's a shortage of staff right now." Said by the man who was carrying the box earlier.
"Alright. Where's Lino and Sita?" Asked by the owner of the computer shop.
"Lino was transferred, so his task is given to someone. Sita, on the other hand wasn't here, she went to her -in -law's province that soon will get married, so it will take few months before she can return here."
The person he was talking to nodded. "Alright. I'll tell you when I get someone here. How many people do you need?"
It was quickly as four o'clock when I quickly looked up at them as I heard what they were talking about. People? It means their looking for a workers? Workers means job! And job means ... Me. I need it!
Oh good gracious!
It almost like my nerves came alive from the tiredness earlier. I was quick to think. And I didn't know that my mind runs fast like this when I'm excited.
Maybe this is it!? If I hadn't been accepted in all the jobs I tried before, I might have been accepted here. I hope!
"Only five people. It's just really necessary now because there are officials coming from other places, it looks like they're planning to build something in here." He said.
"Okay, I'll take care of it."
The man said goodbye and so did the person he was talking to.
I quickly threw the empty bottle of water into the nearby trash can. The man was about to leave but I quickly chased him.
"Hey! Just a moment!" I ran to reach him.
He seemed surprised when I appeared in front of him. He still looked around maybe looking for where I went from.
"Oh what is it dear?" He asked.
I let out a one deep sigh before I answer.
"I'm sorry, but I heard what you were talking about earlier." He nodded as if he understood. "Are you looking for a worker? If I'm not mistaken." I grimaced.
"Ah. Yes for the district." He answered.
I nodded and smiled loosely. "Really? Uhmm ... Can I apply?" I hesitantly asked.
"You?"
I nodded again.
"Hmm. Actually there's no need to hand over documents, we're not strict with staff as others. It's fine with us being just hardworking and reliable at work."
My eyes almost lit up at what I heard. This is really what I need.
"I am hardworking and also reliable"
"Really?"
"Yes. I would like to apply, I just really need the money." I bit my lower lip.
He looked at me carefully before nodding. "I understand. Then just go to the district tomorrow to have you talked or maybe you can start right then if you want."
My nod became subsequent. "Oh my God! Thank you. This is already a big thing for me."
The man smiled before saying goodbye.
I could hardly erase the smile on my lips as I walked home. I cannot believe I got a job, finally. I took my phone out from my sling bag and quickly dialed someone.
One ring.
Two ring.
Then...
"Henry! Guess what?"
"Huh? W-what?" He confusely answer.
I want to jump because of joy in here but it looks like Henry is still proceesing what I've said. "What I mean is guess what happened to my day?" I tap my feet on the ground three times. Losing my patience at this man.
"Like?"
"Ughh. Nevermind. I will say it, I got a job!"
"Really?"
I laughed. "Yeah. And I'll start tomorrow."
"Wow. It's good. What work?"
I realized I didn't even ask what work it is. I didn't even know his name because of too much excitement. Ughh.
"Uhmm. I don't know yet. But I'll know when I go to the district." I smiled.
"What? District? Did I hear it right?"
"Yes. Why?"
He burst into laughter. I frowned, I didn't say anything funny. It took him a long time before he get's serious again.
"You okay? Your laughing." I creased my eyebrows.
"I'm sorry. It's kinda' funny." there was still a trace of smile in his words. "Looks like I already know what your job will be."
"Huh, what?"
"Sweeper or some sort of cleaner." He laughed again.
"Okay. What's funny? That's a fine job I can do that."
Even just talking on the cell phone, it was as if I could see Henry's face laughing and insulting.
"Nothing. I just can't imagined that your going to sweep around and clean some stuff, you doesn't do that Sienne Laura." he pointed out which is true.
"Well...try me." I challenged.
"Okay. Let see." he laughed softly.
I immediately hung up the call because I needed to go home. The sun was setting when I got home, I lost my smile upon entering. This is it again. I feel like something is missing. Maybe I need to get always used to that when I'm inside our house.
I cooked for myself and eat alone. Everything are so lonely here at our house. Even though I want to talk to someone I also don't have. I suddenly think about the two girls talking at the fast food. Our house is big, if I do the plan that I think then it isn't that bad after all. I needed more money now because I'm going back to school.
Only one week will pass and our sem break is done. I'm a grade twelve student. Now, I really need more money to save. I want to enroll college even though I don't have my parents. I still want to continue my dream. I don't want to think that because I don't have them my time will stop as well. My life have to spin around. I don't want to remain on the ground.
I went up the stairs but went straight to my parent's room. This is the first time I have visited here again. Since the fight between him and Mama became more frequent, I have never been went here.
I grab the door knob and open it slowly. I was welcomed by the empty room with an old scent of my parents. I walked to the large bed. This seems reminded me of my parents hugging each other while sleeping, then I will open the door to wake them up because I was too hungry. I smiled.
It seems like everything's happened was just yesterday.
I took their picture on the small table. They were truly happy. I can tell from the glistening sparks of love in their eyes.
I wonder if my father really cheated on my mother. Was that because he fall out of love or it's just a drive of temptation? I don't really get it! If it's true that he did that, why? What was his reason for hurting Mama? Hurt me? I don't understand why it has to lead to such an incident.
Another thing that bothered me was that woman. She even went here for Papa's funeral, she just reminded that she was a hooked. If they had really done something then both of them are to blame. It's their fault why this things happen. I don't even know that woman or even her name. I don't know where and when she meet my father.
Or maybe I was being blinded. I trust my father too much that he will never do that to us. I expected too much good from him but then he can be unfaithful too, like other husbands.
It hurts to think about how Mama felt when she found out the truth. She was always looks cool, compose but intimidating. She never show her wrath to anyone but when my father did that, all I saw is a soft angel burning in pain. It's like her wings are removed leading to her downfall. My mom was too broken.
We all not perfect indeed. Everyone has a flaws.
I just looked at the things they left behind and after that I leave the room.. It's still too painful. I still can't accept to myself the fact that the person I care about left me.
I sleep with my chest feeling heavy from so much pain.
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