I wish that I too could swim without worry
But thoughts like hurricanes wreck any semblance of peacefulness,
I see them swim lazily
Without a care
I remember times when I was carefree
And wasnt emotionaly wrecked
Im not carefree
I simply cannot afford it
I cannot afford to be pure in a world so tainted it would tarnish white as soon as it was seen
So I welcomed it
I could not afford being carefree so I became colder instead
I look at the koi fish
Entirely white
Envy.
That's what I feel.
I snap out of my daze and continue on like nothing happened