บท 17: are you hiding from me? (backstory)
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Flashback ( jimin's POV )
(Please try to imagine this in jimin's voice. Read slowly)
That day, when i first met her.. i was seven. It was winter that time too. Somewhere around September, a month before my birthday.
I lost my mom in the crowd at the market. I was searching for her, sobbing, here and there, when i ended up in the middle of the road.
My hands and legs got sore when i saw a speedy car coming in my direction. I shut my eyes tightly losing all the hopes.
That is when i felt a pull. I opened my eyes, finding myself on a small thing. Oh.. its a girl.
I stopped crying.
I was saved by her. She looked of the same age. But she was an year younger.
I was sobbing a little as i was scared also i was not able to find my mother. I was a shy kid.
She stood up. Her knee was hurt because of me falling on her. But she didn't cried. She offered me her hand to stand up. She smiled and asked " are you okay? Are you hurt anywhere?". Her smile was bright or i say the brightest. I looked at her hand.
I took her hand without being aware of the pain i was going to feel in the near future.
"Its bleeding" i said pointing towards her knee. She looked at here knee and then looked at me. She smiled again. "Its a little scratch. Mommy said its like a reward for oneself." She said.
I took out my handkerchief out of my pocket and offered her to cover her wound with it but She denied. "I don't know how to treat the wounds." She said.
"Why are you crying? Are you hurt?" She asked. "I cant find my mother. She is lost." I said in between my sobs.
" Y/N... Come back here. we are done. Lets go home" her mom shouted from the back.
Y/N. Her name is Y/N. I may not be able to forget it.
She told her parents about me. Her parents were very kind. They took me to the nearest police station and waited until my mom showed up.
She came to file a report of my missing. She thanked her parents a thousand times before We both parted for home. I'll remember her.
After a week we met again. at a shopping mall. Our moms were shopping for the groceries, when they bumped into each other.
She smilied and waved at me. She surely smiles a lot. My mother asked her mom for a coffee as a gratitude for the last time.
They both were having their coffee while we were sipping on our orange juice.
"I don't know your name." She said.
"Jimin." I replied and continued sipping on my juice. " Jimmy" she gave me this nickname. I was a shy kid. I didn't liked to talk much. But she was opposite. She asked too many questions. Her smile didn't faded through out the conversation. She made me speak a lot.
Our mothers found out that they both share common birth places. And that they both have same accent. This got them close and they became friends.
Later on that week, i was getting bullied by some older boys in the local play ground.. they wanted my superhero figurine. I didn't wanted to give them.
A voice stopped them and It was hers. They laughed seeing her. "What did you just said princess? Your voice didn't reached to us." They laughed teasing her. "I said stop.. dont harass him. " She yelled at them.
Is she mad? Can't she see how big are they? She could get hurt. I saw her coming to me. She stood in front of me, covering me. This is a stupidity. Her action made them laugh. "Take this. And leave us alone." She said handing out her soccer ball.
This made one of them angry. " Are you trying to bribe us girl, do you wanna die?" He moved close to her. I was too coward. I couldn't protect her. I stayed hidden behind her. Another boy stopped him wisppering something in his ears. He took that ball from her and left.
What happened. I was too confused. She turned to me all smiling and said " it was signed ball, there wasn't a single chance that they would have refused to it"
" A signed ball? How did you got one? Why did you gave that to them" i asked furiously. Didn't she know the value of a signed ball?
" Daddy gave it to me. I thought your figurine is really important to you so i just kimda exchanged it." She smiled.
She is idiot, yes she is crazy. But after that we got close. We started visiting each other's home to play. I invited her to my birthday. Our mothers started meeting more. Our families got close, so do we.
As time passed by, we started spending more and more time with each other. We even started to stay together at nights, whenever it got late while playing. I didn't had many friends. And she was like a family to me. I didn't want her to play with anyone else other than me. Like this an year passed.
It was her birthday and We were watching her favorite tv show at her house. "Superheroes are so cool.. i wanna be one" she sighed.
"You are already one..... for me. Remember the day you saved me.. you are not less than any super hero. " I said smiling to her.
" Like that superman?" Her eyes sparkled.
"No.. like Supergirl" i said.
"Cool." She was happy when i called her Supergirl. Why not, i wasn't lying. She is a super girl. My super girl.
We started sleeping together often. Our mothers started feeling like they had two kids. I obtained a habit of waking up in the middle of the night as she was a messy sleeper. She kicks off the blanket and i had to cover her again and again. She is cute.
Also she had a habit of sleeping in between the movie. And i had to tell her the whole story the next morning. Such a sleepy head. We both went to different elementary schools but we promised each other to enroll for the same high school. Why? Coz she is an idiot and can't take care of herself. I have to take care of her.
Two years passed by like this. I know everything about her now. Our mothers stopped us to sleep together as we were growing older and it could have been a bad influence.
But we played together every time. I told my mom that I'm gonna marry her one day.
" You are too young to decide it right now. You'll love someone else in the future and want to marry some other girl." She said smiling at me.
" No, no, i don't want to marry any other girl. She is nothing without me. And.. i.. won't love anyone else. " I said without hesitation. She leaned towards me, " jimin-ah, whom do you love more, your mom or Y/N? " She asked smiling at the fact that a nine yr old boy has choosen his bride already. " I love you both equally." I murmured.
" If i have to share my place with her than i am happy. You made a great choice jimin-ah. Mamma is proud of you." She smiled at me.
Y/N started developing her interest in kpop. I never told her how much i like to watch her moving with the beat. I danced with her many times. And she praised me saying that i dance really well. It was almost three years now..
I love winters.. it was the time we met.
We celebrated her birthday. We partied and danced on the kpop. After her friends left, it was our time to watch movies together. It was like a tradition now and i had the permission to stay at her house for the night.
She chosed a horror movie. Had i ever told her that i am afraid of that kinda stuffs.
As expected, she fell asleep in the middle of the movie. I paused the movie and brought a blanket for us. After covering both of us i continued the movie.
Yes i was scared, it was hella scary. I covered my eyes thousand times. But forced myself to watch it. Because i knew, tomorrow morning, she will ask me the story. And i have to tell her the story. I watched the whole movie. I watched for her.
I didn't know since when i was like this? One thing was sure....I love her. I was fallen for her flaws. When was the time i fall for her? Her cute things? The time she stood up for me? Or the first time we met? I just love her. But.... That wasn't enough i guess.
Maybe....
Thats why she left me.
A day before my birthday... I gave her a call.. to ask when she is coming back from her grandma's house which was in daegu. She didn't picked up. It was strange, she always picks up my phone and greet me with her melodic voice. I asked my mom to give a call to her mother. She didn't picked up either. My mother told me that they must be busy in packing or something. Then why do i feel like something worst was gonna happen. I waited for her call after calling her several times. I was scared. It was hard to sit calmly. I waited for her to show up on my birthday. Everyone was already arrived, my mother tried contacting her mother but there was no response from their side. I didn't cut the cake. I left for her house to check if they have arrived yet. Her house was locked. Neighbors had no idea about where they were. I sat in front of her door waiting for her to show up. It was midnight when my mother started insisting to go home. Several days passed. She didn't showed up, nor she called. I started waiting in front of her door daily..
she will come. She will appear. She will greet me with her smile. I have to stay here. She will come and hug me like always. She will tell me how much she missed me. I wanted to see her.
My parents were stressed because of this action of mine.
After a week, when i went to her house to wait for her again. I saw a group of people coming out of the house. Where's mr and mrs tan? I can't see them.. a lady noticed me going up to the door and sitting there. She came to me and asked my name. I asked her if she knows Y/N. She said she was her aunt.
My face lit up. I asked her where's she.
She smiled. " She died...Her parents and she died in a car accident few days ago."
No.
This can't be. I could feel my whole world shaking.
"She is not dead. You're lying." I shouted as she turned to leave. She smiled again. That irritating smile of hers. I hate it. Tears started building up in my eyes. I turned around and started knocking the door. In the hope that she will open it. She will smile at me and call me jimmy like she always do.
"Jimin-ah, whats wrong?"My mother asked me as she saw my red swelled eyes. I told her about what that lady said and Her body frozened. She pulled me in a tight hug.
Why? Does she believes it?
" Why?
Why?
WHY?
She is not dead mom." I shrugged her off and almost yelled at her. I ran to my room. I wasn't able to sleep that night. I didn't visited her house for a few days..
I convinced myself that she isn't dead. She will come. All i have to do is wait.
I started visiting her house again. I sat in front of her door for hours.
" You little idiot, are you enjoying seeing me like this?" I murmured.
" Are you hiding somewhere?
I give up, you won
now please come out.
Greet me again with that bright smile of yours. Just one more time call me jimmy. Just a last time Y/N" i broke into tears.
"I hate winters." I said wiping away my tears.
I hate winters.. it was the time you left me.
I distanced myself from others. I almost stopped smiling. I stopped playing. I stopped celebrating my birthday.
I visited her house everday for an year.
It was hard. Time passed. It was two years already. I was 12 now.
"Are you enrolling?" An classmate asked another one.
"I heard that you can even perform on an international stage too." A classmate said.
"International?
Kpop?" I murmured as a thought strucked my mind. What if she is livind abroad or something? I don't know why i thought this, but i don't want to neglect any possibility. Also if i gain power i could find her.
I was sitting on the bench waiting for my turn to audition. "Kpop? You like kpop, don't you?" I smiled when i remembered us dancing together.
Everytime,
my mind tells me to stop but this heart, this heart says "you are doing well jimmy,
just a little more,
wait a little more."
but It hurts.
It was my turn. I gave it my best. I danced and they selected me.
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