บท 2: What happened? Who am I?
It is not known how long Aruna lost her focus, but one thing is certain, she couldn't find any of the answers she was looking for all this time.
'Usually, in transmigration or back to the past novels, there is a trigger for why someone can experience strange and unreasonable things like this. So, there must be a reason why I had to come back here. Of all years, why did it have to be 2010? Of the many series of events in my life, why did it have to be this one? Shit, I haven't used my brain to think about serious craps like this for a long time. My brain can not take it anymore.'
Then, an image appeared in Aruna's brain. That one image was enough to make her hot sizzling brain freeze instantly.
'If I was 12 years old now, then he... Woahhh, I can't imagine it. 10 years old?! Literally, I'm dating a 10 year old who is still in elementary school?! Crazy!'
'What am I thinking about, even at a critical time like this I'm still thinking about him. But, what if he contacts me while I'm here? Wait a minute, what happens to "me" in 2024? Am I dead? Coma?'
A heavy sigh escaped from between her plump lips, the more she thought about it, the more questions emerged. This just making the girl's head feel even heavier.
'I don't know... What happens will happen, thinking about it until my head explodes doesn't seem to make any difference. But...'
Aruna grabbed her blue pencil and started rubbing it on the clean white paper, the back of her book. The name of someone who had been stuck in her mind all along was now clearly printed on the book.
'Can I still meet him? What if I change the destiny? Will everything in 2024 also change? What if I mess it up? Does that mean he and I will never meet in the future?'
*Sigh*
'My head really hurts. I miss him, I want to hug him. And also... Seriously, why of all times do I have to go back to this time?!'
Tears broke out deep in her heart, while her outer body had to keep smiling listening to her friend's chatter which she once thought was normal. But currently, her soul is already 26 years old.
It needs to be underlined, and put in a bold: 26 years old.
The example is, in a game she has reached level 100. During her journey to raise this level, she has faced various kinds of monsters. Suddenly one day, the game she was playing had an error and made her character to reset. All the experiences and equipments she had obtained disappeared in a matter of seconds, and she returned to beginner level.
Doesn't just imagining it make you scared?
Aruna held all the pain in her heart and tried her best not to curse out loud.
"Wow, my husband was very handsome yesterday. I saw him in someone's Facebook post and saved all the pictures without exception. How about you?"
'Me? I want to cry 😭'
Instantly, dark memories from Aruna's past crept up from the hole that she had sealed tightly. She never dared to open it again, but right now, it was like she was being tied to a pole and forced to watch all her disgrace exposed, displayed, and rubbed onto her face.
Aruna wasn't even allowed to close her eyes or look away, all she could do now was accept it all.
"Ha ha, of course I've download everything until the last bit. Clean without exception."
Even though she had reduced the levels to a point she could tolerate, a bitter taste still remained in her mouth.
'How many years or even decades have I not chatted excitedly about KPop?'
Her friend, still continuing without stopping, was not the least bit suspicious of Aruna's simple response.
'Come to think of it, the old me would definitely have snatched up every opportunity to talk. No matter what the other person thinks, I will continue talking. Woah, I'm really annoying. I have to give Vanya a thumbs up for being friends with me for about 9 years.'
"Right, how is your relationship with *Mas Vino?"
"Hmm?"
It took Aruna a few seconds to process the name, then reality hit her very, very hard.
At this very young age, more precisely 12 to 13 years old, she was already in a relationship with someone who was 3 years older than her. This person's name is Vino.
"Pretty good, I guess?"
"He's going to pick you up again today? Wow, I'm so jealous. Galang, my boyfriend can't do that because we both still in middle school. So, we come home at the same time."
'When I think about it, my middle school life was truly extraordinary. Incredibly terrible. I am surrounded by people who think dating is normal. In fact, if you don't have a girlfriend or boyfriend, you will be considered strange.
Like this friend of mine, she tries very hard to remain "normal", by making an imaginary boyfriend named Galang.
In her story, Galang is a boy who is one year older than her. Going to school and living in the city center, giving her the reason to always say "actually I want to show him, but he's very far away. So I can't do that." The classic reason, which is quite contradictory to the story that says "Galang" often comes to her house to give her surprise or pick her up for a walk.
It can be concluded from the whole story that "Galang" is a dream boy who often appears as the main character in fanfiction. Therefore, I used to be quite doubtful about the story. And for now...
I really, really doubt its veracity.'
'But, here I am a 26 year old adult. So, I have to act mature according to my age.'
"Then how about we go out together this weekend? You said, Galang always takes you out every weekend, right?"
There was a look of mischief in Aruna's eyes, even though her soul was mature, her hobby to tease people still outweighed all the nonsense about "maturity" that she always put up.
'Nice.'
Aruna cheered with a small jump in her heart, then, it didn't take long, she realized how childish she was right now.
'What am I doing, really.'
"Ah, I forgot, I don't think I can make it. I will end my relationship with Mas Vino before the weekend comes." Aruna continued with an indifferent expression.
"Eh? Broke up with Mas Vino? Why? You two just started dating, right?"
"I..."
There was a long pause, the face of a handsome man wearing glasses appeared in her brain and made her smile without realizing it.
"like someone else." She continued slowly.
"Who? Do I know him?"
This smile lasted for the first time for a long time, "No, he's someone you don't know. In fact, I don't even know him now."
Vanya looked confused when she heard Aruna's answer.
"What does that mean? You said you liked him, then how could you not know him?"
*Sigh*
"That's right, how could I still like him even though I don't know him? Actually..."
'What happened? Who am I?'
'Am I a 26 years old Aruna, or 12 years old teenage girl Aruna?'
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