I went out of the classroom with Natou-senpai…!
We went up the stairs and to the rooftop.
When we're at the third floor, Natou-senpai suddenly stopped.
When I take a look…There's a third year walking cheerfully in the classroom…
Among them is Iwakura-kaichou.
Ah…she noticed us.
Shit…Iwakura-san's Yukino's ally so she must be having antipathy against me.
And when I was thinking about that…?!
Iwakura-san, bowed her head towards Natou-senpai…
Then, she left the scene in a hurry…!
…Could this be?
「That kid always salutes at me whenever we met…I wonder why?!」
Natou-senpai's on her usual smile…
「…Senpai, you do know Iwakura-kaichou, don't you?」
「Un, at least her face!」
「Have you talked with her?」
「…Not even once」
「Eh…Iwakura-san's the 『Fourth』isn't she?」
…Yuzuki-sensei's 『Toy』
『First』is Katsuko-san
『Third』is Margo-san
『Fourth is Iwakura-kaichou』…
Natou-senpai is the 『Fifth』
「It seems so」
「…It seems?」
「Look…that child is from a different genre isn't she?」
…Genre?
The delinquents; Margo-san and Natou-senpai and, the honor student Iwakura-san?!
「We are the exact opposites so it's better if we don't meet as much」
Saying that, Senpai walked up the stairs lightly…
I run after her.
The wind was strong on the rooftop.
But, the weather's clear.
Rather, the feeling of the breeze feels refreshing…
「Let's take a seat here! Yoshida-chan, take out the snacks Katsun made!」
「Sure sure」
I opened the parcel Katsuko-san gave me this morning…
What's inside is three French toasts and and curry bread.
Then three tea pet bottles…
Huh…Why three?
「Un, looks delicious!」
「Right」
When I was about to reach out for the curry bread…
「Oh right!」
Suddenly, Natou-senpai spoke out!
「What's wrong?」
When I asked her…Senpai took off the buttons of her blouse from the top…!!
…Eeeeeh?!
I can see her white bra…!
…Huh?
Senpai…is wearing a golden pendant?!
A crossed shape pendant head shines in between Senpai's breasts.
Natou-senpai placed her hand behind her neck and took off the pendant.
「You see, this is a very important pendant for me!」
「Ah, is that so?」
For the time being, I nodded.
「Un. Ojii-chan made it to commemorate my birth…take a look, my name's here isn't it?」
Certainly there's a 『NEI』engraved on the surface of the cross…1
「It's true. You have this since you were born?」
「Right, this is my treasure for always…」
Natou-senpai approached the wire net of the rooftop while saying so.
…Then.
Then she threw the pendant towards the sky with all her might!!
…EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHH?!!!!!!!!!!
The golden cross and chains flew out and shine by the early summer's sunlight…!
「Wai…Senpai?!!!!」
The pendant went beyond the wire net then fell behind the school building…!!
I run towards the wire net in a hurry.
The pendant fell on the flowerbed on the backyard!
It's the third from the right…!
I clearly confirmed where it fell!!
「…Yoshida-chan, go get it!」
Senpai ordered me strongly…!
「…Okay, I'll pick it up!」
I run towards the iron door of the rooftop then Senpai called me out again…?!
「…Wait, yoshida-chan!!」
「W-What?!」
I stopped and turned back
「…Buy me a Pingray juice on your way!」
Senpai's eyes were serious.
「…Pingray?」
「Pink grapefruit juice…they sell it on the vending machine just before the backyard!」
…aaaaaahn?!
…I don't get it but anyway, I should just buy it!
「…Got itt!!」
「…Dash! dash!」
「…I'll be back!!」
I dived through the iron door and ran!!
Dadadadada, I ran towards the first floor in a dash…!!
I passes through the corridor that leads to the backyard.
Oh…This is the pingray vending machine Senpai was talking about.
But, let's do it on the way back.
Anyway, let's look for Senpai's pendant…
I went towards the flower bed…!!
…However.
…Huh, I thought it fell towards here?
I can't see the gold pendant anywhere!!
…No way! Was it buried from the shock of the fall?
I tried to dig up the soil that became dented with my hand!
On the back of the budding grasses…
The concreate and the gap of the soil too…
I even looked around the flower bed once again…!
…It's not here.
…Wasn't it from the third from the right?!
I searched the flower bed next to it too…
I overturned the leaves…
Dug up the soil…
And the flower bed next to it too…
…I can't find it.
…What should I do?
「…Are you looking for this?」
A voice from the back…
I know this voice.
When I turned around…Margo-san on white dress and light jeans, smiled.
On her hand is the golden cross pendant of Natou-senpai.
…I'm glad.
I sat down on place weakly…
Sweat gushed out from my whole body.
Margo-san took out her phone and called someone…
「…Nei, you saw?」
Margo-san looks up the roof of the building while talking.
What's there is Natou-senpai waving her hand over the wire net.
『…I saw all of it!』
I can hear Natou-senpai's sweet voice leaking out of Margo-san's phone.
「Then…Nei, what do you think?」
『Yoshida-chan did you buy the pingray?』
「No…he came straight here and looked for the pendant. He ran with all his might!」
「Then, he passed. What about Maru-chan?」
「He also passed for me」
…P-Pass?
…What's going on?
Margo-san dusted off the mud that stuck on my pants.
Then…she told me.
「…Let's talk about the details after returning to Nei!」
◇ ◇ ◇
I went to buy the pingray on the way and…I went back to the rooftop with Margo-san.
I washed my hand on the drinking fountain.
「…Yoshida-chan, sorry bout that」
Natou-senpai holds my hand smilingly…!
「Here's the pendant And here's the pingray…!」
I don't get it but I handed those to Senpai for the time being.
「Ooh…Thanks, thanks」
Senpai put the pendant aside and hugged the pendant with both hands tightly.
Then he pressed her lips against the golden cross pendant.
As expected…that was important.
Why did she threw such a thing?!
「Hmmm…It's really helpful to use something that you treasure a lot when you test people!」
Guessing my expression, Natou-senpai explained…
…Test?
…I'm being tested…
「…Anyway, let's take a seat and eat bread while we talk?」
Margo-san suggested.
We pulled the chair and sat down…
「…It's something we agreed with Yuzuki-sensei…Whenever Sensei picks up a new member, they need to take our approval test by any means」
Margo-san explained while taking the tea pet bottle.
「…The new child won't become a member unless we give our approval!」
Natou-senpai says while munching the French toast. Of course, her drink is the pink grapefruit juice.
「Even if I say us, it's just me, Nei and Katsuko. Iwakura-san is in a special case…」
As expected, it seems that Iwakura-san has a wall between the delinquents…
「To be honest…Yuzuki-sensei fails a lot too you know! Things doesn't always as Sensei's planned」
「There will always be a miscalculation…that's why we perform a check on the new member by twofold and threefold」
「Look, I talked in the classroom about the case two years ago right? Yuzuki-sensei pulled a teacher from the music club to be a dick slave! Then that guy rampaged while Sensei's not looking!」
「During those days, the old school building is being demolished so the monitoring system is not complete.」
「Then…that guy raped schoolgirls without Yuzuki-sensei knowing…!」
…Oh, the chorus club!
「Ah, it's not me! I'm still a virgin! But I really got in danger~ Really, if Maru-chan didn't come to save me, I might've been killed…!」
「…I had no choice but to paralyze him to shut him up… If we use a hallucinogen, they can still tell the difference between reality and delusion. Everything he blurts out are all his delusion, it's to make Yuzuki-sensei unrelated…」
…I-Is that so?
…That's very terrible.
「In the end…A perverted man with savage hobbies is no good becoming our member!」
「At least…we need to make sure that it's someone we can rely on」
「Unun…Right, as expected!」
「But…Yuzuki-sensei's good at finding people with strange hobbies…」
「That person doesn't understand the good and bad qualities of human after all…」
「Un, certainly, she doesn't have the ability to judge character…」
「…Specially her eyes towards men is catastrophic!」
…U-Uhm, Natou-senpai…
「What's wrong, Yoshida-chan? Why are you so nervous?」
「…Perhaps, Yuzuki-sensei's listening to this conversation」
「Isnt' that obvious?…She's listening to what we're saying!」
「You should remember this…if you got complaints to Sensei, just do it」
「…W-Would that be fine?」
「It's fine! We're always saying this as much!」
「Well, Sensei's reflecting by herself too…」
I-Is that so?
S-She won't come here suddenly?
「It's fine, it's' fine!…Sensei's busy on other things at this time!」
「I don't think she has time to come here from our sarcasms…!」
…Then it's fine.
「By the way…We've been examining you all this time!」
「…Do you understand?」2
Un…I get that.
Both their aim and purpose…
「Then, I want to interview you…you okay with that?」
「Ah…okay. Go on」
…Natou-senpai began her questioning.
「Then, first would be…I told you to get my pendant a while ago didn't I…? Did you think that being told suddenly is being 『Bothersome』 or 『Irritating』…??」
「…Because, isn't that Senpai's treasured pendant?」
「But, I just threw it out suddenly?!」
「I thought that it's strange but…But, Senpai told me that it's 『An important pendant Ojii-san made』」
「…I might've been lying? Haven't you thought of that?」
「Well, I've thought of it…But」
「…But?」
「I just thought that I should just pick it up…!」
「I might've just been teasing you?!」
「If so then it can't be helped…it's not that I move my body freely, when Senpai told me to 『Get it』then I'll go everywhere」
I answered honestly
Well, it's not that what I'm saying is so important.
「But…You ran with all your might」
Margo-san joins the interview…
「Why? There's no need for you to hurry up that much, isn't it? It's in the middle of the class, and there's not much people going to the flowerbed on the backyard right? Shouldn't you have gone down the stair slowly?」
「But…there's still the ifs. Also, it's someone's treasured stuff so I thought that I should better hurry up…!」
「Nei told you to buy a 『Pink Grapefruit Juice』from a vending machine on the way right?…!」
「…Yes」
「…What did you think?」
「I just thought that I should just buy it…!」
「Nei told you to 『Buy it on the way』」
「But, the pendant is much more worrying…!」
Margo-san looked at Natou-senpai and nodded.
「There's no problem…Though there's an unnecessary order given, he's not confused. He properly understood the priority and has the ability to handle it reasonably…!」
「…Un. Just as I thought!」
Natou-senpai looked at me and smiled…
「Yoshida-chan…you're『Broken』as expected!」
…B-Broken?
…Me?
…Well, certainly, I don't think that I'm complete…
「Do you remember yesterday…When you and Nei walk in the middle of the red light district and moved towards the four hoodlums?」
「…Ah, yes. I remember」
There's no way I could forget something as fearful as that…!
「Nei used her stun gun on one of the hoodlum and then…you were ordered to 『Hit him hard』weren't you?」
「…Yes」
「Then, you hit the hoodlum with the blackjack…!」
Un…The heavy response from that still remains.
「…Why did you hit the hoodlum with that weapon at that time?」
I do not understand the meaning behind Margo-san's question
「That's because…I was told to 『Hit him』 We're in an actual trouble too…!」
「You never thought that I'd come to save you? You should've seen it with the attack on the delinquents on the car in front of the station right? I will come to save whenever Nei's in trouble…you should know that there's such plan like that, right?」
「Well, I do but…but there's still the ifs…or rather, when I was told to 『Hit』by Natou-senpai, my body just reacted…!」
「Have you never thought that the hoodlum might retaliate after you hit one of them?」
「I've thought of it but…But I promised to follow Yuzuki-sensei's orders…so I prepared myself since I promised. Even if it's scary, or I might get hurt…or at worst, die…!」
「Is that so…as expected you 『Don't value yourself』…!」
…I don't value myself?
…Me?
「『I don't care whatever happens to me』…Is your assumption in life Isn't it?」
…Is that so?
「Yoshida-chan…normal people would never be able to hit the hoodlum in that situation! Especially with such a heavy blunt weapon like blackjack.」
「…Is that so?」
「That's right! As expected, they'd think a lot of things for the moment and they'd lose the timing! There's no person like Yoshida who would really attack at the moment they're shouted with 『Hit him』! Of course, it's different on those professionals. But Yoshida-chan's a normal high school student!」3
「…You're a bit abnormal」
No, even if you criticize me like that.
…I'm I such an abnormal?
「Then! Last night, we slept like the river(川) character, right?!」
「Ah, yes」
「…And all of us were naked down there!」
…Oh right
Only wearing pajama on top and naked down…!
Senpai and Margo-san was lewd…!
「I even pressed you against my breasts…!」
「Then my breasts hit your back…!」
Isn't Margo-san strangling me?!
「Why did you not do anything in that kind of situation?!」
…Eh?
…W-what
「Yuzuki-sensei told you right?…『It's fine to have sex with them but don't get them pregnant』 You don't want to have sex with Nei?」
「I'm I that unattractive?!」
…Eeeeh?!
「…No , because, Natou-senpai said that 『I'm feeling sleepy so I'll sleep』 Then you slept…」
「I was awake that time!」
「Me too, I just pretended to be asleep」
…S-Seriously?!
「If you were just a simple perverted man…then you should've molested us while we're asleep. Your hands were free after all…!」
…No, that's right but.
「Have you never thought of massaging our breasts or touching our asses? Or even sneak a kiss…!」
「No , I thought of it but…!」
「Then, why did you not…?!」
…Err
…That's
「I-I thought that I might be hated…」
「…Eh?」
「…Natou-senpai and Margo-san too…」
I spoke honestly.
Senpai and Margo-san looked at each other.
「That's why…you're 『broken』」
Margo-san spoke calmly.
「What did you do to the girl named Shirasaka Yukino?」
…Yukino?
…Me?
「You stole her virginity and raped her while she's restrained…furthermore, more than ten times in one night」
「Unun, that was terrible」
…Sorry
…It's twelve times all.
…Also, another one inside the car.
「Didn't you even raped her a lot of times after she got unconscious?…And yet why did you not do anything to us?」
Certainly…why did I thoroughly rape Yukino and yet I didn't lay a hand on Senpai.
「Well…Actually, if you did something, Maru-chan would just choke you…!」
Eh, that choke sleeper was serious?
「Then, you'd be disqualified as a candidate and would be erased immediately」
「That's the same on the time with the delinquent hunting…If Yoshida-chan didn't sprinkle the gasoline on the delinquent's car or escaped alone…Maru-chan would dispose you」
「Un…Yoshida-kun would be sent to the hospital along with those guys…!」
Eh…was I crossing such a dangerous bridge all this time?
I was being tested by these two all this time?
「Uhm…since when was I being examined by Senpai?!」
Natou-senpai frowned!
「Isn't that obvious that it's from the start?!! We've always been watching since Yuzuki-sensei called out to you!!」
「We can use the monitoring system of this school too…!」
…Ueh!
…F-From the very beginning?!
「Or rather…it's enough. I'll tell you everything. You were the third male candidate!」
…Third.
Then that means, the men before me…!
「Yuzuki-sensei always wanted a male…a penis in charge as a member. There's only women after the case two years ago. There's two people Yuzuki-sensei selected and tested last year. Just like you…she invited them on a condition of raping a schoolgirl he's interested in…!」
「…T-Then what happened to that person?」
Natou-senpai leaked out a sigh…
「…The first guy is no good at all. Too stupid. As soon as Sensei and that guy were alone, he got full of himself and pushed Sensei down, Maru-chan who's hiding instantly killed him!」
「What happened to that person afterwards?」
「He transferred schools to run away! Maru-chan gave her a thorough body blow so he kept peeing blood for ten days…!」
「I intended to do it on the degree he won't die but…」
T-Too dreadful…!
「Then, the second child had the girl caught safely and it finally was about to enter the rape! That's great until there…!」
「…Why?」
「…You see, it didn't stand up」
…stand?
…Erectile Dysfunction?
…Impotence?
「According to Sensei…it's not that unusual」
「That's right! Men have quite a delicate spirit, he's filled with intention to rape the girl that was captured and yet, their penis won't stand when the moment arrives」
「Their head might be thinking of rape but their body seems to have rejected it」
…No, uhm…the two of you are beautiful when you look normally.
…Saying such things as rape and penis.
Are you people talking like this all the time?
「…On that case, Yoshida-chan's amazing!」
「Un, that was splendid」
「A virgin boy raped the virgin girl!」
「Furthermore, he even let it out inside without any hesitation」
「Normally, men would be scared!」
They'd turn back from the chills on their spine.
Uhm…Onee-sama?!
「Could it be that you were watching?!」
The two older blond beauties nodded…!
「…Of course!」
「We were watching from a monitor from a different room」
「It might be the penis that would break my hymen so I of course would watch!!」
…Is that so?!
…I-It's embarrassing!!
What's why this shame play?!!
「Anyway, Yoshida-chan's amazing! Normal men won't' be able to rape even if they're told to 『Rape』! Even if you tell them to 『Cum inside』they won't be able to cum because of the fear of getting the girl pregnant! In the end, You came inside the virgin child ten times, right?」
Like I said, it's thirteen times…!
「There's no way you'd find such a absurd brutal kind of person like that in this world!」
…Un, I think so too.
「I thought that you might be too talented so Nei and I began to worry. You went too far. You were able to have sex for the night and it's not dependent. If ever you're just a pervert with sex mania then we just have to bind you. There's the incident with the rampage of the music teacher before so we were being careful…!」
「It's not impossible that you'd do something after all…!」
「We told our worry to Sensei immediately. That's why Sensei introduced Nei to you…」
…That's right.
I met Natou-senpai yesterday afternoon…!
「Nei would make a judgement and if ever you were a danger, I intended to dispose if you immediately. Seriously」
「…But, that didn't happen! The Yoshida-chan I met is such a mentally normal child, I can't see anything strange at all…!」
「Next…we observed you as Katsuko-san was going to participate in your sex. As expected, your sex is reckless but…you didn't rampage. You obediently followed Katsuko-san's guidance and didn't go against it. Even when Katsuko-san invited you, You didn't force Katsuko-san to have sex…」
「That's when I noticed…Yoshida-chan's embracing Shirasaka Yukino with such a strong passion but, you can definitely control your lust」
「Katsuko-san also praised you」
「Un. Yoshida-chan , Katsuko-san drank your semen this morning right?」
「It's unusual for her to do that, right?」
「Or rather, I think it's the first time she did it herself! Doesn't she usually hate it when Sensei orders her?!」
「It seems that she likes you quite well…!」
「Then…Me and Maru-chan wanted to test Yoshida-chan in full scale…!」
「That's last night and…」
「This morning…the incident on the classroom and this pendant right now.」
Haa…I've been in the middle of a test all this time.
…I didn't notice it at all.
「Then…we reached to our conclusion」
「Yoshida-chan…You're 『Broken』!」
「Just like me, Nei, and Katsuko-san…!」
「What's different from the normal people…what's damaged…even we don't know!」
「We've always felt this all this time…!」
Senpai's blue contact lens looked at me…then she said.
「Yoshida-chan…you were thrown by your family right?」
…I!!
「…Just like us!」
「Children who were abandoned by their family…strongly endures aren't they? You need your heart to be more durable…」
Natou-senpai spoke sadly
「But…A child who can endure an unbearable situation, is abnormal as expected」
「You see, humans say 『I'm lonely!』when they're sad, say 『It hurts』when they're in pain, 『I don't want it』when they don't like something, they say 『I'm hungry』when they're hungry, If they don't have someone to tell their feelings honestly…when enduring it has become normal, their hearts would be numb as expected! They'd go crazy!」
「…Then, they'll break」
「Just like you!」
「…Just like us」
Margo-san and Natou-senpai's eyes were lonely…
…Err
…I
…I see, I'm broken…
「It seems that you haven't noticed it yourself?」
Margo-san smiled wryly.
「Y-Yes…I'm sorry」
「You have three symptoms showing up…First is what you just said, 『Not refusing whatever is instructed』」
「Of course, in Yoshida-chan's case, it's only the 『People who you think you like』!」
「You calmly accept the possibility that your body or environment would be hurt in the future. You're not hesitating on the possibility that you yourself would suffer a loss…!」
「In other words you see, you don't have anything!」
I…don't have anything?
「Normal people you see, thinks of their current self, what composes him as a human as very important. That's why, they'd protect that above everything!」
「Their own dream, or their hopes for future, a beloved family, or friends…」
「But you see, Yoshida-chan doesn't have any of those!」
「…That's why you can move your body calmly in such a dangerous situation. You don't have any fear of losing the current environment or your hope for the future…」
「Yoshida-chan…you normally think that 『I don't care what happens from now on. No one would be troubled even if I die』…don't you?」
「You're nihilistic…or should I say that you're already at the farthest point of despair…」
Certainly…I live with that kind of feeling.
There's no way my life would be happy ahead of this…
Having sex with Yukino is probably my highest point in life.
And…This shouldn't continue forever.
It's special case right now and there's now way this will continue…
There's no way for me to be always lucky happy.
I'll get caught by the police eventually…or get killed by Endou.
Or maybe Yukino…
The remainder of my life will surely be miserable…
I'll just writhe and die in the depths of despair…
But, that's fine…
In exchange…I was able to embrace Yukino…!!
I have no regrets…!
「…Well, I have the same symptoms after all!」
…Natou-senpai?
「…Me too」
…Margo-san too
「You see…I can go and walk around the place in Tokyo where there's a lot of people, naked and pee there when Yuzuki-sensei orders me! I don't care even if it's broadcasted worldwide…Because, I don't care about my future anymore already」
「Me too…I can hurt anyone as long as Sensei orders me. I won't hesitate to kill either. Even if it's the president of America…as I don't care about my life anyway」
「If I say in reverse…I can somehow live by having Yuzuki-sensei take out various orders…!」
「Right…I don't have any will to do anything. I don't care about anything at all. There's nothing important to me at all…!」
「…Yoshida-chan's the same right?!」
…Natou-senpai smiled gently.
「No…Yoshida-kun's case is 『Break』is much more intense than us. It shows remarkably on the second symptom…!」
Margo-san looked at me…
Like a scientist who's experimenting…
「…You don't tell a lie…to anyone 」
…Eh?!
「No…Uhm, even I can tell a lie!」
Margo-san swing her neck from my rebuttal.
「You…have you ever lied to me or Nei?」
「No, but that's…there's not a day passing yet…」
「…Usual boys would lie a lot for the first time they met me. They arrange words without their mind on it. They talk about their grandiose pride, or try to make me laugh with such a made up lie…Yoshida-chan never did that at all」
「…That's because…I don't have anything I can be proud of…Isn't my story such uninteresting?」
「You're very interesting…Everything that you're thinking shows on your face. You don't hide a thing at all」
「Really! A child who can't lie, right?!」
「Even if you tried to lie, everyone would know that it's a lie immediately…Thus your lies won't be able to pass…」
「Or rather…wouldn't Yoshida-chan's face show up 『Sorry, I lied』on his face if he lied?!」
Haa…Speaking of which, It might be.
Because I'm dull and bad at lying, I thought that my words don't come out immediately but…Certainly, I notice that 『This is a lie』by myself.
「A person who doesn't lie is afraid that other people might lie to them! They don't want to hear other people's lies so in projection, they force themselves to not lie to other people!」
「…Haha」a strange laugh leaks out of my mouth…
「…I'm a completely broken guy…!」
「That's right…You're 『Broken』 That's why, the third symptom is a problem…!」
…Third?
「Yoshida-chan, Why are you so deeply attached to Shirasaka Yukino?」
…Y-Yukino?
…Attachment?!
「You do know that it's not love isn't it?」
…That's right, this isn't love.
…I don't think that Yukino would come to like me from the beginning.
「…For example, have you imagined the two of you watching a movie, going to karaoke, or going into town to buy clothes?」
…That's.
「…I-I can't」
There's no way I can.
A man like me…going out on a date with someone like Yukino…!!
「Right? That's not serious love isn't it?!」
…That's right, an honest love can't be formed between me and Yukino.
…That's why I raped Yukino!
「…And yet, why did you rape that child?」
…???!!!
「Normal people won't rape people they love! They would wish for their happiness!…Even if that child won't go out with themselves!」
…T-That's.
…I think it is!!
「…When you heard that she had a boyfriend…Yoshida-chan wasn't able to endure it, did you? You raped her forcibly and wanted her to be yours…!」
「But…No matter how many times you rape her, she'll never become yours…」
「That's why, as the number of sexual intercourse increases, the contents escalates steadily too!」
...!!!!
「Why are you so obsessed with Shirasaka Yukino?…You should think about it at least once…!」
…That's!
「…That's, uhm…I like Yukino! That's why…!」
「…Yoshida-chan, what do you know about her? Do you know what kind of food she likes? Do you know her hobbies?…You're not interested in those right?!」
…Natou-senpai?
「…You liked her body or her face?!」
…Margo-san?
「…T-That's not it. That's not…really it, I do like Yukino! It's no good if it's not Yukino!!」
「I told you…it's called obsession…!」
「In the first place, Yoshida-chan…do you even know what's romantic love(恋) or desire(愛)?」
…I don't know.
…Probably.
…Romantic love or Desire.
「Why don't you organize your thoughts first?! Yoshida-chan, have you thought of wanting to have sex with me?」
Natou-senpai made a pose presenting her outstanding figure to me.
「…T-That's」
「Answer honestly! If I pressed saying 『I want to be embraced by Yoshida-chan!』would you have sex with me?」
「Perhaps…I will. Natou-senpai's charming after all…!」
「Thanks!...But you see, when we're already both naked and at the time when you're about to put your penis in, then I would whine saying 『Let's stop!』…What would you do? Your penis is already rock hard, it's in a helpless state! 」
「…Perhaps, I'd give up」
「…You're fine stopping sex?」
「…Yes」
「......Why?!!!」
No…You don't have to be that angry
「I'm not angry!…I'm surprised! I'm shocked!!」
…What
「Nei, you're too agitated. Yoshida-kun…what it's not Nei but『Her』, what would you do? Would you give up midway sex?」
『Her』…Shirasaka Yukino
If Yukino suddenly refused in the middle of the sex…!
「No…Perhaps, I won't be able to endure it」
I…Would still continue by force.
「Right. If it's you, you would still force to have sex no matter how much she cry or beg. You even made it this far…」
That's right…That's how I raped Yukino…
「Then, why were you able to hold back when it was Nei? Does Nei have less sex appeal than her?」
「Mu…That's rude Maru-chan!」
「Sorry sorry, that's a joke of course…!」
That's right…Natou-senpai has a stronger sex appeal than Yukino…
Blond beauty…
She has deep clear features carved that are more beautiful than Yukino…
Even her proportion is men's ideal for an 18 year old girl.
Simply comparing them as women, Natou-senpai would win against Yukino…
「…In short, you're not a sex maniac. You have it different from the pure sexual desire, you desire Shirasaka Yukino…!
「To be honest…Yoshida-chan, what would you like to happen to that girl?」
Yukino…『What do I want to happen』…?!!
「…Do you want to go out with her as a lover?」
…Impossible. That is.
「…Do you wan to marry and have a happy family with her?!」
…I can't do that!!
「…Do you want to eat lunch with her and talk happpily?」
…No good. I don't know what I should talk about with Yukino…!
…Rather than that Yukinoi would never want to talk to me!!
…There's no topic we can talk happily…!!
…I'm startled.
…I shivered.
I…can't spend daily life with Yukino…!
「That's why…you can only make contact with her in the worst form of rape.」
「Uun…Rather, since you know that rape is the worst way for communication, you went to it」
…That's no good.
…I'm the worst.
「…I thought that I wanted to continue raping Yukino for as long as possible… Of course, I think that it's impossible to be forever…I might get caught, die…I know that the end would come eventually… But…I want to continue embracing Yukino forever and ever…!! Aaah, what's with me?!! What's with me?!!!! I'm the worst…This is…!!」
I don't even understand myself…!!
Anyway…I understood that I've done something terrible to Yukino…
「I think that your heart is helplessly obsessed with 『The girl named Shirasaka Yukino』as a compensation act of releasing all of your negative part as a human being… Why has she become the target, you're the only one who can understand that…!」
I…am obsessed with Yukino to relieve the stress in my heart…?!
「…It seems to be the only one」
「But…I really like Yukino!」
「I told you…That's not romantic love!」
「Nei…Shut up for a moment…!」
Margo-san stops Natou-senpai…
「Could I ask another thing…? You're in a sinking ship right now. A rescue boat arrives but there's only one other person that can be helped… It would be you, Nei, and 『Her』, who would you save…?!」
「…I'll save the two and I'll die」
I answered immediately…
「Sorry…My way of asking was bad. It's already certain that you will die by drowning and there's only one of the two that can be saved, who would you save?」
…I was lost in thought for ten seconds.
「…Natou-senpai. I think I want Senpai to survive…!」
That's my honest feelings.
「…Shirasaka Yukino doesn't need saving」
「…Yes」
Even I am surprised.
I'm shocked…
I…don't love Yukino…
「It seems that you understood the difference of love and obsession」
But…If so, just what are my thoughts about Yukino?!!
I…Why do I want Yukino?!
Why do I want to monopolize Yukino…!!
…My heart's beating fast
.…I feel dizzy.
…I feel my stomach getting sick…!
「Calm down Yoshida-chan!…It's fine! It's not that we're persecuting Yoshida-chan…!」
「Yeah…Nei and Me…are just seeking if you have the same 『Dangerous darkness』in your mind! And make you aware of it!」
「That's why, we now know Yoshida-chan's current state…!」
「We've passed through what you're experiencing right now…!」
「That's right, I'm Yoshida-chan's senpai! I'm your Onee-chan!」
…Natou-senpai…?!
…Margo-san…?!
「Your 『Obsession』is another type of 『Darkness』…」
「We also can't escape from our own 『Darkness』…!!」
…Both of them are my senpai?2
「…In my case…I'm attacked by a terrible destruction impulse multiple times every month. I can't help but to hurt someone unrelated, an unknown person…!」
Margo-san confesses with a pained expression…
「…Could that be like last night?」
「Last night was different…Last night's patrol was an irregular to check Yoshida-chan」
「…My real 『Hunger State』isn't like that…」
「…Preventing the enemy from moving and then continuing to gradually torment them…!」
「The impulse won't stop for several hours…!」
Margo-san grips her fist with power…!
Perhaps…the cursed fist bathed in a lot of people's blood.
「This impulse can't be cancelled with just normal sports or martial arts…I don't fight with people stronger than myself. I want to torment people weaker than me…I want to do nothing but bully them…!」
Margo-san…has a dark smile.
「…You see, I want to set fire. I want to see big fires… I want to burn all!」
I recalled the burning car last night…
That's right…Natou-senpai's eyes looking at the flame were abnormal…
「…Katsuko-san is suffering from the impulse of wanting to be raped intensely by a man…!」
…Rape wish?
…Katsuko-san?
「Katsun's sexual impulse is the same as self harm…!」
「…That person thinks of sex as suicide. Forcibly raped by men repeatedly…she wants to be killed by sex…」
「Katsun…even though she's having a hard time to deal with sex…」
「She's mentally unstable, a danger…Thus Yuzuki-sensei observes Katsuko-san's state continuously」
…So that's why Katsuko-san is a maid in Sensei's house.
Actually, Sensei's the one watching over Katsuko-san…!
「Right now, 『I want to open a bakery in the future』is the fake wish Yuzuki-sensei gave her so she's quite stable…」
「Un… if Katsun stopped making bread, she'd go mad, I'm sure…!」
…Fake wish
…A constructed hope
That's why Katsuko-san's immersing herself on making bread.
「Yuzuki-sensei herself is also carrying her own 『Sorrowful darkness』」
…Eh?
「That person has making other people unhappy as her reason for living…」
「But actually, Sensei is thinking that 『herself should be unhappy』… 」
「But, that 『Dark belief』is being swallowed everyday…!」
「She's creates a lot of schemes every day to make herself unhappy…!」
「As a result, she has gathered children with high risk just like as who is a similar existence as herself…!」
「…Sensei's wishing for 『Destruction』! Social, human, including everything that one holds since born…!」
「But, that person's ability is too high. If she can't do 『Destruction』anywhere…Sensei would spread out her 『Dark world』steadily」
「…Sensei is going to change this school into 『Hell』…!」
…That's right.
…When I first met her.
…Sensei said that!!!
『I'll make this school hell』…!!
「…Everyone of us have a psychological disorder. We can't live with a normal person. Hurting other people, making them unhappy…it'll crush one's heart」
「…Un. The dark part of your mind has to be set free! You have to We're cursed after all! We're living like vampires who victimize other people…!」
「…But, Yuzuki-sensei said that we have worth in living」
「This world has has the law of the jungle! We're born to prey on other people, raised…and as a result, we've been distorted in this way…!」
「Even we…have the right even if we victimize someone. Even demons, devils, are born and have the right to live…! That's what Sensei taught us…!」
「『You'll live as my own victim and you should live with me as your victim』…!」
「『Just like how I'm living by eating other sinless people, you should live by victimizing other people too. I'll be the one to forgive your sins. My sins will be forgiven by the devil』…!」
「That's why it's fine…I'll hit someone who's innocent once I can't endure it! I'll hit because I want to…and yet, I'll live!」
「Even me…if I'm not able to endure it anymore, I'll burn something! I'll burn everything! But I'll live! I'll keep on living…!」
…Just what are their pasts?
Perhaps it's a lot of sorrow, sadness, and hate…
Because of someone heartless…these girls have lost their choice on their way of life…
That's not just for Natou-senpai and Margo-san.
Yuzuki-sensei too, Katsuko-san too, and Iwakura-kaichou too…
…And then, me.
I…will I know their story someday?
I…will I talk about myself to these people?
…I don't know for now.
「Yoshida-chan…you're in the 『same family』 as us. You're accepted as the『seventh』…!」
「Me too…I'll be Yoshida-chan's onee-chan!」
Still…the two senpai have accepted me for the time being…
「If ever your libido isn't enough for only just Shirasaka Yukino…you can use my body anytime…I'll meet any of your demands」
「Ah…Of course, even Onee-chan can give her virginity to you! I'll do anything!」
「If ever you want to rape another woman, just tell us…I'll make her faint and bring her to you…!」
「Geez, Maru-chan…Don't resort to violence, Yuzuki-sensei or I can just trick them to come. Katsun's there too…!」
「…In exchange, cooperate with us!」
「Un…I want us to be together and do a lot of 『Bad things』…!」
「Hurt people who're innocent, dirty their minds…to clear out the darkness in our hearts…!」
「Let's do a lot of terrible things…I'm sure it's fun!」
「Yeah, Let's be together as much as possible…!」
「…You're our『companion』!!」
…I
…I
My answer has come out a long time ago.
I…am the same as these people…
Hurting normal people to please the darkness in my heart…
…『Devil』
「…Best regards!」
Natou-senpai's face is wrapped in delight…!
Margo-san showed her white teeth too…!
…They're the same as me.
…I don't think this will continue for all the time.
…Still,I'd want to continue to taste the joy of hell for as long as possibile…!
Remodel the school building…
Gather the problem students…
Then…continue to bring trouble by oneself…!
Very well…I'll become one of those 『Devils』
A made 『Companions』…for the first time in my life.
…I'm glad.
…I'm really glad.
…But
Yukino…?
What would happen to her after this…?!
◇ ◇ ◇
Afterwards…I talked to Natou-senpai and Margo-san while eating the remainder of the bread.
It's not a scary talk anymore.
It's not the story of the past or about the darkness of the heart anymore.
Just some foolish conversations…
『Friend』-like…
Like the story of Katsuko-san failed mail order of a cooking tool…
Or Margo-san teaching children martial arts twice a week…
Or Natou-senpai's brand of cosmetics she's using…
「Yo-chan…you should be changing that 'Natou-senpai' soon…!」
「Eh…Then, what should I call you then?!」
「…I want you to call me『Onee-chan』!」
「…That's a bit」
「What?…Embarrassed?!」
「…Yes」
「Then 『Nei-chan』is fine. It sounds like 『Onee-chan』after all…!」
「T-That's the same…!」
「…You don't want to?!」
Please don't glare at me!!
「『Nei-san』…Is that still no good?」
「Eh, that feels so formal!」
「But…You're older, and a senpai…!!」
「『Nei-san』, 『Nei-san』, 『Nei-san』, 『Nee-san』, 『Nee-san』3…Well, that evolves to there! I'll allow it for now!」
…Haa
「…You see, Nei had a little brother」
Margo-san muttered.
…『Had』?!
「…He died, ehehe」
…Shit
Nei-san's eyes has tears accumulating…
「Sorry…that was a taboo」
Margo-san apologized in a hurry…
「Geez…I remembered it because of Maru-chan…!!」
…Shit
She'll cry if this continues!!
…I tried to change the talk in a hurry.
「Oh right, Can…I call Margo-san 『Maru-san』?」
Margo-san's face stiffened…!
「Yoshida-kun…If you say that again, I'll crush your balls…!」
I-I'm very sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!
While we're having that talk…the chime for the first lesson's end sounded.
「…Yo-chan, what would you do? Would you attend the next class…?!」
…What should I do?
It's troublesome to meet Yukino and Endou…
The people in the class might be having rumors about me…
「I'll be going back to the mansion soon. I can't be here since I long graduated from the school after all…!」
Margo-san says so then stood up…
「I intend to stay here but…I can give you at least a fellatio!」
N-Nei-san?!
「…I want to have my virginity taken with everyone looking! I want Katsun to take a photo too. You want a commemorative photo too, right, Yo-chan? 」
T-that's…certainly.
「That's why, I'll give you only fellatio now. Ah, but, It's my first time giving a fellatio so don't have a lot of expectations…!
「…Your first time?!」
「Un…I've seen a lot of people do it a lot of times so I know the ropes at least…!」
…N-no way!
Nei-san opened her lips and took out her red tongue…
This tongue would lick it…!
「Hey hey, Nei…I think you should get a kiss before doing fellatio」
「Ah, Oh right…I still haven't given my first kiss yet…!」
…Nei-saaaan!!
When I thought of it…!
The iron door opened suddenly…!!
Appearing from the inside is…
Yamamine-san breathing heavily??!!
「…Yoshida-kun, you're still here…!」
Yamamine-san runs towards me!
Aside from Nei-san in her uniform…She flinched from the foreigner Margo-san with a scar on her face.
「…Hello. I'm a last year's graduate. Have you ever heard about the American student Margo Starkweather from anyone?」
「…I know. Good day Senpai」
Like a member of athletic club, yamamine-san politely bowed to Margo-san.
「Un, good day」
Margo-san returned a bow to Yamamine-san too.
「Then…what's wrong, the second class is about to begin right?」
And when I asked Yamamine-san…
She presented me a bunch of papers with writing on it…
「…T-These are the notes from the first lesson. I also made Yoshida-kun's copy. If you don't get something, just ask me…!」
The slit eyes forced a smile…
She's really a good child.
…A gentle person.
「…Natou-senpai, if you're finished with your business, please return Yoshida-kun to the classroom. Please…!」
She bowed towards Nei-san deeply…
…For my sake.
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