Lilac's POV
After what unnie had told me yesterday, I've decided to tell Jung Kook the truth. I never would have thought that he didn't lash out on me after hearing the truth. I thought he was going to scold me or something. But I never would have thought that he just said that he needed time. I understand how bad it was like to know that someone you like had been lying to you all this while. I had felt that kind of feeling before and it makes me feel so useless for being tricked by people like that. Those people are the ones who had made me felt worthless whenever I'm around them. They always makes it seems like I'm not on par with them as they think too highly of themselves. Those people are self-centered and conceited people. But now I have removed these toxics from my life.
I felt so frustrated thinking about what I had done so I decided to do something. Since afternoon, I've been trying non stop to make myself busy so that I wouldn't remind myself about what I have done. The more I think, the more stress I felt so in the end I decided to text Nuna to tell her about it.
To: Unnie
Unnie I had told Jung Kook and he just tell me to leave.
From: Unnie
That's great then. I was worried that you're gonna drag longer.
To: Unnie
I decided to listen to you because I also felt that it's wrong for me to keep on hiding it from him.
From: Unnie
It's good to hear that you had picked up the courage to tell him the truth. Just give him some time. He will come to you once he finish thinking about it.
To: Unnie
Unnie is he angry or not?
From: Unnie
I'm not sure either because I was not there with you. But he didn't lash out on you when you told him right?
To: Unnie
No.
From: Unnie
I think it should be okay then.
To: Unnie
I hope so unnie. I really don't want him to hate me nor getting angry at me for a long time just because of the silly mistake that I have done.
From: Unnie
Don't worry. He's not that kind of person.
To: Unnie
En. Unnie I had t go to sleep ady. I felt so tired. Good night. Sweet dreams. Love you and bangtan.
From: Unnie
Good night. Sweet dreams to you too. Love you and bangtan too.
At least after telling Nuna, my heart felt more at ease than earlier. I didn't know when I fell asleep hugging my phone.
The next morning,
I almost fall off the bed because of my blaring alarm. I cursed at myself for being so stupid to hug my phone while sleeping. I did my daily routine and had my breakfast before setting off to the university. I still felt guilty about what happened yesterday and I was lucky that Jung Kook didn't come to uni today. I wonder what happened to him.
Hey lovelies,
I'm so sorry for not posting earlier today. I'm so busy with classes going on. Thank you so much for reading my book.
Lots of love,
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