Chương 55: Spilling my heart
I saw Jong-in and Sehun.
"Come in." I said and sat on the chair. I kept staring at the floor.
"Y/n, eat something. Or you'll become weak." Jong-in said.
"Oppa, I'm not hungry." I said mood off.
"You can call me Kai, no formalities required. Now, if you don't eat, baekhyun hyung will turn into a rage animal." He said.
"I'm really not hungry. I'm sorry to disturb you guys." I got up and left.
I went to the terrace. I wanted some alone time.
"Eomma, Appa, I don't know what to do. I can't talk it out to someone in person. What went wrong? Where did I make a mistake? Everything was going well, and how did it end up here? He was my everything. He was there for me. But I didn't care a little also that he'd feel lonely. He did everything for me once we met each other. And is this how I treat him. He was the only best thing I ever had. Now I'm here, talking about how good and caring he is. I really like him. I really like Jimin. But I put my thoughts aside and just asked for his friendship. But I'm here, without anything."
The last few lines, came low. I fell on my knees.
"Y/n." I heard a voice and pair of hands wrap around me.
It reminded me of the time when Jimin was by my side when I told him what happened to my parents on that day.
"Oppa, I had a fight with Jimin." I said crying.
"Y/n, get up." He helped and we sat down on a bench.
"Now tell what happened." He said. I wiped my tears and told him everything.
How I met Hwan and how he came as my assistant. How I avoided Jimin. And how it ended up. And how I like Jimin.
"He makes me feel something else. I think I like him. I really do. But I put that things aside and only look at him as my friend now. Cause I don't want our friendship to end."
"You should really talk to him." He said.
"He's your friend y/n. He knows you more than I know you. You've know each other since birth. He'll understand you. You know how he is. Now eat some food. Take rest tonight. Tomorrow, I'll drop you at home." He said.
I nodded and ate the ramen. And I went to sleep.
*next day
I woke up and freshened myself. I felt kinda relieved that I had someone to talk about.
I sat on the bed and thought how to tell him.
"Let's have breakfast." He said and went over.
"So when do you want to get home?" He asked.
"I don't know. Maybe I'll leave by evening. Don't worry. I won't trouble you guys."
"You can stay how long you want and leave whenever you want. This too, is your home." Suho said.
I smiled and ate.
*time skip
It was almost 4:00. I didn't want to be a burden. I went over to oppa's room.
"Oppa, I shall take a leave."
"Ok I'll drop you." Oppa got up but I stopped him.
"Oppa, I'll go on my own. I don't want to disturb you. I'll be fine." I said.
"Ok. Text me when you've reached." He said. I nodded and left.
I didn't know what to do. I just walked. How do I tell? I asked for a break. How will I face him?
I sat in a bench half of the time. I got up and walked again.
It was 6:00 pm.
As I was walking, I saw a club.
My legs went that way. I went in and seat myself at the bar counter.
"Ma'am what would you like to have?" A guy asked.
"No thanks. I'm fine." I said.
After sometime, I took a bottle behind the counter, and just drank it. I didn't read what it was or nothing.
I finished the bottle within a few minutes.
"Can I have one more?" I asked in a weird way.
He handed me one more bottle and I finished it.
Like this, I would have almost drank 5-6 bottles of alcohol.
I took my phone out. I couldn't see anything properly.
I touched someone's contact.
"Hello. Y/n?" I heard Jimin's voice.
"Jimin?! Jimin, what are you doing?"
"Y/n, what's wrong with you? Are you drunk?"
"No. No(laugh)." I said and drank another bottle.
"Y/n, where are you?"
"I don't know." As I said my phone slipped from my hand. I didn't care and I just drank more.
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Jimin's POV
I got up thinking about y/n. Where is she? She didn't return home yesterday.
I started worrying about her.
*ring ring
My phone rang. I looked at the contact and it was y/n. I immediately attended it.
"Hello. Y/n?" I said.
"Jimin?! Jimin, what are you doing?" Her voice was different. It was like she was drunk.
"Y/n, what's wrong with you? Are you drunk?" I asked to confirm.
"No. No(laugh)." She said. She definitely was drunk.
"Y/n, where are you?" I asked.
"I don't know." She said and the line ended.
I immediately got up and changed and left.
"Jimin, where are you going?" Jin hyung asked.
"To find y/n." I said, took the car keys and drove fast.
I recalled what I heard while talking to her.
I heard music and today there probably would be only one club that's open and it should be the one that I'm thinking.
I drove to the club. I heard the same song as I heard over the phone. I went in pushing the crowd. From a distance, I could see y/n sitting by the bar counter and gulping the drinks one by one.
I walked over to her.
"Y/n." I called her.
"Who are you? You kinda look familiar." She said.
"Y/n, you're high, I guess. Let's go home." I said and helped her get up.
I put her arm around my neck and held her waist.
She kept sliding this way and that way. I couldn't control her.
"I want to walk. I want to walk." She whined.
"Ok, we'll walk." I said and held her. It was getting dark slowly.
Suddenly, she started crying.
"Y/n, is everything ok?" I asked worried.
"No. Everything is a mess." She said.
I seated her on a bench nearby. Tears flowed from her eyes. It pained looking at them.
"I did the biggest mistake in my life." She said.
"I'll hear you out." I said.
"I don't know who you are. But you look quiet familiar. You look like Jimin. So I'll tell you." She said.
"I fought with my best friend." Tears flowed without her knowing.
"He was my everything. After he knew about my parents death, he gave me everything. He cared for me, he showed me love and happiness."
She paused and continued.
"He is the best. I like him very much. I had feelings for him, but I didn't tell him or show him, cause I don't want our friendship to end. I want it to last long till our deaths."
"Why didn't you want to tell him?" I asked out of curiosity.
"I don't know if he had the same feeling as me. If he doesn't like me more than friends also, at least I get to be his friend. Cause I don't want to loose someone like him. But I'm here, at the verge of loosing him." She said.
Hearing her, tears fell. She also felt the same as me.
I too like you y/n. I too have feelings for you, but I couldn't tell cause I don't want our friendship to end.
I'll tell you soon y/n. I'll tell you how I feel.
She suddenly fell on me. She's drunk so much. I should take her home.
I carried her and put her in the car and drove to the dorm.
*time skip
I reached the dorm and carried her inside. The guys looked confused. I put her in the room and went out.
"She's not feeling well. I'll take care of her." I said and went back inside.
I sat beside her. I kept looking at her. How perfect she is. How she's so adorable and loving.
"Jimin, I'm sorry." I heard her say in her sleep.
"I don't want to loose you."
I caressed her hair and held her hand and rubbed circles.
I sighed and got up but stopped. She held onto my hand. I sat beside her.
I smiled. I really liked her and she too did. And we both had the same thought.
I slowly fell asleep on the chair.
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Y/n's POV
The guy looked like Jimin but I couldn't see cause my eyes became blur.
I spilt out everything to him. I just don't know whether it was the right decision but I just let it out.
After sometime, everything turned black.
*time skip
My head started aching like shit. It hurt a lot. I slowly opened my eyes and adjusted to the light.
"Agrhhh!!" I said as I got up.
"Y/n, you woke up?" I turned and saw Jimin.
"J-Jimin?" How did I end up here. I tied recalling what happened but it was of no vain. My head hurt the more I tried to recall.
"Have this. Your headache will reduce." He gave. I drank it and sat straight.
I left from oppa's house. I walked all the way. I stopped somewhere. A club. I got in and drank like shit.
I met someone and told everything about it to someone, but I don't remember who it is.
I open my eyes and see, I'm here.
"Y/n, are you fine?" He asked.
"Y-yeah." I said and he got up.
"Jimin!" I called him.
He turned back and stood there.
"I need to talk to you."
He sat on the bed, opposite to me.
I hugged him.
"Jimin, I-I'm sorry." I said.
"No y/n. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have shouted at you. I promised to stay by your side, no matter what, but I broke it. I'm really sorry for everything I've done." He said.
We broke the hug and faced each other.
"I don't want to lose you. I should've said things before that Hwan was jinyoung's friend." I said looking down.
"I too don't want to lose you. I misunderstood you. You did this for us not to end. You didn't want clashing between him and me. You also need friends other than me. But he was not right."
I held his hand and rubbed circles.
"Thanks for understanding me. I don't know what I'd be now, without you." As I said a tear flowed.
He cupped my face and looked at my eyes.
"Look at me." I looked at him.
"Without you I'm not here. I'm there cause of you. I understand you the way you understand me. You understand me the way I understand you. Our understanding and trust with each other has brought us here, to this level." He said.
My heart ached for him. I really like him. But I don't want this to end. This friendship we have should last long forever. He might not have feelings for me, but I would want him to be a part of my life at least as a friend, if not as someone more than friends.
I smiled.
I felt happy.
He caressed my hair. My heart was beating fast.
I realised the closeness between us. We were inches apart.
Our eye contact never left.
I realised what I was doing.
"Uhh-umm...." I looked down and moved away from him.
"Let's head out." I said awkwardly.
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Jimin's POV
I went closer to her. I wanted feel her. I wanted to kiss her.
But she moved away. Maybe she's thinking not to. I know y/n well.
If she likes something or someone, she has a habit of shaking her leg.
I saw her leg shaking.
"Let's head out." She said. I nodded and we went.
Y/n, you're hiding your feelings for me.
I won't tell my feelings. But you, yourself will tell me your feelings soon. And that day would be one of the best day of my life.
To be continued...
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