Chương 7: Waiting for a Miracle

...Kati POV...

There is a knock at the door. I reluctantly leave Kati's side and rush to meet the doctor. I hardly greet him as he follows me to Kati's room. The tears are still streaming down his face, and my body trembles with every move I make. The only thing I am worried about is Kati. I want Kati to be okay. Kati has to be okay.

When we get to Kati's side, I manage to pull myself together to listen as the doctor speaks.

"You say she's got late-stage cancer? Why is she not in the hospital?"

"She does not want people to make a fuss about her in what could possibly be her last months."

"Understandable, she is a very brave girl. I guess the only thing that matters is what makes her happy in the end. It's still very risky and reckless, though. She will get the best care in the hospital."

"No hospitals. I promised her."

I take Kati's hand into mine and places a soft kiss on her palm. I take a stray hair away from her eyes and move it behind her ear. My tears are still running down my face, and I watch as a teardrop fall on her cheek. I wipe them dry and kiss her on her forehead. Before I pull away, I whisper into her ear, 'I love you.'

The doctor waits for me before he speaks again, "What happened?"

"I don't know, I found her on the bathroom floor. Is she okay?"

"Her pulse is very weak, and her breathing is strained. Has she been sleeping?"

"No, she has been up before five everything morning. I thought she was okay, that she was full of energy and that she was fine."

"She most likely dropped from exhaustion. She has hit her head quite hard. I cannot tell you when she will come too again. I need you to bring her so I can do tests."

"No. No hospitals. I promised her."

"Son, you could be signing her death certificate. Please let us just do the tests."

"I said no hospitals. What can you do for her? She can't die; please don't let her die."

Then I think that all right reasoning has left my mind, and desperation sets in, for what I ask next even shocks the doctor. "Can I give her the parts of my body that have got cancer in hers?"

"I wish it could work that way. If you insist on not taking her to the hospital, you need to keep watch over her. If anything changes, you phone me right away."

"What do you mean if anything happens. It's too early; she has three months."

"Son, I am afraid not. From what you have told me and the records you gave me from her doctor, she has far less."

"How? You're mistaken. She is going to be okay; she has a lot of time to get better still."

"Sebastian, I admire your faith and commitment to Kati. Kati is really sick. It's going to take a miracle to save her."

"I will find that miracle even if I have to go to the ends of this world. Kati cannot die. She will not die."

With that, the doctors make his leave, with a promise that I will take Kati in to go and see him.

Then I lift Kati into my body and embraces her into a hug. I stop crying because I promised her that I wouldn't cry whenever I try to wake her up. But still, I plead at her, I beg, I demand."

"Kati, my love, please wake up."

How did I not see this? I was so caught up in my feelings that I did not realize Kati is not okay. How did she get so sick so fast? She would not keep it from me. I know she is scared that I'm not going to make it without her. I am scared. More for Kati than for me. But did she really hide it from me, or did the doctor made a mistake?

And as I lay with her in my arms, I think of the things that I will miss the most. I miss her gentle kiss on my skin. The way her soft lips send shivers down my spine. When she runs her fingers down my chest, it warms my entire body. She loves to linger her warm breath on the most sensitive parts of my neck. I love the smell of her hair as she snuggles in my arms. The way her body feels when she cuddles in mine. She is amazing; she is one of a kind. I will be nothing without her. She is the wonder, the miracle, and the hope that runs through our veins. I love her.

I do not want to leave her side for a single moment until she wakes. So I take my phone from the bedside table and call my mom to find out how far away she is.

"Hi, boy. How are you?"

"Hi, mom. I don't think I'll make it if something happens to her."

"I'm almost there. Another half an hour to go. You guys hang in there."

"I will leave the door open. We in grandma's old room."

..... Mom's POV.....

Kati and Sebastian have finally found each other after years. They are going to lose each other in a little less than two months. It never was three months; it has been for two months. We both were selfish, not telling Sebastian that it was two and not three months.

Yes, I lied to my son. I knew how sick Kati was. That was why I pushed him so hard to admit his love to her. Everything comes at a price. No matter which way you look at it. It was good when he did know that something was not right. He loves her more than breathing itself. He is drowning in his love for her. I don't know if he can save himself cause he can't save Kati.

In another half an hour am pulling up into the driveway. I don't know what to expect. This is the very place I lost my husband years ago. Sebastian was too young to remember. Even the peace and serenity does not hide all the heartache that surrounds it.

..... Sebastian's POV.....

"Hi, mom."

"Hi, my boy."

Before I can say another word, I break down and fall into my mom's arms. And there I stay as I cry my pain away. And cry out of fear that I am losing her with every breath that I take. Then my mom gently whispers.

"How is she doing?"

"Still not awake."

"Can I go in?"

"Yes, please get her to wake up."

I watch as my mom goes to sit next to her on the bed; she takes her hand softly in her palm.

"Kati honey, it's mom. It's time to get back. It's cold out there. Come back to the warmth. Sebastian is waiting, sweety. We love you, Sebastian loves you. Please come back; you need to come back. You the only one that can bring back the light and the warmth."

I put my hand on my mom's shoulder; she must be tired from the drive. "Mom, go get some rest; I will stay with her."

I take Kati in my arms and pull her into my body. She fits like a glove. So many years have I miss the snuggle of her warm body into mine. The heat between our bodies is unmistakable. She makes my skin tremble. She sets my body alight. Her single touch to my skin brings my sensations to an explosion. I come undone when I am near her.

I have felt only real love in her presence. I have so much love running through my veins. I will feel this love even in the life after this. I love her with every beat.

"Kati, sweety, please, please."