Every hour feels like a war
Without a break
And i am loosing myself
Every minute.
I walk around
Fighting all alone.
Mad at some people
For refusing to help,
When i need them the most..
Cause i know i am not gonna make it out.
Its not that i don't want to be happy,
I really did try
But even after trying,
I am not able to bring myself to be happy.
Why did i have to be this way?
Living has become a permanent night mare.
Its not really fair for me to go through this.
I have an amazing family,
Beautiful friends,
Good in academics.
But fights put me down
I fall really hard..
Seeing everyone in separate corners,
Hurts....
I dont know what i am fighting with anymore
Society says, only i can bring myself out of the way things are
But what if thats not true?
What if they are a lie?
Cause i am not strong enough to do this by myself.
I am trying and trying and running out of breath
And i am just ruining my health
I put the walls so high
So that in one side of the wall, is for public,
Is a girl who does mistakes, is happy, the world loves her.
In the other side of the wall, is for private or home,
Is me struggling to fight the war, no peace, is sad.
I put the wall so high so that
No one sees my other side
They only see the good and happy me
I am scared if they see the sad me
They will be disappointed, regret what decisions they have done.
I dont want to fight anymore
I am just too tired...