ZANDER
We were out of town with my friends / partners for a couple days. But be back by Saturday. It was an empty feeling after my meetings with new projects. A night without seeing Shay was torturing.
It was another big project again and small one in the same area. Not too far from my company but needed to be discuss further. I wanted to go every night but my partners disagreed. It was just only two nights.
I was glad that we got the projects and came out with the same aspect before starting it.
Tonight, is my last night here in the hotel I was staying in. I miss her so much even we talked or texted each other. It was still a missing piece.
After an early dinner with the clients, me and my partners decided to stroll around the town before heading home tomorrow.
I wanted to go home after dinner since it was just 3 hours' drive from the town but my friends did not agree, so I stayed one more night.
I ended up in the Jewelry store and found myself buying for Shay. I already gave her necklace and I bought something for her.
I was thinking that I wanted her for myself more than anything else. I know I have not told her how I feel. The more she was with me the more my feelings for her became clearer.
The girl who tagged along with us before captured my heart now. Tomorrow, I will tell her what I feel and if thing's going right. I will propose to her right away and ask her to move in with me.
I decided to sleep and wake up early morning before sunrise. I want to be there as soon as possible. I set my alarm clock around three o' clock in the morning and I lay down.
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I woke up so early first than my alarm. I could not sleep properly I miss her, my Sweet Pea Shay. At the same time, I feel uneasy for the things I wanted to accomplish for the day.
I checked out from the hotel at around two in the morning. I turned my music on to keep me company while driving.
Thank God I am safe, arriving at my place two and a half hours. I did not speed my limit to avoid accident. I do not want that to happen since I have not told Shay what I feel for her.
I parked my car and grabbed my bag. I went straight the elevator and pressed the last floor. I know Shay was not here yet.
I told her that I will call her if I am checking out from the hotel. She does not know that I will be here this early. I still have time to prepare for our breakfast.
I opened my bedroom light and froze. Shay is here sleeping in my bed. I turned off the light immediately and carefully put down my bag near my closet.
I walked near the bed I supposedly lean in to kiss her. But I told myself I might wake her up if I do that. I stepped back and I decided to go out to cook for our breakfast.
Since she is still asleep. I started taking out ingredients for breakfast and starts cooking. I seem like I'm floating in the air as I was busy cooking and preparing the ingredients on the table. Smiling like crazy doing my thing.
After that special dinner I prepared just for her not long ago. I came up already the decision that I am totally ready for it.
Heart, mind, body and soul.
This is not for a temporary thing but for a lifetime commitment. I do not want to wait any longer without declaring my true intentions.
We've both been together without label. Of course, I want us to be official even I know we both feel the same. Shay may not be saying anything about us. But I know she is not used with no relationship label.
If these things well as plan. I will start courting her until she will accept me as her boyfriend.
I want to make more effort to show her that she is not an ordinary person for me. I want her to feel that even we always have sex she means something to me.
Since we met, I never looked to any other women. Just like we had in high school I have been exclusively hers. I am faithful and loyal to her.
I never do sex while I was having with her. Why would I do that to her? When I am contented with only her. She was not lack in that sex department. She is beyond.
No reasons for me to do it to other women. I am contented, happy and alive being with her. No one can feel that to me. She is special that I will treasure for life.
I know that I am not perfect but I will try not to give her a doubt about me. I am not like that. If she was not in my life now maybe I was playing and hooking up with any women.
But she returned to me unexpectedly. I smiled thinking again our unexpectedly reunion. It was not what I want it to be but I was glad it happened.
Even sex will always be our set up. But from now on, I will make her feel how much she is loved every single day of her life.
Time flies so fast when I look at the clock. I have done my cooking. Walking towards the balcony. Setting the table more romantic than before. This balcony will always be my witness and special. I recalled the last time I have done in here.
Now, it is time to give her a little surprise. I checked everything I prepared and I think it is time to wake my sleeping beauty up.