บท 55: Chapter.44.Shanghai 4
Xi has been in his hotel room.
He was lying on a bed.
He looked at the dim lights in the ceiling above his bed.
He had seen the reality of Old Gang Gang's granddaughter's experience. He had known that everything in the world was not as expected by most people.
There is a lot of sadness that each person has.
Like when he lost his father, who had lied to him and left him and his mother ...
Like when Li Yuan cried because his regret had killed Yang Xi, the man who loved Li Yuan in her past.
All that is painful to remember.
Everyone hopes they will never experience it.
But...
That girl ... a girl named Sung Ning has been forced to lose everything.
She has lost everything ... she has lost her sanctity; she has lost her smile; she has lost her joy; she has lost her mind, and the worst is the girl has also lost the person she loves most ...
Ya ... All that is true that the man she loved had left the poor girl.
"I shouldn't have told the girl that she was disgusting ..." Xi muttered.
"Damn ... my lips have made someone considers themselves to be despicable girls ..."
"Damn ... my impudent tongue destroys everything ..."
"I shouldn't say all my anger and resentment to the girl, if I haven't found out why she did it all ... why should I blame her? ..."
"Xi, you are the worst human ..." Xi muttered.
Everyone should not say everything without people knowing the reason why someone is doing something despicable like committing suicide.
But, do you know, kid? That most humans are living things from their tongues and mouths. They will always say what they want without knowing all the truth behind it all ...
They are idiots ... They are naïve ... They are the most selfish creatures ...
They really like to insult and drop the spirit and hope of others through the words of their tongue and their disgusting lips.
I hope you understand it all. That is the truth you need to know at this time ... That each of the words that humans say will be able to keep others alive and the words that people say will make others think that death is the right choice ..
So, when your mother says she is fine when you ask why is she crying? That is the way your mother survives and continues to stand firm.
Because if your mother falters ... She won't have the spirit to continue to save your happiness, and happiness belongs to your sister.
The reality will change to not be what you expected. Just like the girl, she got the fact that he had tainted her, and had lost her happiness.
***
To the next morning Xi woke up from his sleep.
He felt he was very evil and blemished. He felt guilty about what he said yesterday to Sung Ning.
So, when he saw Old Man Gang Xin sitting in front of the hotel lobby. Xi intends to ask Old Man Gang Xin to bring him together with his granddaughter.
At least he wants to apologize.
A word like "disgusting" is very inappropriate to say to the girl.
"Old Man Gang Xin," Xi said, approaching The old man Gang Xin in the hotel lobby.
Old Man Gang Xin immediately stood up from the guest chair.
"Do you now want to be taken to a place, Mr. Xi?" Old Man Gang Xin asked.
His job is to take Xi wherever Xi will go.
Xi nodded.
"I think it's more like ... I want you to take me to see your granddaughter ..."
Old Man Gang Xin tilted his head. He was confused to hear Xi's request to be sent to meet his granddaughter.
"Is there something you want to say to my granddaughter, Mr. Xi? If it's just a message, maybe I can be an intermediary for you ..." Old Man Gang Xin said.
Xi shook his head.
"No ... Not about that, Old Man Gang Xin ... This is more ..." Xi muttered.
"I said something bad to your granddaughter yesterday ..."
"First of all I will apologize to you, Old Man Xin ... I have said that your granddaughter is disgusting because she intends to commit suicide ... "
"I feel that I can't forgive my words yesterday ... Saying something to something I shouldn't say to someone who is experiencing misfortune like your granddaughter ... "
Old Man Gang Xin is just silent while continuing to pay attention to Xi.
"I have said the words that I should not have said ... So, I feel very guilty now ..."
Old Man Gang Xin interrupted.
He shook his head slowly.
"That is not a big problem, Mr. Xi ... My granddaughter is not what you imagine ... She doesn't think for trivial words like you told her ..." Old Man Gang Xin said with a small smile on his lips.
Xi shook his head again.
"Please allow me to apologize directly, Old Man Gang Xin ..."
Xi bows ninety degrees towards old man Gang Xin.
Old man Gang Xin was shocked by Xi's request and bow. So, he quickly asked Xi not to bow his head.
Old Man Gang Xin is a driver after all.
Meanwhile, Xi is his current employer.
"Mr. Xi, don't do that ... I feel very embarrassed if you do it ..."
Old Man Gang Xin immediately shook his head and grabbed Xi's shoulder and placed it in its original position.
"I will take you to meet my granddaughter, Mr. Xi ..." said Old Gang Gang.
"Thank you, Old Man Gang Xin ..." Xi said.
Old Man Gang Xin and Xi finally left the hotel.
***
In the car headed for Old Man's Gang Xin Residence.
"Old Man Gang Xin, I'm actually still a little curious ..." Xi said.
"Curious? What makes you feel curious, Mr. Xi ...?"
Xi paused for a moment.
"About a man named Wang Xi ... Do you think that he has forgotten your granddaughter ...? "
Old Man Gang Xin turned his head for a moment to Xi, then he turned back to the streets.
"I think it's quite logical ... Wang Xi comes from the richest family in Shanghai ... So, it's only natural if he leaves my granddaughter after the rape ... It's all logical ... If, he still has a relationship with my granddaughter ... That will cause harm to her family ... "
... "
"Who wants to have a woman who is a rape victim who is a candidate for her daughter-in-law ..."
"..."
"But, sometimes I think ... No ... I always hope that one day ... my granddaughter will get her smile again ... I think Wang Xi can return Ning'er as usual ..."
"I think Wang Xi can bring back the original Ning'er to us ..." Old Man Gang Xin said with a wry smile.
"But, I feel that it's all impossible ... That incident has been five years ... There isn't a single bright spot for Little Ning ..."
"So, only we can entertain and keep Ning'er firm ... "
"I guess that's all we can do only wait for Ning'er's recovery ..."
Xi just nodded.
He did not want to say something that was actually on his mind now.
Xi had thought that Wang Xi might still love Ning'er.
This differs from Xi's betrayal that Chu Yana and Yang Jie had done to him.
Ning'er still had a glimmer of hope back in Wang Xi, the man she loved.
But, the bitterness that Xi felt was different.
The two people were falsehood from the start.
There is no original. So there is no reason for Xi to hope. Sometimes he might hope just like old man Gang Xin that everything that has happened to him is just delusional and unreal.
Xi hopes that his father's death is just a nightmare.
Betrayal by Chu Yana and Yang Jie is another delusion in his sleep.
But, all of that is real.
Xi might be crazy like Ning'er if Li Yuan didn't come to his hometown, Shincuan.
How would he not go crazy if he lost his father and betrayed the person he trusted ...
But, he is grateful he is human. He has anger and revenge that keeps him sane.
He will be able to continue with the flat-breasted girl, if he reveals what he feels and what he wants.
Although, he was rather late to realize all of his feelings.
But, he felt there was still time to say what he really felt and he had thought about Li Yuan, namely;
About the fact that he had fallen in love with Li Yuan, the girl he always ridiculed as a flat-breasted girl.
Xi can only laugh at himself because he has been consumed by his own oath. His mouth and heart said different things about the girl.
***
They had arrived at a two-story house. It is a gray-painted house and has a large roof above it. They instal iron wire fences around the edge of the border at the top.
Xi felt that this family had built a wire wall on the roof of their house so that Granddaughter Gang Xi's granddaughter would do nothing silly like jumping suicide.
"Please come in, Mr. Xi ..."
Xi nodded.
In the room Xi saw as soon as he had things neatly placed here and there.
It looks messy.
"Sorry, my house is a mess, Mr. Xi ... My daughter must take care of everything, after Ning'er experienced the incident, she became even more troublesome because she had to take care of my granddaughter too ..." Old Gang Gang said.
Xi nodded.
Old Man Gang Xin led Xi to the second floor of his residence.
On the second floor there are three rooms. Old Man Gang Xin brought Xi to the room door painted in pink.
"Ning'er, this is your grandpa, baby ... Can you open the door for grandfather ...? I bring someone who wants to talk to you ... Ning'er? "Old Man Gang Xin called while tapping on the room's door.
However, there was no answer from his granddaughter.
"Little Ning ..." called Old Man Gang Xin again.
Xi looked at Old Man Gang Xin.
He then shook his head slowly.
"I thought she had fallen asleep or was resting now ... I thought, I would speak to Ning'er when she came out of her room, Old Man Gang Xin ..."
"But ... Mr. Xi ..." Old Man Gang Xin muttered.
"I think that is the best choice for now ... After all, isn't this too sudden a mistake for me to meet and apologize to your granddaughter, Old Man Gang Xin ...?" Xi said..
Xi smiled.
"If you think like that ... I don't mind ... " Old Man Gang Xin said.
Old Man Gang Xin then nodded.
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