Chương 13: I Am Jealous

Adonis's POV

"Look, Jake, I know I always asked you to back me up every time I have something in mind to make Maya annoyed with me, and I can feel it you ever hesitated, and now, I realized it was because you like her." I spoke with a sigh.

"Why do you suddenly change your mind? For how many times you told me you hate her because you always catch her looking at you, don't tell me you are seeing what most of us had noticed about her." My cousin said meaningfully, and I didn't answer him.

"You can't deny it, Adonis, Maya is beautiful." He stated, and I wish to agree with him, but I am not going to let Jake knows what I am feeling right now because I hate to admit the truth, and I am fighting it because I don't wish to look like an idiot.

"Your silence means you acknowledge that I am saying the truth and obvious, James told me the other day he will court Maya, and he doesn't care if the circle will mock him." He said and my eyes widened.

"What you mean?" I asked.

"He is serious about her, she is his long-time crush that is why James always wants to visit his grandfather's estate every weekend even if his parents are against it." He replied.

"To be honest, I like Maya too, but since you hated her ever since I can remember, I stayed away from her all the time, but we are no longer minors, we are mature individuals now, and I think it is about time I will avoid taking part with your pranks." Jake said seriously, and I am taken aback by his words.

"Now, can you tell me what is exactly in your mind right now? I mean, if James will court Maya, I will do the same and there is no way you can stop me from doing it because you hate her, we are cousins Adonis, but please I don't want you to continue hurting her without valid reasons. Can't you get the pain that registered on her face this morning? To be honest, I wanted to punch you for injuring her, but it seems she doesn't need saving because I still can see her handprints on your handsome face." He said, and he is laughing at my face, and I unintentionally caress my cheek.

The words of Jake bring me to the edge and many things pop up in my mind, I know I was a jerk and I really hurt her, but I hate the idea of Maya dating anyone and I don't want her to kiss anyone either. And just thinking about it makes me want to scream. I don't wish any Young Masters in our place to court her.

Jake slowed down his car when we reach the arch of our mansion. And I am still angry with myself for what I have done. It seems I am walking in a thin line right now, for I need to carry out a decision, or I will regret it for the rest of my life. He stopped the car in front of the grand entrance of the magnificent house. I heard the clicking of the car doors as Jake pushed the buttons, but I remain seated on his sports car.

"You are speechless, and now you are acting so weird. You are making me so confused Adonis, this is the first time I see you like this, you are so lost in space, and I think you are in your bubble. Come on Adonis, tell me what is in your mind, I know Rich is your best friend while I am your best cousin, but it shows we are both going to court Maya Alva. I can tell Rich likes, Maya, too. It implies you are the only one who hates her." Jake declared, and I glared at him, but no words came out from my mouth.

"I know Rich has an advantage since I can tell Maya likes him too." He said, and it really made me so angry.

"Jake can you please stop it!" I hollered at him, and he was stunned and looked at me like I am possessed by a demon.

"You must hate her that much." He said and get out of the car and slammed the door without looking back. He gets inside the mansion while I am shocked by my actions. I don't recognize myself anymore, and he was right, I am acting weird. Minutes had passed, and I got out of his car, and I lazily walk towards the household. I can't see my cousin in the main living area and I can tell he goes to the game room. I am not in the mood to play any games too. I ascended on the stairs, and I am sighing when I come across my twin sister. She is smiling at me, and it was hard not to reciprocate her sweet smile.

"Hey! Bro, are you alright?" She asked, and I nodded. I love my sister because they always left us at home with the babysitters growing up since our parents are constantly busy with our businesses. We became closer when we turned into adolescents even until now. We always talk and confide in each other, and I think this is the first time I am going to lie with my twin.

"Are you certain? You looked like a mess, Adonis." She said and peered at me with concerns in her beautiful eyes.

"I am fine, why you look so happy by the way?" I inquired.

"Well, I am going to call Maya, I gave her my old iPhone." She beamed at me, and I try to grin at her. I quickly turned on my heels and walk away from my twin sister. Why is everyone speaking about Maya? How am I going to have peace of mind when everybody around me is talking about her? She makes me so troubled, and the only means to handle this is to face her.

I go inside my room and lay on my extra- king-size bed. I wonder how am I going to stop myself from feeling this manner. Damn, she got me, I thought I can draw away from her as I get up from the bed and moved to the bathroom, and I take a shower to soothe my confused emotions. I let the cool water drips on my frame and the sensation it brings calm me. I wish my mind will cease thinking about her beautiful face. But Jake's words are recounting in my head and I don't want to accept it, but there is no way I will let any of them kiss Maya's luscious lips, nor embrace her desirable body.

I decided I will make sure Maya Alva will recognize the real me. I perceive she hated me now, and I hope it will not be too late to ask her to become my friend. I finish my shower in a haste and I put on my favorite tattered jeans and a black T-shirt, and I am glad my mother is not around for she hates me with this kind of outfit since she always wants me to wear formal clothes like I am always attending a gala. I love my mom, but I don't appreciate it when she decides what is best for me, especially my signature clothes.

I wonder what is the contact number of Maya, but I don't want my sister to know my plans, for I felt so ashamed of myself. I sent Rich a message asking him where he is, and I frowned when I read his reply.

"I am at the house, but I am going to pick up Maya in a while." He said in his text and I want to throw my phone on the wall. But I calm myself and I need to stop my stupid heart for feeling so jealous, and it hit me, I realized the anger that I felt is caused by jealousy. When did I turn out to be like this a jealous freak? That is why I was so angry with Jake a while ago because I am also envious of him talking about Maya.

"Why are you picking her up?" I texted.

"My mom asked her to come over, and I don't want her to walk again." He replied, and I wish to tell him I will be the one to pick her up, but I don't want Rich to doubt my intention and there is no way I am going to admit I am feeling something for Maya. I just prefer to make sure if the feelings I have for her right now are undeniable. I hated her for a long time now, and this new sensation I felt towards her is so raw, and the only measure to check if this is real is to be with her.

I have never been in a serious relationship, girls always showed their interest in me, some of them are so vocal with their feelings that is why I hate some of them. Furthermore, I want them to have some dignity for themselves, others always send text messages that is why I block their numbers. Maya seems to be one of them, but I am not sure anymore. Deep inside me, I crave her to remain smitten by me, so it will not be hard on my part to convince her I want to know her this time.